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Ally R.


Ally took stable sips of her latte. Her mind, right now, was like a notebook. It used to be a notebook with crammed in pages, but now it was just either scorched into ashes or thrown away or just entirely blank. Either way, all that it meant was she had no idea what was going on. All Ally Rose knew was herself and her innocence. For as far as she knew, Ally was in the clear. Sometimes, like now, she can sit and wonder if there was another clarification for always being blamed on.

Maybe she was blameworthy, one way or another.

Maybe she wasn’t, everyone was blind and deaf.

Maybe she’s blind and deaf and doesn’t have any control over herself anymore.

Maybe this was all true, how would she know?

A small amount of tears rolled down her cheeks, but no one seemed to take in, as usual. Wiping them off with her wrist, Ally took another swallow of her latte. I didn’t murder him she thought over and over again. I wouldn’t do anything to harm him, I was reading my f***ing horoscope was all. No, Ally could never slay her one and only sibling. It was just that, he crept over the pool and…drowned. It wasn’t her mistake. Her mother can’t just blame her for something she didn’t do.

But she can, because she was doing it for years now. Not just her mother, every other darned person too.
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Rose winced when Jason punched the table. And then looked at the man with anger in her eyes. "He didn't do it" she said quietly. She looked at the boy, and then sighed deeply. "I-i really don't know where they are" she muttered. She shut her eyes, and her hands went around the cup again. She then remember she had a pack of cigs in her purse. They were her fathers, and she had stolen them to piss him off one day. She didn't smoke, so she took the entire pack out of her purse...one out of three that was in there, and she put it on the table. She slid it to him and said "They are my fathers...take them all"

Then she thought again and said "Well, you were put away what...2 years ago?" she asked. "Well, about nine months after...Kate had Chris's baby. I think that the child was concieved the same day that you 'raped' her. Kate went to a woman's home in Seattle...her mother forced her to go. Chris moved there long after, and that was the last I heard of them. I told Kate I hated her for putting you away...and I never heard from them after." she muttered. Then she thought, They only liked me for my money anyways...

"Please don't hate me for it. I really did try...I was just afraid...and I-" there was a deep sigh and she muttered. "Never mind, theres no excuse. I really am sorry Jason." She said. Then she looked at the window. It was raining, the downpour was getting worse and worse. She looked at him and said. "I can help you find them...if you want. It's been two years...I don't think it would be hard" she said. She looked into her purse and said "But first, I mean...if you even want my help that is...would you want food? Or to get some clothes...it would be the least I could do" she said. She smiled at him sadly, trying to make amends...It was a horrible thing. She felt terrible for the boy, his life had been ruined. She thought that if she could help him...maybe she could find a true friend. If she could help him, she might save herself from herself.




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Ally stroke her hair slickly before taking the last n** of her latte and throwing the infamous Dixie cup she had chose, away. She went back to the couch she was sitting on and looked through this week’s newspaper. “Let’s s see…Some s**t about Iraq…blah, blah, blah.” Ally muttered, rolling her eyes and throwing the newspaper aside.

Funny, she felt something creeping on the skin of her wrist. Crawling, miniature feet sliding all over her wrist. Goosebumps immediately grew, just as her eyes enlarged.

Ally quickly spun her head and stared at her wrist. Choking back a gasp, a shriek, but she couldn’t handle that long. After all, she had Arachnophobia. Fear of spiders, and oh my there was a tarantula on her hand? It must have crept out of the newspaper.

Ally began heavy-breathing, and she took a deep breath before a scream blasted out of her mouth, rapidly. An earsplitting shriek, a yelp for help. She didn’t care about the stares she was probably getting.

Sweat drops oozed down her forehead, her cheeks glowing crimson as she ran out of the café, screaming and shaking her arms for a few seconds, so the Tarantula (spider) would get off. It already did a long time ago, frightened.
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((OMG!!! I have that so bad. I hate spiders so much. >< ))
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I'm not like you.....

Jason growled furiously when Rose said that she didn't know where they where, it wasn't her fault he knew that but he was letting this get the best of him. Jay slid into the chair and placed his elbows on the table top and buried his face in his hands again this time to calm himself down, this was complete and utter bullshit. A pack of cigarettes slid under him and he looked up from his hands to Rose curiously. Rose said that they were her fathers but that he could have them, "Thanks..sorry for scaring you I am just not having a good day" Jason said but it wasn't just the day ever since that day when he was sixteen and was accused of raping a girl he barley knew other then passing each other in the halls at school. Dropping his hands from his face he picked up the pack and flipped the top open and slid one out with his fingers and placed it in between his lips and took the book of matches from his pocket, which he was running low on and sighed frustrated.

Jason ripped one of the matches from the book and struck it against the book and luckily was able to light his cigarette. Rose reminded JD that he was put away two years ago and then nine months later Kate had Chris' baby and that they (meaning the doctors) thought the child was conceived the same day that Jason had supposedly raped Kate and he shook his head again. "So not only am I a rapist I have a kid to, well that's just ******** great" JD chuckled. Rose told Jason that Kate went to a woman's home in Seattle, well more like her mother forced her to go and Chris followed not long after she had left and that was the last time she had heard from them. Rose said that she told Kate that she hated her for putting Jay away and that she hadn't heard from them after that and Jason sighed another frustrated sigh.

Rose pleaded with JD to not hate her for what she did and that she had tried but she was afraid but then she said never mind nad there was no excuse for what she had done and that she was sorry. "Stop...it's not your fault thanks for trying though and at least you told me" Jason wanted to go to Seattle and track them down but he knew that was impossible and they were probably expecting him to do that so they could lock him up again. Rose however said that she would help JD find them and reminded him that it has been two years and that she didn't think it would be hard, "No, they want me to come for them so that way they can lock me up again...I'm not going back to jail" Jason said seriously, "I don't want you get involved in this anymore then you already have either..all it will do is cause your life to turn into mine."Jason said he didn't want anyone going through the kind of s**t that he was going threw and what he went threw in jail. JD would just try to make the best of it and hope that eventually they would listen to his side of the story and get this cleared so he could have some what of a normal life again.

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hen Rose mentioned food, actual real food he snapped out of the horrible memories on the nights when the men would come in to his cell when the lights turned out. "I just spent two years behind bars eating what they called fodd, real food would be great and yea these are the only clothes I own and my parents made it perfectly clear I was not allowed to step foot in there house, which reminds me is the abandoned Victorian still on Fleet street?" Jason asked. If anything else he would live there and see what he could do for money. Jay went through school while he was doing time and now was technically a senior so he could also try to get back into school and graduate, if they would let him.


[ooc]I said Fleet street cause I couldn't think of anything else and I love Sweeny Todd[/ooc]



I just ******** up!
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(Irony! I was just watching that.)

Rose smiled at him and nodded."Your welcome" she said, in regard to the cigs. "And yeah, the Victorian is still abandoned. And...owned by my parents. They have not done anything with that property in years...and they say it will be another few before they do" she mused. "Though I think they have forgotten of it completley. You can stay there...I'll get it up and running...tell my parents that it is a project. They will adore that."

She saw his eyes light up with the mention of real food and she started to name off places that were rather expensive. "Okay, so Olive Garden, Red Lobster, Kodiac Jacks, or...whatever" she said with a laugh. "Or whatever you want really, I am just naming resturaunts that are around the mall." She thought about the comment he uttered about her life turning into his and she scoffed. "Honestly, sometimes I think I'd prefer prison." she said, but she decided not to elaborate on that fact. Though, if he woud think back on the time that he knew her, if anyone did, they would remember that she had dressed extravigantly back then, wore jewlery, been drop-dead georgious...and now...the black circles under her eyes told of pain. But she would not say a word. She wouldn't confide in him. He had his own problems to worry about.

But she could protect him. She was infact, the richest child in the city...in washington even. She (not that she was older) had much more influence then she had when the two of them had only been 16. In her mind, she had decided that she would try to clear his name. She knew that if she had spoken up louder, what she had said and heard, that she would have been able to help him. But she had not...and she sighed deeply. "Come on, lets go. You can go shopping first, and we will find out what to eat for lunch afterwards" she said, she led him to her beaten down red car and smiled as she unlocked the doors..




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I'm not like you.....

Jason was happy to hear that the old building was there and that her parents owned it but that he could stay there because her parents never did anything with it and she would tell them that she was working on a project. [chartreuse]"Now your starting to make me feel bad because I have no way to pay you back for any of this" which was true JD felt horrible about the fact that he couldn't do anything to pay Rose back as she went off on listing on where they could go to eat and that she was going to take him shopping. Jay put up his hand to stop her, "Whoa one thing at a time...I am still not completely into letting you spend your money on me" Jason said as they headed towards her car.

"I will let you do this but you have to think of some way I can pay you back...and remember I don't have much" Jay said as he opened the drivers door for her and some people looked at him and Rose. "See that boy is up to the same old stuff, they should have kept him locked up" the women said to her husband loud enough for Jason to hear and he looked down and shook his head. "Are you sure you want to be seen with me? this is going to go on all day" Jay asked staring at the ground in front of him. Jason walked to the other side of the car and leaned on it as the women looked back at him giving him a dirty look and he just shook his head and got into the car before anyone else could say anything else to him. Jason closed the door and slouched down in the seat placing his elbow on the door and rested his hand over his face as if to hide himself from the world.

Jay put the belt across his chest and buckled himself in and heaved a sigh and kicked the door kinda wishing they had kept him locked up forever, that way he didn't have to deal with this s**t. No, this was nothing compared to be locked up everyone thinks the stories about prison is not true but he was living proof of what could happen when you were deemed as a rapist behind bars. There had been many times that JD barley made it out of a beating alive because the guards finally stepped in but when it came time for lights out and the other stuff to begin. Jay shuddered and shook the thoughts from his mind, he was sixteen when he went in for something he didn't do and he was punished for that crime in more then one way. Yea, this was nothing compared to being locked up.

[ooc]That's not ironic it's just coincidental [/ooc]



I just ******** up!
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((Yeah, I suppose.))

Rose looked at him and said "Alright...here is what we will do. You can help me fix up that run down mansion. And you can live there, and I will pay you for everything you need to fix it. I'll pay you for food, and if you want to finish school...supplies for that too. It will make my parents happy...and you'll have a job, and a roof over your head...besides, if I had taken better action two years past...you would have a clear name right now. It's the least I can do." She said with a very small, but sad smile.

When she heard him talking about how they would be scoffed all say she shrugged her shoulders and put her hoodie backup. "People don't know me any ways when I decide to go out. So what does it matter?" she asked him with a raise of her eyebrow. She smiled at him gratefully when he opened the door for her, and got in gracefully. She turned on the car, which...in contrast to the outside was really quite beautiful on the inside. She had sratched off the name of the car, and it was so beaten that nobody could really tell what it was. And she liked it that way.

She revved the engine, which sounded beautiful, and she pulled out of the parking space, nearly (and purposefully I may add) ran over the couple that had shot their mouth's off. She looked at him, and stepped on the gas, taking the 5 minute drive to the mall which was just on the outskirts of town. It was called Mayfield, and like the coffee shop, it was a hang out for those of their generation. She flipped on the radio. It blared My Chemical Romance. An IPOD was plugged into the headphone plug in, and she smiled as she turned the song 'Dead' on. "So...you look a lot more fit then the last time I saw you" she smiled, but the smile quickly faded. She thought it must have been hard.

Even she knew that there were different levels of tolerance in Prisons. She knew that ***** were on the bottom of the list, and that rapists were second to last. Those two groups often got beaten daily, or so she heard. Defiling children and women was never looked well upon in any society. Even prison. She looked at him as she drove down the road and said "If you want to talk about it..." but her voice trailed off. She thought that he could figure the rest out on his own.




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Jason nodded his head, "Deal" JD said after Rose told him that he would have to help her fix up the old house and all the others things that she said and held out his hand to shake hers, they shook and he dropped his hand back to his lap and looked out the window missing the small smile that was on her lips. "Just don't worry about it anymore...we can find a way to make this right again, I hope" Jay said and rubbed the back of his neck looking at the floor of the car. Rose said that when she went out into town she made it so no one would recognize her so what did it matter, " I wish I could disappear" Jason muttered and noticed that Rose almost ran the couple that had mouthed off to Jay and he looked at her and raised an eyebrow and chuckled. Rose then told JD he looked fitter then the last time she remembered and he shrugged his shoulders, "Can't do much in jail, so either you work out or sleep all day" Jason replied casually with another shrug, "That is if you don't have school that day" he added. Rose said that if Jason wanted to talk about it and her voice trailed off but he knew what she meant and shook his head, "It's different...it changes you and it seems where ever I turned either someone wanted to kill me or teach me my lesson, if you catch my drift."

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ever was able to sleep there, I was constantly worried that someone was going to come in and slit my throat or make me there b***h for the night." Jason shivered at the memories, "Learned how to eat quickly though, it was either eat while you had it or everyone took it from you" JD looked out the window again. "The bad cops there was just that, bad cops twice as bad as the regular bad cops, if they were on shift they would join in. The others would let them have there fun and then they would stop it" Jason shook his head and pushed the tears back again as the memories came back to him, his own screams echoed in his mind. "I didn't even ******** do it...and I was sixteen and they treated me as if I was just an animal that was there age and when I tried to tell them I didn't do it...it just made things worst" JD said furiously.

Jason bent his head down and let a few tears roll down his cheek, "No one believed me in there and your the only person who believes me out here...honestly I think it would have been better if they killed me" Jason said rather morbidly and heaved a sigh. "My last night there I swear that was there goal but one of the good cops broke it up and to keep me safe he locked me in solitary confinement" Jason said and looked at Rose. "Like I said...I'm not going back to jail" Jason said as a finalization. Jason went silent and rested his head back on top of his hand and looked away from Rose as they pulled into the parking lot of the mall. Jay was silent until they parked staring at the dash board and un buckled himself when the car came to a stop.

Jason opened the door and got out and walked over to Rose's side and opened the door from her and was given some more dirty looks. "The first thing we should get is a hoodie so I can hide my face" JD said and narrowed his eyes at the people giving him dirty looks and heard the, whispering about him he shook his head. "God ******** dammit" JD muttered.

[ooc]Irony: The use of words to convey a meaning that is the opposite of its literal meaning EDIT [/ooc]



I just ******** up!
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(I didn't know that >< lol.)

At the end of the story, she pulled up to the parking lot, and parked a ways away from the front door. She turned off the car, having said nothing since he started to talk. She listened to his story, and reached over, wiping his tears as they fell. She nodded sympathetically at the right times, and then after she parked, she put her arm around him.

"Hey" she said soothingly. "Everything will be okay alright?" She thought she had problems. Yeah, she was unhappy, but it was nothing compared to this poor boy. She had neglectfull and ignorent parents, and she had no real friends, but still, she was never used as someone's b***h. Yeah, people used her to get money, and to get places in life...but she was never really beat up. Not like this boy. She squeezed his shoulder, not knowing how to comfort this boy. She really was the only one in town who believed him. "Have you ever thought of moving out of town?" she asked quietly before she got out of the car. "The only people who think they know what happened lived here" she said.

Then she thought about Mason. She had seen them together the last time that she had actually seen Jason out of jail, and she wondered if even he had turned against Jason. But she would not ask. She smiled and opened the car door. "Come on, lets go, I have a bunch of cash...so get whatever you want." she said. "Anything for the house you want too...don't be afraid to ask" she said witha small smile. She started to walk into the store, telling herself if he bursted out crying, like he seemed about to, that she would hug him. And tell him that she was there for him, but she would not get all emotional quite yet.

((Rawr, writers block))




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Jason flinched as she touched him out of habit, he didn't expect her to hurt him Jay was just not use to soft touches anymore. Rose's voice was soothing as she said "hey" and JD looked up at her and she told him that everything was going to be okay and said alright. Jason nodded, "I hope everything is going to be okay.." Jay said and jumped when a cop car drove by. Not that Jason had done anything, it again was out of habit after all not long after they had found Kate Jay was still on his way home and cursing at Chris for not being there under his breath. The next thing he knew cop cars were surrounding him and they jumped out yelling at Jason to put his hands in the air then to turn around and placed his hands behind his head and told him to back up. They ordered him to get onto his knees and a cop was on top of him placing hand cuffs on his wrists and reading him his rights over Jay demanding to know what he had done.

Jason was snapped out of the memories when Rose began to talk to him again asking why he just didn't move away from here and he shrugged, "It's still my home...I don't want to leave because then the would know I had guilty thoughts about coming back. I came here to prove that I was innocent" JD said simply. Jay's memory went back to his trail and when Mason had leaned to his ear to tell him it was over between them to because he couldn't be with someone who raped another person. When JD tried to tell Mason that he didn't do it the judge yelled at him to pay attention and Mason left the court house, why Jason knew that was because he looked out into the crowd as they were taking him away and didn't find Mason there. Roses voice snapped him back from the memories that had haunted him in jail and know was doing the same Jay knew that there would be a time when the interrogation would come back to him and he was afraid to re live it. At the moment though he was following Rose into the mall.

One of the security guards was eyeing Jay and he looked away and to the ground, "I don't even think they will let me go in" Jason said and glanced up at the guard who was now talking on a walkie talkie and JD looked away from him as he pulled the door open and let Rose walk in before he did. Jason entered the mall and they began to walk further into the mall when some one took a hold of his arm. " Jason Cooper?" the security guard asked and Jay nodded, "I'm sorry but you can't be in here.""Why not?" JD demanded and the cop pulled him closer. "You know damn well what you have done, no one will serve you here" The cop snapped at him and Jason again snarled this guy was nothing compared to the others in fact Jason slipped his wrists out of the cops hand. "I never touched that girl...I was framed" Jay said scowling at the man but kept his voice calm.



I just ******** up!
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The girl was aphauled. She sighed and realized that she still had her hoodie up. Her face was covered by the thick, dull cloth. She looked at him reassuringly, (not that the officer noticed) and after walking between Jason and the cop, said "They may not help him, but they will help me." The police man looked at her and saw her to be just another street-rat. "They won't, your just another poor piece of s**t." Then Rose laughed. Like it didn't bother her in the slightest. She kept her purse to her chest and said "No, I think they will help me, because honestly, your behavior is scrutinous and is in no way fitting of an officer. I could easily have you fired." she said. "The law states that, even criminals have the right to basic necessities. Basic needs. And because clothing and food are part of natural rights...the right to own property, I could sue you and everyone who refuses to sell anything to this man on the right of prejudice. And trust me, I would win. I am sick of all this bull s**t." she said.

The police person laughed. "Who do you think you are missy? From the look of it, you can't afford descent clothing, let alone a laywer who would win you any case. Your not rich, and you probably never will be. I will not let him in. And there is nothing you can do to change my mind" he said. Then Rose sighed, "I hoped it didn't have to come to this." She lowered her hoodie and said "My name is Rose Nicole Sabaki, and if you know what is good for you, you will move aside, and let me and my friend through" she said. Her eyes looked dangerous, as if she really would take out his career if he kept annoying her. She grinned as the mans eyes widened, and he stepped aside. She smiled, and the police man said in his walkie talkie "The rapist is with the Sabaki girl...for now, he is welcome here."

Rose gave Jason another of her reassuring looks and she said "Come on, lets go inside." She took h is hand, and gave him a pull to get him moving again, and then let go of his hand just as quick as she took it. "See? It was not that hard, from any police or adult figure, your safe with me...from other kids, well, I don't know. Normally I can buy them off, but in this situation, I don't really know." she whispered. "You okay now?" she asked him. Yes there were surprising looks at her apparel, and the fact that she was with the rapist as she walked along in the mall. She decided that for once, she would keep her hood down to protect them from scrutiny in this place.




Don't know where it goes, but it's only me...and I walk alone.
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By the time Maxine had come to her apartment, the rain had lightened significantly, though it was still persisting. Didn't know when it had proved its point, evidently. She sighed softly, as she took on the steps and, at the top-most level, turned to unlock her door. She stepped inside and was greeted by a ringing house phone. She contemplated answering it as she closed the door behind her, but knew that if she did not it wouldn't stop ringing until she could cross the day off on her calender. With a sigh, she reluctantly plucked the phone off of the receiver.
"Ev'nin, ole chap," She greeted him, adopting a false English accent, the one that still held her earlier family in its grasp.
"Call your mother, and tell her happy birthday,"
"Will not," Maxine placed the phone on her shoulder, and leaned her cheek into it, holding it in place while she walked to the bedroom and browsed the clothing in the closet.
"Why not?" He persisted.
"She doesn't want to hear it from me,"
"Did she tell you that?"
"She doesn't have to, I have her female intuition." Maxine picked out a black tank top to go under an off-the-shoulder off-white sweater and a pair of jeans. "Mmm, times up, and you've failed to persuade me. I'll talk to you next year, kay?" Maxine hung up the phone and tossed it onto the plush queen-sized bed. He wouldn't be calling back. She changed into dry clothing and threw the wet ones over the edge of the bath tub to dry before she would throw them into the laundry. Her hair had dried by then, and she attacked it briefly with a straightener, and retrieved a small, blue and brown umbrella. Slipping into a pair high tops, the vans had joined the clothing in the tub, she set out once more, not bothering to place the phone on its charger. Life was short, she'd have time later.

"...but then I remember that it's your fault I'm like this."



Maxine L. Miller
[OOC] Sorry, I am watching the new family guy and obviously to drunk to post[/ooc]
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((Hey all just thought I would tell you that my boyfriend is having surgery so I will be down at the hospital all day. I think they have public computers and what have you, so sparingly I will be on to post and what have you. But not long at all. Thought I'd let you know.))

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