I remember those days when they used to tease a girl in elementary school for being fat. Children just don't have a conscience. I wonder how they get that way. You could say parents, but I think it's naturally there from peers, and wanting to prove themselves to be better than others by finding a quality in someone else they don't like and exposing it. And for kids I guess it always has to be a physical attribute. I don't understand though how there was a fat girl who was completely ignored when I was in high school, and how there was another one among the most popular in school. Why?! It seems so silly.
I'm not fat, I'm pretty petite, and I was ignored throughout high school too. I think it was because I used to look just like Mia in the Princess Diaries when I was in junior high- just like her. Scary. Even though I changed, and decided that I was quite pretty, it seemed that everyone still thought of me as that nerd from junior high. Now that I'm just finishing college, I've seen those same popular kids making nothing of their lives, while I'm going to have a graphic design position within the next month, and I get looks from men and receive their phone numbers. So I know I'm attractive. I know that I'm going to make something out of myself. And now I wonder looking back, was it really worth feeling so bitter about being nothing to kids who ended up doing nothing with themselves? It's all a memory, and while I won't forget it, I must say I feel resolve.
I know my situation is different from yours. I went through an awkward stage that ended when I hit 16. You have an unchanging condition that reminds you everyday how you've been treated. I'm glad you're trying to help others with similar problems. It shows that you're a good person. And just to let you know, I met a woman in her fifties who went through that same things as you. Starved herself, vomited, and the big problem was that because she was so awful to herself, her body retaliated and made her even more obese to compensate for her malnourishment. She mentioned getting her stomach stapled (that sounds risky). I suggest eating the way you are right now (1600 calories a day) and don't feel bad about it. While there are people starving in the world, your food isn't going to reach them, so don't waste it. Just be thankful that you can have it. You may want to talk to a doctor about other options for your weight. There must be some healthy way you can lose the extra weight. I wish you luck. Be healthy, be happy.