How I met the Gaia-guy I love
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I met a wonderful guy here quite a few years ago. In 2009 I was roaming Rally and I actually become his little playful pet~
At first I thought this was just a roleplay-and-silly little thing. But as time went by I wanted to get to know this person each day more and more!
I won't mention names..~
Anywhom, HIM being an active Gaian and popular RP-er, would have many girls around him; this would...always make me upset, anywho years went by and I finally got to be his girlfriend.
I was always worried that he would cheat on me, but I tried to push those negative thoughts aside and just be happy with what I got. He's on the other side of the world, we're sea's apart. And I can't seem to let this person go. Let's just say Texas...and Africa is closer than where he lives.
This sweet guy does have his flaws but who doesn't?
I'm not perfect neither is he...but things just did not work out.
I do miss his voice though, he had the cutest accent, he was silly, his laugh was contagious and I miss being up at 4am talking to him while the sun is brightly shining over his side. He would sing me songs in Japanese, and would bear with my constant nagging. We were together for 3+ years...on and off because of the distance and my jealousy just...went over board at times.
I recently just left him again and I gotta say..I do regret it so much but, Ive been told if something is meant to be they will come back to you...
Each day gets really difficult to not send [him] a message, "take my back".
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This guy drives me crazy mad, sometimes, I just want to punch him, and scream at him with all my might.
But in the end, I think I'd love him more than any other in my life.
I wish we would get out s**t together to be together.
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Recently I left him in the hardest times he's going through...
I feel horrible, but I felt pushed away, as if I became a burden.
Sadly, This lovely guy is not my boyfriend anymore and I doubt he'll ever forgive me but, I thought I'd share this~
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Boy, do I have a story to tell!
I'm not sure if this fits...~ But
heart it's an excuse to rant my love for him (: