Username: iDatenshi
Entry Name: Into the end.
Word Count: 1112 words
One foot in front of the other, left right left right, stumble, fall, repeat. Leaving behind a trail of imperfection in the white, trudging forward just the same. What else was there to do though, really? It had to have been at least two days since she found herself here. First screaming, then whispering out for help, she had found none, and truly found nothing at all. Blinding, white, cold, snow was all she had seen in the last forty eight hours. It could have been longer though, with the sun refusing to show its face to brighten the day and spirits one just could not tell. If anything, time didn't seem relevant here. Left, right, left, stumble.
Was this some sort of hell? Did she die and finally been proven wrong? Was she forsaken? This could not be the end though, this could not be all she had worked towards, all everyone worked towards. Never one to blindly accept fate she moved forward more, head down, wind howling not only around her but now through her as well.
There seemed to be a curve on thought patterns based on how much pain or strife a person was or is in. A small amount is often fixed by distracting oneself, but a larger amount is hard to ignore. Now though, she discovered that she could not begin to fathom her situation without bringing herself to the edge of a breakdown. Thinking of something, anything, other then the future and the stinging wind was important, but damn it was hard. She spoke out loud to herself.
“It's so silly-” 'I am cold' “Really, this has to be a dream-” 'I am thirsty' “-that I will wake up-” 'This won't end' “-from soon enough-” 'It really is hopeless' “-and laugh.” 'I can't feel my feet.'
Despair was setting in fast. That would be the end though, and she could not let that end come. For all that this was, the end would be worse, the end was the end after all. Alone, with no one to see, she couldn't let that happen, this was not how it should happen.
'It might be how it will happen though'
Like the wind cutting through her skin the thought was abrupt and make her sick. It didn't make sense, there should be people, animals, or at least trees and rocks. Despite what had been happening so far, she braved a look straight ahead into the wind and snow, her eyes immediately watering. A monochrome landscape was all that greeted her efforts. Perfect and unmarred the snow would have been beautiful in any other context.
Without a plan, and now almost without hope, she prepared to drop to her knees, for a short but maybe final rest. Before she was able though, something caught her eye. A tower in the distance! It raised all the way to the clouds, tall and majestic, a welcome sight indeed! Eyes going wide with something akin to joy for the first time in what now seemed to be an entirety she tried to break into a run, but faltered and almost fell on her face.
Too weak to run, she would have to deal with walking for the time being. Once she got to the tower it would be different, she was sure of it. It probably had a door, and an inside, and a fire, and food, and people, and more things that she went over in her head like a small child describing something. It was her hope now. No matter what, she had to reach the tower, then everything would be okay, she was sure of it.
A smile seemingly printed on her face, moving as quickly as her condition would allow, and with a spring in her step even. Things were looking up, and the tower was getting closer. It had to be less then a half mile away!
Walking and imagining all the things that lay ahead, the tower moving ever closer, looming over the sky still, it was the tallest and most flawless building she had ever seen! Less then a hundred yards away, she gathered the last of her energy and lumbered forward at a speed almost as great as if she was actually running.
Closer, closer, closer... Closer! Overwhelmed with emotion she did run, breaking into a sprint, towards the tower, almost there, almost touching it. With a final burst of speed and an outstretched hand, she reached for it. The accumulation of her efforts! Her own saving! It felt... empty?
Head flying up in a panic induced glance, the snow went through the tower, tearing it down till nothing remained. If it had ever been there at all. As the last of the tower, her hope, her strength, was swept away, it hit her. Hard and without mercy, the dark fell. Falling, she was vaguely aware of it, but made no move to stop herself as her right knee hit the ground, collapsed out from under her, and she fell to her side.
Her head hit the snow. Her eyes were open, they looked like nothing a person should ever see, and certainly like nothing a person should ever become. The snow started covering her feet, it seemed to only be concentrating on that one part to start with. Mind wandering, she could not think of a single word to say, except one, to no one in particular she shakily posed her question.
“Why?”
This was the curtains close. Somewhere away from and off the edge of the earth, somewhere not a single soul could hear her scream, in a pile on the ground, this was now the finale. Everything she had done, everyone she met, turning into this white cold emptiness. Was this just the fate of being human? The snow had managed to work its way up her legs now.
She was disappearing, from everything. The snow would make it all white again soon, with the cold she would not even bleed, nothing would taint the ground. The wind had stopped hurting, so had the snow, so had everything. For the first time, there were tears, for the lack of pain was so much worse.
Blue eyes, a single color against the black inside and white out, closed slowly, as the wind howled and the snow fell, covering the imperfections she had made, covering her, with a final gust, erasing all that was.
“Goodbye”
The last words, before the end, were not spoken to anyone she knew, nor to a God that forsaken her, but a final farewell to herself, as she finally left.
[Her refers to me, I prefer to write in the third person.
That came out a lot darker then I originally foresaw. xD]