Everyone goes through that once in their lifetime... you're not the only one if that's what you're thinking. Still thinking of it myself, dear.
Though, 70-80 percent of the theory said men completed their suicide, while only 50 percent or less of woman has completed their suicide. Interesting, lucky you're alive. There's more to life than you actually know. Love is a great thing-- once rejected, there's always a new and better one that'll show up. Mock my words, dear.