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Posted: Wed Jul 01, 2015 4:39 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 01, 2015 4:58 pm
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Dark eyed, tired, and in dire need of consolation that wasn't just in crumbs (Chris is back, Kostya never left, America's clone isn't homicidal), Dawson dragged himself out of the common room. After a quick pit stop to splash some cold water on his face, he made his way out and onward into town, wiping his face on his shirt as he walked. It was humid and hot, just like home; just as awful, just as drowning. Smile, Daws, smile. At least there aren't mosquitos.
And he was indeed looking like his usual buoyant self as he approached Kostya, even though the default expression couldn't hide sleepless nights and anxiety attacks. He forgot to bring a snack; it felt like common courtesy to.
"Sup, bruh," he greeted. "Been hidin' in yer prairie dog hole from the heat? Smart move."
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Posted: Wed Jul 01, 2015 6:05 pm
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"Pffhah, I check on erryone, man," Dawson said with a small chuckle. "Sure, we more like, uh....work buds, I guess, but you still cool people in my book. Plus with this business with Meri, well..."
Thus was his awkward segue into the topic at hand. He took his hat off and fanned himself, letting his head cool. "Figured s'only fair we talk about this."
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Posted: Wed Jul 01, 2015 7:45 pm
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"Love is not alvays enough."
It was a reminder that he was the catalyst for that, too. The timing-- right after she'd asked him for his side-- and what had followed right after, was...
He sighed, rubbing his forehead. "Suicidal?" Kostya peered at Dawson. "I am unsure. Ve did not get along much, once they start to date. It vas complicate." A gesture at the bunker as a whole. "I make to, ah. Give space? Also to make thing, for self. But I vanted to give them room to...be. Vithout intrusion."
A nod. "Yes, ve had a long talk. Not so much as others, though. Use to be like this." Kostya crossed his fingers. "I still love her very much, as friend only, but do not need to rely on as much in every day life. Truth be told, I do not see many people much, outside duty. So it go, da?"
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Posted: Wed Jul 01, 2015 8:30 pm
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"Hrm." Before Deus, he would have had a hard time believing love couldn't be enough. After all, romance was what he thought he had needed ever since puberty hit: something to complete him, someone to fill the hole, the other half.
But now he could look at Kostya somberly and nod, slowly accepting the reality in a way keeping it only in his head didn't allow. Odd how he had always thought they were a trio, like a rope and pulley system: America as the metal hook in the center, Taym and Kostya the different weights on either side tugged up and down, never meeting together but with the same reach to her. Maybe it had been easier to view them as a collective rather than as individuals because he was used to feeling like a fringe element. Kostya seemed sympathetic to the notion.
"We been talkin' a bit too," Dawson said. "DMs n' stuff." He bought himself time to think about what to say by taking another gulp of water. "Ya'll might not be s'close anymore, but she needs her people more than ever, y'know? So she don' feel alone." His mouth twisted. "Wish I could do more fer her, y'know? A friend hurts n' it's like," he thumped his fist against his chest, "ya hurt with 'em."
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Posted: Wed Jul 01, 2015 9:53 pm
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Kostya had a way of looking through people rather than at them, and it did him a favor, now, when he looked at Dawson and found himself adrift. Dawson had made it seem, a little, like he might know something-more, although he couldn't put a finger on what.
And still, he'd reached out to her. Cared for her, and as far as it seemed to Kostya, it was a genuine sort. Something to mull over, to be certain.
"It is true. She does." Just, perhaps, not this one. "I am glad she is keeping good company, apart from Lawrence." A storm crossed over Kostya's face, but it passed as soon as it set on. "I am afraid I do not understand the sentiment. Or, I guess to say, I do not feel it. But I do vant her to be...okay. I vant her to be more than okay. But sometimes, time is all ve have to give."
Kostya looked miserable at the prospect.
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