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- Posted: Wed, 16 Apr 2014 22:24:15 +0000
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Relinquished To Hell
I'd rather be alone, where people can hate me as much as they like than be with people, where I'm fake.
Ah, yes, that would make anybody feel good. "Your anxiety is nobody else's problem". That makes it sound like nobody cares about it and I should just shut up about it.
Civility is hard for me, how about that? It may not be hard for you and your friends, but I don't see people as living, breathing, feeling things. I see them as disgusting, vile, mean things. I don't want to deal with other people, and therefore, I will be mean to them.
Ever thought that I may have a mental issue that IS the excuse for my hostility? Yeah, no, you didn't. I have sociopathy. I can't care about you or your feelings. And I'm not saying that because I'm an emo bratty little teenager, no, I'm saying that because I was diagnosed with it when I was 8 years old. My brain doesn't work like yours. I, literally, cannot care about anything. You would obviously be very upset if, lets say, someone close to you got into an accident and died. I wouldn't feel anything. I wouldn't cry, I wouldn't scream, I wouldn't be emotional towards it, I wouldn't /care/.
Ah, yes, that would make anybody feel good. "Your anxiety is nobody else's problem". That makes it sound like nobody cares about it and I should just shut up about it.
Civility is hard for me, how about that? It may not be hard for you and your friends, but I don't see people as living, breathing, feeling things. I see them as disgusting, vile, mean things. I don't want to deal with other people, and therefore, I will be mean to them.
Ever thought that I may have a mental issue that IS the excuse for my hostility? Yeah, no, you didn't. I have sociopathy. I can't care about you or your feelings. And I'm not saying that because I'm an emo bratty little teenager, no, I'm saying that because I was diagnosed with it when I was 8 years old. My brain doesn't work like yours. I, literally, cannot care about anything. You would obviously be very upset if, lets say, someone close to you got into an accident and died. I wouldn't feel anything. I wouldn't cry, I wouldn't scream, I wouldn't be emotional towards it, I wouldn't /care/.
You aren't the only neuroatypical in this thread, and no- it's not an excuse. Sociopathy in no way prevents you from being civil. I've suffered most of my life from intermittent explosive disorder, a mental illness characterized almost solely by outbursts of rage grossly disproportionate to their triggers, meaning my brain is specifically wired to react with extreme anger and hostility with little to no cause, and I can manage to be civil. More than likely, so can you- you just choose not to. That is your choice to make, but you cannot logically expect others to be civil with you if you refuse to be civil with them.
And I don't want to be civil, sorry to say.
