I'm so sad I'm leaving. I don't want to leave this school. It's my last week...so I'm not going to bother to apply make-up this week. I'll cry it all off. I'm really upset. This is the first time I'm moving pretty much ever. I'm leaving Union. My home. Where I was raised. Close to my friends. It's where my heart and soul is. I don't want to leave it behind. I've been getting kind of depressed lately and hiding it at school. I'm naturally happy, so it comes easy for me. A couple times this weekend, I broke down and started crying in the midst of painting my room, knowing that I had to live there soon. Too soon.
I feel like I'm upsetting a lot of people by leaving, but I also feel like I'm making people happy by leaving. People joke around a lot saying they will be happy when I leave, and I know they are joking, but I can't help but take some of it too heart. Especially when it's friends I KNOW I've upset in the past. I still feel they are holding a grudge. I also feel the people the people I've met at school these past couple months won't be that upset about it, because I'm still nervous around people...and I've never acted really how I am around anyone. It's either I'm too pushy, too annoying, too obnoxious, too quiet, I'm never how I really am and I'm POSITIVE I've driven people away because of that.
Anyways, I have to get off. Bye. </3
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Favorite Christmas movie by far. : D
