Looking back at my life, i remember who i used to be, compared to who i am now. Then, i was always alone, yeah sure you could say i had a family and friends and all, but i had never felt more lonely in my life. I always sat in the corner of my room, the darkest part. My light went out years ago, yet i never bothered to fix it. I watched the world go by without me, as if i was never there. The pain they suffered, the pain i suffered. I was jealous, jealous of what the others had. They felt joy and love. I felt lonely and different. I knew nobody would ever understand me, they all lived fake lives in a fake world, i knew the truth. I was free, yet i longed to live in a lie. The truth was pain, the lie was joy. Every night i screamed, yet nobody heard me, not even myself. The silence spoke louder than i did. I can never tell them they aren't real. They are just a part of my imagination, nothing more nothing less. But so am i. I am nothing more then part of imagination. Nothing exists, yet everything exists. I created them, as imagination created me. I made them to watch them experience the joy i never could, yet it caused me pain to do so. That pain is wonderful. That pain distracts me from the only pain that really does and doesn't exist. As i look at myself now, i see nothing has changed except one thing. I no longer suffer under the nothingness that exists as everything, being real in a fake world. I no longer feel the pain that i know exists within nothing itself. For i am free. Finally, through the never ending struggle of lies and imagination, i have managed to free myself from this utter hatred of the fake imagination that is all that exists within itself.
Finally, at last, i am dead.
BTW HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!!! biggrin