HemptressTemptress
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"Should I tell him?", she thinks to herself as she lays underneath her ratted blanket, staring up at the stars. "Everyday I clean his tanks, shovel his elephant manure, blow up a thousand balloons for that damn dart game no one will ever win...ugh...I've done everything for him. But the one thing I can't bring myself to do...is tell him the truth.
"Wake up! Time to slop the pigs, beard the lady, fish the boy, and dunk the tanks!" Carnie Mike is up early this morning. I rub the sleep from my eyes and slowly roll out of my cot. I head toward the Killer Klowns ride and set up the mechanics. My late-night thoughts haunted me still throughout the busy day. I absent-mindedly handed out the wrong size prizes to each winner (and loser). I couldn't stop thinking about this pain in my heart. How do you tell your boss, the man you LOVE (though he is 42 and I am only 16...in human years, that is), and the man who gives you shelter and food something like this. It has been the hardest burden I've had to bear in all my life. For in the past 3 months I've been passing time at this dirty carnival I've fallen deeply in love with this crusty, gawking, bearded old man whose only goal in this universe is to run a rickety carnival in the middle of ******** nowhere. My parents always told me I deserved the best in life...my parents...I wonder where they are...who they are...
I've shifted myself a thousand times since I first hit puberty. My parents left me when I was only 10 in human years (to "make me tough," they would say), that's when I ran away to the carnival. I shifted into what I thought of as an attractive body. I gave myself flowing red hair that glistened in the sunlight, made sure that my eyes were electric green, like the eyes of a witch's cat, and I gave myself a sweet peachy complexion with a few freckles dotting my human nose and cheeks, and I gave myself a full figure with thighs that extended for miles and an achingly perfect set of breasts. I figured that if I looked both unique and beautiful then I could find a nice man to take me away and make my life something more than it is. How am I to tell this beautiful, creaky, cranky, son-of-a-b***h that not only am I in love with him despite the fact that he's poor and seemingly unattractive to the untrained eye, but I'm also a 280 year old shape-shifting fairy!? I almost don't believe it myself. I've been in the realm of humans since birth, so even I have learned to fear, misjudge, and close my mind to the unknown or the strange. Yet, here I am, the awkward, inhuman creation of a fairy mother and shape-shifting father who chose to leave me alone to figure this world out all by myself.
When children would look at my wings while I was still too young to fully control my cloaking powers, they would laugh...or cry...or scream and run away. I was labeled "freak" and "monster" and even "witch." As IF! If someone thinks -I- look like some filthy swamp witch, then they must SERIOUSLY need their eyes checked. Well, now that I've found a body that is aesthetically pleasing to the eye and soft to the touch...I thought I could win over any man I wanted. I didn't know I'd meet a dirty old man only a mother could love and fall head over heels for him. "I have to tell him! Tonight," I whispered to myself firmly.
After all the stages were swept, the animals were back in their cages, and the water was leaked out of the dunk tanks, I went up to Mike to get my evening's pay. But this night it was different. The stars glowed a little brighter, the wind blew more fragrant and softly, and Carnie Mike looked down at me like he had been holding the same pain in his heart that I had in mine. "Mike, I have something I need to tell you. You won't believe me. You're going to think I'm insane. I know the way humans think...they all think I'm crazy, but I'm going to tell you anyway. My mother was a fairy; a wood nymph to be precise, and my father was a shape-shifter. I am not at all who you think I am. This red hair, these emerald eyes...they're all just bits and pieces of other humans I've seen in life and I've shifted myself into. I'm not nearly as beautiful in my natural form. And--" I stop speaking as I've noticed Mike has begun smiling and there was a sweet twinkle in his eye. He wasn't talking back or yelling at me or calling me a freak or trying to send me to an institution. He genuinely believed me. I looked up at him, and I shifted back to the way I really look. Ice-frost hair, silver eyes, pale skin, and thin but strong silver wings outstretched to their fullest. I floated above him; I didn't want him to look me directly in the face. It was so ugly compared to my beautiful human facade...
I floated back down to where Mike was now sitting and giggling to himself as he looked at me like I've never been looked at before. He still said absolutely nothing. But I could tell...I could feel it....he loved me too. "Mike," I whispered gently in his ear, "I...I love you. I have since the moment I met you. I know it seems like we're ages apart, but I'm immortal. There really is no age-appropriate limit for an immortal." Mike looked at me, held me close to him, and he kissed me. It was soft, slow, sensual...it sent tingles through my entire body. His aged, dry lips grazed against mine so perfectly. His hand slowly slid up my thigh. My wings curled at the feeling. I opened my eyes to watch the way he was going to make love to me. I wanted to see it all, but what I saw was a sickening surprise. His face twisted into knots, his eyes burned demon-red, and he still had the same smirk that had been on his face this whole time.
"Finally, a kiss from a fairy. You know what this means, right?" I shook my head nervously, "no?" "It means that you've given yourself to me. Mind, body, and soul. A kiss from a fairy is like a human marriage. I've been planning this since the day you showed up. I saw your wings several times. You really lacked stealth when you were off your guard in the late evenings. Guess you didn't think I was watching. Oh, I've been watching each and every day. I have been waiting. VERY patiently. And now that you have given yourself to me fully, I may take all that you have, including your powers, your everlasting youth, your life.
I did not know that night would turn out the way it did. I did not know that I had lived a lie for no reason. And I did not know that with these words, my very last breath would be taken from me. "I will always love you...no matter...what..." And with those final words the life left my body and entered his. We were finally one. He may not have loved me back, but I gave him everything. And he took it gladly. I have given myself for the sake of unrequited love. And I don't regret a thing...of course, it's hard to regret anything...when you're dead.
"Wake up! Time to slop the pigs, beard the lady, fish the boy, and dunk the tanks!" Carnie Mike is up early this morning. I rub the sleep from my eyes and slowly roll out of my cot. I head toward the Killer Klowns ride and set up the mechanics. My late-night thoughts haunted me still throughout the busy day. I absent-mindedly handed out the wrong size prizes to each winner (and loser). I couldn't stop thinking about this pain in my heart. How do you tell your boss, the man you LOVE (though he is 42 and I am only 16...in human years, that is), and the man who gives you shelter and food something like this. It has been the hardest burden I've had to bear in all my life. For in the past 3 months I've been passing time at this dirty carnival I've fallen deeply in love with this crusty, gawking, bearded old man whose only goal in this universe is to run a rickety carnival in the middle of ******** nowhere. My parents always told me I deserved the best in life...my parents...I wonder where they are...who they are...
I've shifted myself a thousand times since I first hit puberty. My parents left me when I was only 10 in human years (to "make me tough," they would say), that's when I ran away to the carnival. I shifted into what I thought of as an attractive body. I gave myself flowing red hair that glistened in the sunlight, made sure that my eyes were electric green, like the eyes of a witch's cat, and I gave myself a sweet peachy complexion with a few freckles dotting my human nose and cheeks, and I gave myself a full figure with thighs that extended for miles and an achingly perfect set of breasts. I figured that if I looked both unique and beautiful then I could find a nice man to take me away and make my life something more than it is. How am I to tell this beautiful, creaky, cranky, son-of-a-b***h that not only am I in love with him despite the fact that he's poor and seemingly unattractive to the untrained eye, but I'm also a 280 year old shape-shifting fairy!? I almost don't believe it myself. I've been in the realm of humans since birth, so even I have learned to fear, misjudge, and close my mind to the unknown or the strange. Yet, here I am, the awkward, inhuman creation of a fairy mother and shape-shifting father who chose to leave me alone to figure this world out all by myself.
When children would look at my wings while I was still too young to fully control my cloaking powers, they would laugh...or cry...or scream and run away. I was labeled "freak" and "monster" and even "witch." As IF! If someone thinks -I- look like some filthy swamp witch, then they must SERIOUSLY need their eyes checked. Well, now that I've found a body that is aesthetically pleasing to the eye and soft to the touch...I thought I could win over any man I wanted. I didn't know I'd meet a dirty old man only a mother could love and fall head over heels for him. "I have to tell him! Tonight," I whispered to myself firmly.
After all the stages were swept, the animals were back in their cages, and the water was leaked out of the dunk tanks, I went up to Mike to get my evening's pay. But this night it was different. The stars glowed a little brighter, the wind blew more fragrant and softly, and Carnie Mike looked down at me like he had been holding the same pain in his heart that I had in mine. "Mike, I have something I need to tell you. You won't believe me. You're going to think I'm insane. I know the way humans think...they all think I'm crazy, but I'm going to tell you anyway. My mother was a fairy; a wood nymph to be precise, and my father was a shape-shifter. I am not at all who you think I am. This red hair, these emerald eyes...they're all just bits and pieces of other humans I've seen in life and I've shifted myself into. I'm not nearly as beautiful in my natural form. And--" I stop speaking as I've noticed Mike has begun smiling and there was a sweet twinkle in his eye. He wasn't talking back or yelling at me or calling me a freak or trying to send me to an institution. He genuinely believed me. I looked up at him, and I shifted back to the way I really look. Ice-frost hair, silver eyes, pale skin, and thin but strong silver wings outstretched to their fullest. I floated above him; I didn't want him to look me directly in the face. It was so ugly compared to my beautiful human facade...
I floated back down to where Mike was now sitting and giggling to himself as he looked at me like I've never been looked at before. He still said absolutely nothing. But I could tell...I could feel it....he loved me too. "Mike," I whispered gently in his ear, "I...I love you. I have since the moment I met you. I know it seems like we're ages apart, but I'm immortal. There really is no age-appropriate limit for an immortal." Mike looked at me, held me close to him, and he kissed me. It was soft, slow, sensual...it sent tingles through my entire body. His aged, dry lips grazed against mine so perfectly. His hand slowly slid up my thigh. My wings curled at the feeling. I opened my eyes to watch the way he was going to make love to me. I wanted to see it all, but what I saw was a sickening surprise. His face twisted into knots, his eyes burned demon-red, and he still had the same smirk that had been on his face this whole time.
"Finally, a kiss from a fairy. You know what this means, right?" I shook my head nervously, "no?" "It means that you've given yourself to me. Mind, body, and soul. A kiss from a fairy is like a human marriage. I've been planning this since the day you showed up. I saw your wings several times. You really lacked stealth when you were off your guard in the late evenings. Guess you didn't think I was watching. Oh, I've been watching each and every day. I have been waiting. VERY patiently. And now that you have given yourself to me fully, I may take all that you have, including your powers, your everlasting youth, your life.
I did not know that night would turn out the way it did. I did not know that I had lived a lie for no reason. And I did not know that with these words, my very last breath would be taken from me. "I will always love you...no matter...what..." And with those final words the life left my body and entered his. We were finally one. He may not have loved me back, but I gave him everything. And he took it gladly. I have given myself for the sake of unrequited love. And I don't regret a thing...of course, it's hard to regret anything...when you're dead.