Epine de Rose
As Iara walked the beach her paws felt heavy. Not even the call of the ocean enticed her currently as she slowly trudged across the beach. For days the lioness had argued with not only herself but her family as well about this day. As she stalled on the sand Iara glanced across the gleaming ocean with stinging eyes, “I need to do this for them.” For her cubs who worried constantly about her heart and her health…but also for her self. If she kept doing this waiting constantly until the darkest hours of night by the ocean shore, searching the pride borders when there wasn’t much work to do, lingering around certain areas full of memories…then she would never be able to get herself out of the past. With her grandcubs around now she had to keep going, she couldn’t just shut down because of the past because she couldn’t pull away from his memory. Too many still needed her as both a family member and a healer for the pride.
“I suppose I really can’t do what you did mother.” Iara commented quietly to the waves as she reminisced on cubhood memories. The reason her sisters had to separate to survive when there was no one else left for them was a mother who had closed herself off due to a broken heart. Iara had sworn she would never do such a thing and that memory gave her the strength to continue down the beach until she could find the lion she was looking for.
She just hoped that Ram would forgive her for this.
But what else was she to do? She had to talk to him to see what their leader thought of her situation. Talise especially was crying with her to continue on and to move forward rather than stay stuck in the past. This was the way that had been decided on so that she could prove to everyone she was moving on. Not that Iara would ever expect to give her heart out so easily again, but even Posey would have never wanted her to be stuck miserable and alone like this forever.