What a mischief you would bring young darling, when you’re up for it before you’ve grown.
From the liver sweating through your tongue.
Well you’re standing on my sternum don’t you climb down darling.
Smoke on Sunday’s when you’re drunk and dressed.
That bloody gap in the curtains, the one that let in a ray of light that seemed to perfectly settle on your face and bring you from your wonderful world of sleep? Yes, that was what woke Iyzabel as she rolled over, finding herself entangled in a load of sheets, she moved a lot in her sleep and she was well aware of the fact that she often spoke in her sleep as well. Not that she ever slept much anymore, not thanks to her phobia. Izy spent most of the night sat up in bed with the light on, reading, keeping her mind busy, yet it didn’t stop her from keeping an ear out and tensing up for several minutes at a time every time she heard the faintest noise. God, it was far too early for this crap. Izy had never been a morning person, never in her life; even as a baby her mother said she had slept incredibly well, apparently it was something she got from her father although that seemed to be more due to the influence of alcohol than a love for sleeping.
As the young woman rolled over and pulled the duvet over her head, a sudden nausea overcame her, and she was on her feet, rushing from her bedroom and down the hall – barging past her little sister and into the bathroom before throwing up. [******** sake.” She was sick of this already, resting her forehead against the cool porcelain of the toilet. Well, it was her own fault in the first place, despite the fact she’d been using contraception – but then that’s never 100% guaranteed, as Izy found out the hard way. She was mad, more than anything. Anger and aggression came easier to Izy than upset and realisation and so for the time being, she would remain angry. She had told her family about her pregnancy – however she had denied the rumours about Ty being the father of her baby, yet she refused to tell them who the real father was. Not for the fact that she was scared of their reaction, her family were pretty laid back, more for the reason that she didn’t want it getting out, somehow. Her little sister, as much as Izy loved her, was as much of a motor mouth as Izy herself, if not more. And so for the time being, her family were in the same position as the rest of Brookshire; left playing a guessing game. And no one would ever know the answer, until Izy wanted them to. The thought brought a smile to her plump lips, that was all this was to the eighteen year old. A game. It made it easier. Less scary. She hadn’t exactly confronted the whole situation yet, reality hadn’t set in.
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Iyzabel was surprisingly relaxed for someone who needed to be at work fairly soon as she climbed out of the shower and wrapped herself in a towel, wandering back to her room. It wasn’t until she caught sight of the time that she really started to rush. ”Fuuuuck.” she sung to herself as she quickly changed into her work clothes – a simple pair of fitted black trousers, a pair of black high heels and a fitted white blouse. It was inevitable that she was going to be late, as Izy quickly applied her makeup and tousled her long blonde hair. Finally, she was ready – at the time she was supposed to start work, grabbing her handbag, she hitched it onto her shoulder and ran out onto the landing and rushed downstairs. Paperwork, clothes and people all got in her way. Her family were laid back, scatty people, and Izy was probably the scattiest of them all as she ran around shouting her head off about her keys. ”Get out of my way Dallas!” her eldest brother was caught off balance as his younger sister shoved him out of the way with a surprising amount of strength for such a petite girl. ”MOM. KEYS.” she yelled. ”She’s out dufus. Wasn’t home last night.” Brooklyn, her second eldest brother was leaning casually against the doorframe, eating a piece of toast and swinging Izy’s house keys from his index finger. A low growl emitted from the young woman’s throat as she snatched the keys from him. Izy was the only child in the household that wasn’t named after the city in which she was conceived – she had no idea why and she chose not to ask, Izy thought the whole thing was ridiculous anyway, her brothers; Dallas, Brooklyn and Dayton were the eldest three, then came Iyzabel, then Jackson, and the youngest of them all was Madison.
It was a good job Izy was used to wearing high heels; otherwise she never would have been able to run to work. But she made it, only ten minutes late, bursting through the front door slightly out of breath. ”Sorry! Sorry!” she muttered heading straight out the back, unaware that the local priest had just asked for her. Dumping her handbag in her locker, Izy made sure she looked acceptable before her boss threw a bagel at her. ”Because I know you won’t have eaten.” he smiled at her, a kind man. Izy wolfed the bagel down before grabbing her notepad and pen and heading back out the front, only to be pointed to one of the booths, armed with the information that her service had been requested.
As she headed over to the table, Izy came to see a familiar face awaiting her. ”Hello you.” she beamed down at him. Chandler Maddux, better known as Charlie. The local priest, a kind man and a familiar face in the diner. ”Am I getting your usual or are you gonna catch me off guard today?” she smiled at him, Izy’s eyes lit up and sparkled an even brighter blue when she smiled. There was something relaxing about Charlie, and he seemed to have a strange affect on Iyzabel. He made her feel a sense of guilt, about the way that she chose to live her life, she felt bad about how manipulative and spiteful she could be – it seemed as though the young woman did have a conscience after all. Maybe it was the fact he was a priest, maybe it was those piercing blue eyes of his, that made Izy feel as though he could see right through her, as if he knew all of her darkest secrets. It sent a shiver down her spine and made her feel slightly uneasy, yet at the same time, it intrigued her. ”Are you on your own today?” she cocked an eyebrow at him. He was often seen with a local woman – her name escaped Izy’s mind, she was unsure if the two were an item, there was no denying that Charlie was an attractive man, but Izy knew nothing about him and his life. He was just a customer, and she was just his waitress.
Izy glanced up for a second to see a group of girls walking past the diner, laughing amongst themselves. Shopping for the festival. Ah, the festival. Izy always went, every year, yet she knew that this year would be...interesting, what with all the rumours floating around lately, not to mention the fact that a film crew were in town. Everything was so different around here now, she wasn’t sure how she felt about the news crew – it kind of felt like an invasion of privacy. Izy felt a sense of protectiveness towards her town, this was her town, their town, and she didn’t know why these people were so interested in it. Brookshire wasn’t on the map, it didn’t need to be, and secrets were buried here. Secrets that were better off staying buried.
She turned her attention back to Charlie and took his order. ”I’ll be back in a moment.” she flashed him a grin before heading back through to put his order in, and grabbing his drink, just the way she knew he liked it. ”There we go. I’ll be back with food in just a moment.” she assured him, placing his drink down in front of him before disappearing through the back to check her phone whilst Charlie’s order was prepared.
’From; Izy
To; John
Message; Hey. What are you doing tonight?’
John. The deputy Sherriff in town, a man nine years Izy’s senior and someone she’d had a brief fling with, though things seemed to have died down lately. He never answered her texts and avoided her eye if they passed in town. She wasn’t entirely sure what had happened, if someone had found out or if he’d simply gotten bored. But out of everyone, John was the one Izy had gotten closest to almost having feelings for. Almost. Ha. A smile pulled at her lips, the idea was ludicrous. Izy, having feelings for someone? Izy, in a relationship? No. No no, that wouldn’t do, that wouldn’t do at all. It was best he was ignoring her, for whatever reason that may be. With that, she cancelled the text she had just written to John and instead, opened a new message.
’From; Izy
To; Winona
Message; FYI; Ty’s said he’s interested in being part of the baby’s life. He’s even coming to the scan. Boohoo, guess you’ll have to find a new thing to lust over.’
Stabbing the send button, Izy wrinkled her nose. Sometimes even she didn’t know why she was so spiteful. Of course everything she’d just said to her ex-best friend was a bare faced lie. Izy hadn’t spoken to Ty for weeks, she’d called him once to tell him the rumours were true, and since then the two hadn’t contacted one another. Izy just seemed to find pleasure in hurting others.
The thing was, Iyzabel hadn’t really thought about her pregnancy in terms of reality, she’d only ever really used it as a weapon – to upset Winona, to manipulate Tyreese. The young woman was avoiding it, avoiding the fact that she had a decision to make, that she had a responsibility. It terrified her, and so her natural reaction was to ignore it. Let people assume what they wanted and face it only when she had to...or until someone forced her to. Eurgh, no, she didn’t want to start thinking about this, she needed a distraction.
’From; Izy
To; William
Message; Feeling shitty. What’re you doing tonight? x’
Pressing send, Izy waited for a delivery report to assure her her best friend got the message. She just hoped against hope that William wasn’t going to be anywhere near Shin if she did see him later. Izy had been dabbling in drugs for a while, only, she tended to do IOU’s, and lately, it seemed as though all her IOU’s had come back to bite her in the a**, big time, as Shin was calling in all her money. All her money...that she didn’t have, and anyone who knew him, knew not to ******** with Shin. Yet, that was exactly what Izy was doing, she was playing a dangerous game...
”Izy!”
Her manager’s voice cut through her thoughts as he motioned to the plates that were waiting to be taken out to Charlie. ”Sorry.” she muttered, shoving her phone away and getting back to work. ”What has gotten into you lately, I know you’re a scatterbrain.” he poked her gently in the forehead ”But it seems as though you’ve lost the very few pieces you had in the first place, is something going on?” he frowned, trying to work her out, but Izy just offered her sweetest smile and shook her head. Best to keep her pregnancy from work for as long as possible. Whilst her boss was nice, people in this town judged quickly, and she got the impression that he wouldn’t be too impressed – and Izy quite liked her job and the way things were so she planned on keeping them that way for as long as possible. She just prayed that the rumours didn’t reach his ears.
Heading back over to Charlie’s table, Izy placed the food down in front of him, along with cutlery and napkins. ”Et viola” she smiled at him. ”Is there anything else I can get you at all?” she asked, looking at him expectantly. She glanced across as another customer entered the diner and seated himself, Iyzabel recognised him as the local sheriff and caught his eye, letting him know she knew he was there and that she'd take his order in just a moment.
(EDITED)
Location: At the diner, with Charlie
The Party Girl
Someway baby its part of me, apart from me.
You ******** it friend, it’s on its head, it stuck the street.
And at once I knew, I was not magnificent.