Ok, um... I have dealt with being really freaked out about talking to people and being in social situations.
I hardly ever talked and when I did it was with people I felt comfortable with, my close family.
And I did not want to be by myself in a public place and I did not like loud music, it made me really freak out and feel like I wanted to lose control.

Well, I tried to get a job when I was 16, it failed epically cuz I would freak out so much and get so sick physically that I couldn't function and could hardly talk so I quit in a week's time and felt horrible about it.

And I attempted two more times at a job and the same thing happened so I went to therapy.

Therapy helped a lot, went for 3 years and I feel a lot better and I have more self esteem and I am able to function better.
They said I suffered from mild social anxiety and job phobia.

Well, I attempted another job last year and I kept it for almost 2 months but at the job there was a rude older woman who bullied me and well, I snapped, cried and felt horrible and couldn't go back.
And all the time I was working, I pushed myself to go although I was still freaking out, could hardly talk and I felt physically sick and I was mentally tormented off and on.

Now I am going to go to a Dr. this coming Tuesday, going to talk to them about my problems and see if I can get a official diagnosis and some help but in the meantime, my older sister who is living with me and my mother, she got a boyfriend who she is REALLY liking and the last week has been hell for me.
I am really happy for her but I start thinking about how things will change and if ppl talk about it too much I get physically sick, nauseous, a whopping headache and I zone out, wanna just back out of it all and when I am by myself I cry a lot.

I get so frustrated with myself and so angry that I can't react normally to things.
It is really driving me crazy cuz I am like on a mental rollercoaster.

I told my best friend about everything and she's known me for almost 10 years and she thinks I may possibly have a touch of autism cuz she has a brother, her father and some of her friends have autism and she says she has thought I may be slightly autistic.

What do you all think?
And how is the diagnosis process done cuz it is really making me tense and nervous, thinking about it cuz I have never gone to a Dr. to get a diagnosis.

But yeah... please pm me with advice or just reply on my post plz! I would really appreciate some help and advice.