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[S T A T i C H0RR0R]

SPAAACEC h α я l t e η D i α η α я i c h α я d s



when i’m falling down,
will you pick me up again?
when i’m too far gone,
dead in the eyes of my friends
will you take me out of here?
when i’m blinded by the lights
when i can’t see your face

Shaking her head at him, Charlten took a deep breath. "I told you the truth about me, and my family. And what I did." she said, her face stony. "I never lied about that, I never lied when I said I wanted to leave with you and I'm not lying now when I tell you I love you and that this is your baby." she stared up at him, nothing. "But if you want me to carry on and leave, fine." she didn't want to leave...she wanted to be with him, but he seemed to be having none of it, and so she turned her back and headed back the way she had just come.

[The Defective Doll]

Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here
I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
So tiny dancer beware we're medicated and scared
This smile is so hard to wear but I have no gun
There's so much left in the air

Darren shook his head. She didn't understand. Maybe she would never understand. It didn't make any sense. He let out a heavy sigh, and sort of just stared at her for a moment. "All you had to do was tell me. I hate secrets. I can't handle them. I am used to everything being a certain way, and you sneaking around behind my back isn't my idea of normal or right." Because that totally excused his psychotic behavior, right? Not at all. There was no excuse for his insanity. There was nothing he could say that would get rid of all the horrible things that he had said and done to her. The fact that she was even giving him a chance to explain himself at that very moment threw him off. He wasn't expecting her to be okay with him. He expected her to get him thrown in jail, get her revenge, and move on. Not try to explain.

"Just...I don't know. You can go if you want. There's nothing you can do to ruin me any further." he hung his head. Shame was written on his face. How could such regret and innocence come from the same person who did the things he did? The horrible things that he hated others for doing, that he secretly did in his spare time? Darren didn't even know himself anymore. He crossed his arms, waiting for the backfire.

So much to tell from your stare
There's so much left to defend
I can tell by your smile you're coming undone
I could bleed for a smile I could cry for some fun
So turn away from the ones who hurt everyone
Walk away from the sun and kill everyone

[S T A T i C H0RR0R]

SPAAACEC h α я l t e η D i α η α я i c h α я d s



when i’m falling down,
will you pick me up again?
when i’m too far gone,
dead in the eyes of my friends
will you take me out of here?
when i’m blinded by the lights
when i can’t see your face

Looking up at him, Charlten frowned. She honestly, did not understand what he was saying to her. How had she lied? How had she lied about her family? She could feel the tears pricking at her eyes and mentally kicked herself, she wasn't going to cry. "How did I lie about my family exactly? What did I lie to you about?" she lowered her head and sighed heavily. "No, it wasn't part of our plan, but it happened. I was going to get an abortion and never tell you because I knew this wasn't what you wanted, because I didn't want you to leave me." she glared at him. "I don't understand where all of this has suddenly come from, how I'm suddenly a liar?" her voice broke.

[The Defective Doll]

Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here
I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
So tiny dancer beware we're medicated and scared
This smile is so hard to wear but I have no gun
There's so much left in the air

Did she really believe that Jaylin was lying? Darren gave his sister a long, hard look. She was either in denial, or honestly believed that Jay would make something like that up. Either way, it made him uncomfortable. He could deny it, and pretend she was making up stories. But it wouldn't make him feel any better about it. Now that she had brought it out into the open, there was no pretending it was going to go away. There was no pushing the memories out of his own head. He ran his hands nervously through is hair, turning and squinting at Charlten. Was she batty? Did she really think that he was making this harder than it had to be? Dare hesitated for a few moments, letting out a heavy sigh. She was going to end up killing him, in the worst sense of the word. Not the kind with a body bag. The kind where he denied his own feelings.

"You were keeping things from me," he answered weakly. How was he supposed to believe she wasn't a liar? "You lied to me about your family. You lied to me about everything. Then you come home pregnant and expect me to be okay with it. This wasn't a part of our plan. I didn't want a take two. I've been through hell and back once, I'm not doing it again." He ran his hands over his face once more, trying to wipe the guilt from his expression. "Do you understand? Or are you just gonna walk away, and write me off as the bad guy?"

So much to tell from your stare
There's so much left to defend
I can tell by your smile you're coming undone
I could bleed for a smile I could cry for some fun
So turn away from the ones who hurt everyone
Walk away from the sun and kill everyone

[The Defective Doll]

ʝaylin ʅeigh ʀockwell♡

All he did was yell. Jaylin blinked a few times, unable to come up with words. She wasn't accepting what had happened, only realizing that it was real. She lay on her side, picking at her sleeve, staring at old scars and shaking her head. She had caused this. Once more, it was her fault that everything had fallen apart. He needed to stop yelling. Jay could hear his voice catch in his throat. Tears. She didn't have to look. She knew him inside and out, though he didn't know himself. She was broken and hardly knew herself, but she could read Darren from across the world. She closed her eyes, feeling the light shaking of Jason grabbing her shoulders. Jay shook her head. The last thing she wanted was to wake up here. Or at all. Why couldn't she just die here? There was nothing left. Dare wanted her gone. He'd never look at her the way she wanted him to. Just a toy, something to be used.

Jason was lifting her up off the ground, trying to force her uncooperative legs to stand. She squeaked in annoyance at him, trying to shove him off. Jay didn't want to move. She just wanted to sink into the ground, and never come back out. Be dead. Why did she have to face everything? Why couldn't she just hide, and lie, and convince everyone that it didn't happen, like Darren did? Oh yeah, because she didn't have that power. Half her memories, her own health, her virginity, had been yanked away from her. She opened her eyes and looked at her siblings. Dallas thought she was a liar. Jay blinked a few times at her, but didn't give a response. Let her think she was a liar. Jay would disappear, stay far away, and maybe they would just forget she existed. Darren could live on, knowing what he did wrong and not ever paying for it. Jaylin glanced at Charlten as she started to storm off. If only she knew the Dare Jaylin knew. If only she had seen him in the light their family had. Not now. Not today.

Before she knew it, she was being ushered into a taxi. It was like she was being sent away for being bad. Like a trip to prison. Like she had done something wrong. Dark eyes were rimmed with red as she watched Jason gather her things into the trunk.

It's been years since our luck ran out and left us here
like broken mirrors, ten million shards of glass and tears
But now we are awake enough to show what we hear
We hide from the mirrors that might show our scars
Defend your reflection smash what you see
And let's restart 'cause mirrors can't see your heart!

[S T A T i C H0RR0R]

SPAAACED α ℓ ℓ α s Z α η η ε я ø c ĸ ω ε ℓ ℓ



so this is continuous happiness,
you know, i always imagined it something more
and why are my lungs aching when i breathe?
is there something wrong with the heat?
why am i so cold ?
and my heart feels sick, and it hurts when i breathe
this is not what i hoped for

Shaking her head, she watched Jason and Jay. Who the ******** even was this guy? She wrinkled her nose in disdain, but continued to cling to her son. Maybe, if she just slipped inside the house, she'd get to keep him...dreaming? Probably. But it was worth a shot, no? She glanced over at Charlten, suddenly working out why Darren had been so bummed out and placed a hand on his arm. "Of course I don't hate you. She's lying." she muttered, narrowing her eyes at her sister and trying to pull him back inside the apartment.

[S T A T i C H0RR0R]

SPAAACEC h α я l t e η D i α η α я i c h α я d s



when i’m falling down,
will you pick me up again?
when i’m too far gone,
dead in the eyes of my friends
will you take me out of here?
when i’m blinded by the lights
when i can’t see your face

She stared at him in disbelief. Did he honestly still think that? For a moment she stood there, stunned, before suddenly striding towards him, metres away from him and glared at him. "You really believe I lied to you? That I cheated on you?" she shook her head in disbelief. "Well all I can do is tell you that I didn't, of course I didn't, I love you! But I don't know how you expect me to prove that to you."

[The Defective Doll]

Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here
I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
So tiny dancer beware we're medicated and scared
This smile is so hard to wear but I have no gun
There's so much left in the air

Everything was wrong. It was all out of his control. She had spilled the beans and made him look like a monster. Darren cracked. Charlten was leaving, Jaylin hated him, and he didn't even have the heart to look at Dallas. It was all just crooked and horrible and wrong. He ran his hands over his face, stamping his foot when Charlten insisted he never loved her. "Shut up! I did! But you lied to me! You lied every step of the way! I can't stay with a liar! My whole life used to revolve on lies and look where it got me!" There was a shock of wet on his face. Tears. "Go ahead and pretend I didn't love you, that it's not your own damn fault that this is happening. I could have let you die. Made my family happy and never left! But I didn't! None of this would have happened if I had just left you there!" He yelled at her, but didn't run after her. What was the use? She was going to get him put away forever if she pulled enough strings. His life was over. Absolutely over.

He looked at Jay, and Jason, then at Dallas, then back to Jay again. She remembered. But did she remember everything? Did she remember why it happened? Darren had no explanations, he had no reasoning, he had no lies to cover up what had gone on. Jaylin made small noises, and his face contorted into one of regret. He never wanted to accept what he had created. A girl afraid of the world, afraid of everything. Made of lies, and sickness, and death. "Oh god." He murmured, running his hands over his face, leaning back against the house. "You go. Take her, and go," his hands lowered and he looked at Jason, who was giving him a glare that could kill. "Take her, I don't want to see her anymore." He couldn't be reminded of his mistakes. He turned on his heel, looking at Dallas. "If you hate me, I understand." Dare murmured.

So much to tell from your stare
There's so much left to defend
I can tell by your smile you're coming undone
I could bleed for a smile I could cry for some fun
So turn away from the ones who hurt everyone
Walk away from the sun and kill everyone

[S T A T i C H0RR0R]

SPAAACEC h α я l t e η D i α η α я i c h α я d s



when i’m falling down,
will you pick me up again?
when i’m too far gone,
dead in the eyes of my friends
will you take me out of here?
when i’m blinded by the lights
when i can’t see your face

What the bloody hell was going on here? Charlten was taken aback as Darren rounded on her, shouting at her, screaming...she didn't know what to say and then suddenly, she snapped, all the hurt and the anger. "DO IT THEN!" she screeched at him, though was silenced by Jay as her voice piped up. She laughed bitterly and shook her head. "Don't worry, I know you don't love me. You don't have to pretend anymore." she snarled at him, her lip curling nastily. "I'll raise your child alone." she hissed and turned on her heel. Would she? Probably not...who knew? But Darren certainly didn't want her anymore, that much was clear.

[S T A T i C H0RR0R]

SPAAACED α ℓ ℓ α s Z α η η ε я ø c ĸ ω ε ℓ ℓ



so this is continuous happiness,
you know, i always imagined it something more
and why are my lungs aching when i breathe?
is there something wrong with the heat?
why am i so cold ?
and my heart feels sick, and it hurts when i breathe
this is not what i hoped for

Dallas didn't want to hear this, didn't want to see her sister crumple and her brother stand there as though some big secret had been revealed. She refused to believe it, refused to believe that it was true. Not Darren, he wouldn't do that. She shook her head, and watched as he screamed at Charlten, her frown only deepened. Charlten was pregnant? Her jaw dropped a little, was that why Darren had come back? Because he didn't want his child? Dallas didn't know what to make of the whole situation as she stared, wide eyed at her brother.

No. This was all a lie, Jay was sick, everyone knew that. She stepped towards her sister, cradling her son still and narrowed her eyes at the girl. "Why are you doing this? Why are you lying? Why are you doing this to him?!" she demanded and looked across at Darren. "Come on, let's go, let's go inside..." she muttered, looking at him pleadingly, motioning towards the house.

[The Defective Doll]

ʝaylin ʅeigh ʀockwell♡

All the fury, all the pain, every bit of adrenaline that held her on her two feet dropped. She crumpled like a marionette without its strings. Jaylin stared up through tear fogged eyes, watching as Darren snapped. He had lost control. After almost three years, he'd lost control. Control of her, control of the family, control of himself. It was the straw that broke the camel's back. It was all over. Her sobs were lost in the screams that Darren directed at Charlten, threatening her. Threatening to turn her into the broken shell of a person he had turned his own sister into. She couldn't let him do that again. Jay rubbed at her face, unable to process everything at once. It was too much for her fragile mind. She was just learning to accept the words that she so hastily spit out. She played with the hem of her shirt, lifting it ever so slightly to look downward at scars on her bony hips. Scars earned from the very brother that stood not so far from her. Still infuriated. Sick.

"Stop it!" Her tiny voice rang out, just enough to snap Darren out of his rampage. "Don't ruin her like you ruined me," she sobbed, dropping her shirt and covering her eyes with her hands. "Don't do it! You don't have to lie about loving her! She's not your sister! You can love her! Love her properly, Darren!" She shrieked, dropped her body weight fowards. She sunk down into the ground, rolling onto her side as she cried. It was hopeless. Darren, to her, was a lost cause. Everything she ever knew was wrong, and corrupt, and sick. Jay's sobs lowered to whimpers, her gaze getting more and more vague. Jason knelt beside her, trying to shake reality back into her. His angry gaze turned to Darren again.

"Run. Like the coward you are. Run. I dare you. I dare you to see how far you get." He growled. His growl was eerie, similar to Darren's, only with more of an edge. The edge of someone who had nothing to lose.

It's been years since our luck ran out and left us here
like broken mirrors, ten million shards of glass and tears
But now we are awake enough to show what we hear
We hide from the mirrors that might show our scars
Defend your reflection smash what you see
And let's restart 'cause mirrors can't see your heart!

[The Defective Doll]

Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here
I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
So tiny dancer beware we're medicated and scared
This smile is so hard to wear but I have no gun
There's so much left in the air

It all slapped him in the face like a bucket of ice water. She had said it. She made it sound so dark, so sick, so twisted. Everyone was looking at him. Dallas looked at him like she expected him to deny it. He wanted to deny it. Say it never happened. Insist that she was batshit, and everyone would accept it. Right? Of course. Of course nobody would believe Jay. It didn't matter. She was a liar, a liar, and completely sick in the head. But the way she sobbed, the way she looked at him, he just couldn't bring himself to lie about it anymore. Was he the source of her nightmares? But all these years, they played the normal brother and sister. She ran to him, always ducked into his arms and everything was okay. He was the protector. Not the abuser. But a part of him nagged. He knew what he had done. How he tried to make her forget. How he made her sick. Darren felt ill.

All of a sudden, there was a small voice, breaking the silence. Charlten. Charlten?! [********] His eyes got big, and now he was trapped in two senses. Now it was even worse. Now his family was looking at him as a sick b*****d, and they had Charlten to back up his claims. ********. He was trapped. So trapped, so ********, and all he had to do was lie! Lie about everything! He'd never touched his sister! But he did. But he apologized so many times. When she whined that he was hurting her. When she cried after the visit to the clinic. The way she reverted to the mentality of the child she was forced to eliminate in secret. The way that Jaylin clung to Blaise when Dallas wasn't there. It all clicked, and it made him even more nauseated.

"...I...I didn't..." He couldn't say that he didn't do it, because he could see the gears turning in everyone's heads. "It wasn't..." What was he supposed to say? Everything was over. It was all over. He was going to melt into the ground and die. Was this how it was going to be? His fear and confusion clicked straight to anger when he saw Charlten. Jaylin, 2.0.

"What the ******** are you doing here?!" He rounded on her, his body and eyes full of fury and danger. "What the ******** did I say to you?! I don't want it! Just go away! I can get rid of you and nobody would ever know! I can destroy you, without even having a body count! I can rattle your mind and you can forget that you were ever pregnant! I could destroy your mind and body! I could kill you and call it something natural! Do you want to be her, Charlten, do you?!" Something snapped. Something crucial fell apart in that moment. Something about her made him a madman. She was everything he saw in Jay that fateful night, without the boundaries of having to lie about her existence.

So much to tell from your stare
There's so much left to defend
I can tell by your smile you're coming undone
I could bleed for a smile I could cry for some fun
So turn away from the ones who hurt everyone
Walk away from the sun and kill everyone

[S T A T i C H0RR0R]

SPAAACEC h α я l t e η D i α η α я i c h α я d s



when i’m falling down,
will you pick me up again?
when i’m too far gone,
dead in the eyes of my friends
will you take me out of here?
when i’m blinded by the lights
when i can’t see your face

She was ready, ready to take him on, to yell and scream until her voice was hoarse, to prove that the baby was his. She would do whatever he wanted, she would get an abortion if that was what he asked of her, but first, she needed to prove that she didn't cheat on him, that she loved him...

As she climbed the stairs, she was surprised to hear yelling and screaming, those voices sounded familiar for some reason...as she got closer, she began to hear more of what they were saying, some ******** up family feud, secrets being poured out. Charlten shook her head - what was wrong with some people? Though as she rounded the corner, she was taken aback, seeing that it was Darren and his family. She remained there, unnoticed, whilst Jay screamed at him, screamed about being molested, about poison, about...an abortion clinic? She frowned, in shock..."Darren?" she hadn't even meant to say his name, she had meant to turn and disappear, unnoticed. But it was too late now, she'd heard everything...

[S T A T i C H0RR0R]

SPAAACED α ℓ ℓ α s Z α η η ε я ø c ĸ ω ε ℓ ℓ



so this is continuous happiness,
you know, i always imagined it something more
and why are my lungs aching when i breathe?
is there something wrong with the heat?
why am i so cold ?
and my heart feels sick, and it hurts when i breathe
this is not what i hoped for

Everything happened so fast, Darren moved away and Jaylin was screaming at him, the two were yelling, shaking each other, fighting. And suddenly, Blaise was in her arms and Dallas felt her heart swell, everything else that was going on melted into the background and she soothed her son, who seemed to calm down slightly in her arms, burying his face into her t-shirt, like he knew her, like he knew that perfume, that voice...of course he did..."It's okay baby, mommy's here..." she whispered, kissing the top of his head. But even the joy of having her son couldn't block out what was being said, and Dallas' eyes widened, was this true? Was all of this true? How could it be true? No...that wasn't Darren, Darren wouldn't do those things. And out of the corner of her eye, she saw someone move..."Darren..." she tried to interrupt, but her voice was lost. How could this be true? Her whole world crumpled then, Darren was the one that held everything up, held everything together, what Jay was saying simply could not be true. Dallas stood there in shock as a familiar voice floated through the air...

"Darren?"

Charlten.

[The Defective Doll]

How much of it's genetics?
The amount of pills I'm taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking
No, I don't think that I can be fixed
And you can cry all you want to, I don't care how much
Tell me why, oh why are my genetics such a b***h?
And you can't keep my brother,and you won't ******** my friends!

[Complicated things. xD]

Jaylin glared at Dallas, shaking her head. No. She wasn't giving him up. "What's stopping me?" She shot a look at Jason, who held up his phone. Why hadn't she called? So much drama had distracted her from the point. She shook her head quickly and let out a sigh, backing up and moving closer to her companion. He wasn't a boyfriend, or a lover, just someone she would rely on until she got things worked out again. She hardly knew him, aside from him looking sort of like Darren and being a nurse at the local hospital. Nothing more, nothing less. Maybe it was better that way. Dallas was trying to steer an angry, shaky Darren back into the house, and Jay flinched when he pulled away and stormed towards his sister.

"You think you know everything. Taking Blaise. All high and mighty. And dying. You'll be dead, and nobody will know."

"Not unless I tell them." She hissed back shortly, and Darren recoiled like he had been slapped. No. This wasn't happening. It was just a nightmare. A horrible, horrible dream, where things just didn't make any sense. Jay had that look of recognition, like she remembered something huge. Her eyes were big, and her whole body shook. She made a quick movement, handing Blaise off to Dallas. This shocked both Jason and Darren. Jason looked at Jay like she was mad, Darren looked panicked.

"I remember everything you sick son of a b***h! Drugging me up like you're Leo didn't do anything but make me sick! You ********! You don't lace poison into your little sister's food! You don't lie to her, you don't take her to an abortion clinic under someone else's name!" She leapt at him, banging small fists against his chest, causing Darren to react and grab her shoulders, shaking her like a rag doll. "Shut up! You're insane! Shut up!" Both of them were enraged, one in a panic and the other releasing a torrent of pain that had been pent up for years.

"I remember!" Her voice was broken up as he shook her, and she felt stronger hands grab her and yank her back, away from Darren. Jason, in a movement of fury, shoving Jay aside and pushing Darren against the side of the house. "Let him go, Jason! He needs to hear me!"

"He's my brother, too." Jason responded coldly, and Jay squinted. She shoved the comment off, and went back to her angry rampage.

"But of all the horrible, horrible things you've done..." She hissed sharply. "Of the times you lied to me, of the times you pretended to be dumb and blind to my pain..." Jay felt her legs starting to buckle under her as she spoke. Could she really say it?

"When did it become okay to molest your fourteen year old sister?!" She shrieked. The world ceased to spin, and Darren seemed to melt right into the ground. It was like she broken time and space and destroyed the foundation on which they stood.

All in my head again the nightmares I might hear
This is how we like to do it in the murder scene
All my tears pull me through hell again
We are young and we don't care.
I wake in the night and I pray that I've been dreaming there's nowhere to hide from this nightmare calling to me
We never wanted it to be this way.