xStitch These Wounds
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- Posted: Sat, 21 Apr 2012 17:33:00 +0000
- ⇝ AND THIS SILENCE STRIPS ME BARE AND YOUR BODY PINS ME DOWN.
xxxxxI'VE NEVER BEEN SO SCARED TO BREATHE, AFRAID TO MAKE A SOUND.
✦ » but all I know is you'll n e v e r let me go
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Rori snuggled closer to his chest and closed her eyes, working to push the dream from her mind. She didn’t want to think of Garret anymore. She didn’t want his name poisoning her thoughts or his face in her mind or the memory of his hands on her unwilling body. Matty made it easier to forget a little bit, but Garret had been in control of her thoughts for way to long. It was hard to try and take back the life he had stolen from her. It just wasn’t that easy. Even now, as far away as she was from him, she was still expecting him to show up in the doorway of the room. She feared he would find her, and she didn’t doubt that he could find her if he really wanted too.
Aurora, though she may not have come across as such to those who didn’t know her, was a shattered individual. Unstable. Before her mother died, Rori had hardly been like this. She had been a good girl, rarely getting in trouble, with her primary focus on school. Back then, she had been a quiet girl, not somebody you would really take a second glance at. Despite her quiet demeanor, it wasn’t like she had no life. She still went to parties and hung out with people, and she hadn’t been the kind of girl to be afraid to stand up for herself. She had been the butt of jokes often enough that her backbone was stronger than most, and she didn’t hesitate to whip back some wittier remark. But once Garrett came, everything changed.
Aurora’s mother may not have been the first choice for the mother of the year award, but she tried her best, and in Rori’s eyes, that had been all that mattered. Her mom had made a lot of bad decisions in her life, but Garret had been the worst. He moved in with them in their small slummy two bedroom apartment only two weeks after he and her mother started dating, and he had seemed okay at first. Before she knew it, her mom was engaged and they were off to live in Garret’s big fancy house with him and his money. His money was probably his most appealing feature, or at least to the Hastings, who had lived on welfare and Jeanette Hasting’s tips from her waitressing job for the good part of seventeen years. And that was when things got bad.
At first it had been little things. She would catch him staring at her, or he would buy her things and request she try them on. Eventually those little things graduated to a comment here or there about how pretty she looked or hugging her just a little longer than necessary. Her mother didn’t seem to notice, so Rori blew it off. It wasn’t until a few months into her mother’s marriage that the s**t hit the fan. Her mother was working the night shift at the diner and Rori had just come back from a party, having had a few more drinks than she normally did. She was out of it, more ******** up than she had ever been. Garret had waited up for her, attempting to play the part of ‘concerned stepfather’, but ended up playing a completely different role. He forced himself on her and being as incapacitated as she was, she could do nothing about it. Come morning, she had managed to convince herself it had been some alcohol induced dream. But it happened again and again, a new threat every time to keep her silent, and eventually the old Aurora seemed to die away, only to be replaced by this shell that now existed. This shell had no backbone. She didn’t fight back. She readily accepted the blame for whatever it was thrown her way. She sought for attention in the only way she knew to get it and did anything she could to feel like for once she was in control. She was terribly dependent on other people and could barely take care of herself. She constantly needed support from someone, and that someone had being Matty.
Hearing him say they could stay, she managed a smile though deep in her heart she didn’t believe it. Still, she could believe it for him. She could live this lie while it lasted. She could see the two of them together in a decent apartment; maybe have Skylar come live with them. Rori loved Skylar, like she loved all kids. That little girl was perfect and it killed Rori to see her living with the kind of parents she did. Rori wasn’t claiming that she would make an ideal mother to any child, but it would be a lie to say that she didn’t want to try. Having a family of her own had been her dream before everything fell apart. Also part of her figured that if Skylar was around more often, Matty would feel more of an inspiration to get clean.
At the mention of the band, Rori smiled. Matthew was a very talented musician and she knew he could make it far if he really aimed for it. ”I’m sure you could find somebody” she said, punctuating her sentence by placing another small kiss on his cheek. ”I could get a job, too.” she added. ”Waitressing maybe, like my mom used to. It’s not much, but she did alright.” she shrugged.
Aurora sat up then, rolling her shoulders back for a moment. She could hear other voices up and around the house. ”I guess we should go introduce ourselves.” Her stomach let out a little growl, seconding her statement, and she let out a cute little giggle. ”Let me get dressed real quick, and we can go down, okay?” The blonde pushed herself off of the bed and made her way to her duffle bag that contained the clothes she had packed weeks ago. She hardly minded changing in front of Matty. She had lived with him and slept with him. Him seeing her in her underwear was no big deal.
Rummaging through it, she found her old off the shoulder Tweety Bird fleece and a pair of shorts. Deciding they would suffice, she pulled her top over her head, still covered by the black undershirt she had been wearing under it. She slid the Tweety Bird hoodie on over it. She slipped off the jeans she had fallen asleep in, revealing her batman undies, and then replaced the jeans with the too-short shorts. The long sleeved shirt with her shorts made her long legs look even longer in the mirror, and she smiled. She loved her legs. Her long legs were probably the only feature of hers she actually really liked, save her naturally curly blonde hair which was her mothers.
Speaking of her hair, it was a mess, or at least to her standards. Sighing, she ran her fingers through it, knowing a brush would only make it more frizzy and she had neglected to bring a comb. When she was somewhat pleased with it, she moved onto makeup. Her face look tired because of how stressful yesterday had been. That just wouldn’t do for Rori. Her appearance and making a good impression had always been important to her. Her mother had taught her that. She coated her face with a tintless moisturizer to take the dryness from her skin. She applied some concealer to hide the bags beneath her eyes, and a frame of black eyeliner around her eyes emphasized the color of her eyes. Her stomach growled again, and she remembered how hungry she was. Turning back to Matty, she smiled. ”You ready?” she asked.
O.O.C: Sorry that took so long. Rough week. Anyways, here it is (: Also, click the side picture for her outfit. ♥