I don't know what

[Hiddochi wolf]

I'm doing with my liiiiiiiiiife. And everyone thinks I'm the most put-together person.

I WANT to do so many things but I rarely actually pursue them.

I'm a walking ******** of contradictions. I pride myself on being the oddball in my field, but am I TOO odd to actually succeed?

I'm tired of being tired all the tiiiiiiime.

When will I just get my chance already? I'm sick of trying and working and pushing myself only to never get a single thing in return...  

[Kor Saiyajinkami]

Hiddochi wolf

I'm doing with my liiiiiiiiiife. And everyone thinks I'm the most put-together person.

I WANT to do so many things but I rarely actually pursue them.

I'm a walking ******** of contradictions. I pride myself on being the oddball in my field, but am I TOO odd to actually succeed?

I'm tired of being tired all the tiiiiiiime.

When will I just get my chance already? I'm sick of trying and working and pushing myself only to never get a single thing in return...

Well I would imagine that it's far better than wanting to be able to push myself, but being restricted by my mental illness and therefore stagnating in failure, homelessness, and poverty. I'd trade with you if I could, but I don't think you'd want that even if it could be traded so easily. I wish my brain would let me do enough to get myself outta this situation and it's frustrating knowing that I can't do it and that I must rely on help from a program that seems to expect me to do more than I'm capable as if I didn't have any mental health problems at all. I mean if I had none of those problems, I wouldn't need them to help me because I wouldn't need the help in the first place.  

[Zphal]

You can do it, Hiddo! I know you can! You are awesome! *shakes pompoms* You've already succeeded at so much; I'd know cuz I've known you so long and watched you grow.

(Being tired blows though. D: )