Alright so here's what's going on.
I am sexually attracted to women in the definite and extreme way. I am slightly attracted to men I guess, but really it's more that I tend to be emotionally attracted to men - not sexually really.
Here's where I have a problem, I have a boyfriend. We will have been together three years in November. I love him, I really do...but it's almost purely emotional.
He has almost no sex-drive which on some levels has been a blessing for me, because while we have had sex I am still kinda grossed out by a mans anatomy which is probably not normal...but whatever.
He has told me several times that I can go find sexual relationships with women outside our relationship if I'd like to. But I feel this is unfair, and I don't think I'd be able to enjoy it seeing as even with his blessing it would feel like cheating. Not to mention I'm sure he's only saying it because for some reason if I were to find a women he claims that evokes no feelings of jealousy and also I think he feels bad about having a low sex drive (not that mines sky high or anything because it's certainly not.)
I just - I'm starting to feel at a loss. I don't want to leave him because I love him, I like cuddling, he makes me feel safe. But at the same time I feel like I'm missing out on some integral part of my life.
Any advice would be appreciated...I really have no idea what the right answer is here.
I am sexually attracted to women in the definite and extreme way. I am slightly attracted to men I guess, but really it's more that I tend to be emotionally attracted to men - not sexually really.
Here's where I have a problem, I have a boyfriend. We will have been together three years in November. I love him, I really do...but it's almost purely emotional.
He has almost no sex-drive which on some levels has been a blessing for me, because while we have had sex I am still kinda grossed out by a mans anatomy which is probably not normal...but whatever.
He has told me several times that I can go find sexual relationships with women outside our relationship if I'd like to. But I feel this is unfair, and I don't think I'd be able to enjoy it seeing as even with his blessing it would feel like cheating. Not to mention I'm sure he's only saying it because for some reason if I were to find a women he claims that evokes no feelings of jealousy and also I think he feels bad about having a low sex drive (not that mines sky high or anything because it's certainly not.)
I just - I'm starting to feel at a loss. I don't want to leave him because I love him, I like cuddling, he makes me feel safe. But at the same time I feel like I'm missing out on some integral part of my life.
Any advice would be appreciated...I really have no idea what the right answer is here.