i do. as i dont really have anyone here at the moment i can voice this all to and its eating at me. you dont even have to read this, i just needed to say it.
things are... not going awsomely. its like every bad thing that could happen, is all pileing itself into one year.
strike 1: a 'friend' breaks me hand for refusing to sleep with him
strike 2: my nanu died
strike 3: i find out weak teeth run in my family and i'll probibly have to get porclens by the time i'm 30.
strike 4: i get into a huge blow out with my step mother. we are not on speaking terms
strike 5: i get into a blow out with my father. almost as bad as #3. not quite.
strike 6: my susi (other great grandmother) dies
strike 7: i almost loose my dog to infection. shes okay now.
strike 8: i take a hard shoulder to the face and have been in and out of the dentist for a week
and last but not least,
strike 9: i'm spending 30 hours in a car with #4 and #5 next week as we go to see my last living great-grandma; who dieing. and we just got into ANOTHER fight about it.
my view on it: sherry (my fathers live-in girlfriend of about 12 years) is coming with us to see my last living grandmother. me and her are like oil and water. we just dont mix. never have, never will. well, the only way we can use her car to drive there (though i suggested we get a rental, i would even pay for it) she wants to come too. i say no. this is a family affair. she is NOT my family. when i was a little girl, she didn't even want to be an athority figure in my life. now she wants me to treat her like a second mother. and thats just not happening. i already have a mother. i was excited about the trip, i really was. untill i found out she was going, and i disapprove. i'm already going to see my dads family, who, i might add, havent ever aknowleged my Existence. this would be my fist time meeting them, and i was looking forward to meeting them stress free and just being me. not carrying the problems from back home with me.
alright. thanks. thats all folks.
things are... not going awsomely. its like every bad thing that could happen, is all pileing itself into one year.
strike 1: a 'friend' breaks me hand for refusing to sleep with him
strike 2: my nanu died
strike 3: i find out weak teeth run in my family and i'll probibly have to get porclens by the time i'm 30.
strike 4: i get into a huge blow out with my step mother. we are not on speaking terms
strike 5: i get into a blow out with my father. almost as bad as #3. not quite.
strike 6: my susi (other great grandmother) dies
strike 7: i almost loose my dog to infection. shes okay now.
strike 8: i take a hard shoulder to the face and have been in and out of the dentist for a week
and last but not least,
strike 9: i'm spending 30 hours in a car with #4 and #5 next week as we go to see my last living great-grandma; who dieing. and we just got into ANOTHER fight about it.
my view on it: sherry (my fathers live-in girlfriend of about 12 years) is coming with us to see my last living grandmother. me and her are like oil and water. we just dont mix. never have, never will. well, the only way we can use her car to drive there (though i suggested we get a rental, i would even pay for it) she wants to come too. i say no. this is a family affair. she is NOT my family. when i was a little girl, she didn't even want to be an athority figure in my life. now she wants me to treat her like a second mother. and thats just not happening. i already have a mother. i was excited about the trip, i really was. untill i found out she was going, and i disapprove. i'm already going to see my dads family, who, i might add, havent ever aknowleged my Existence. this would be my fist time meeting them, and i was looking forward to meeting them stress free and just being me. not carrying the problems from back home with me.
alright. thanks. thats all folks.
