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AUUUUGH I HATE GAIA I HAD A BUNCH TYPED UP AND GAIA DELETED IT WHEN I PRESSED SUBMIT D:< D:< D:<
well, because i made you wait so long, bailey, here's a nice long poast for you : D hopefully you don't see it till its all done haha
It wasn't that he was particularly unattractive. Terrence thought he actually was fairly good-looking, compared to some. Maybe he was no Brad Pitt, but he wasn't disfigured either. People liked to act as though everyone was shallow, and that looks were all that mattered. But that wasn't really true; it was really all about confidence. He knew that. It's what all the feel-good movies said. Confidence, that's what you needed. Well, it wasn't something he had an abundance of. No, he didn't dislike himself, but he really was just....awkward. Just awkward. It wasn't as if he'd never had a girlfriend before, but they usually didn't last. He didn't know how he was supposed to act around girls; why was it so different than being around his male friends? He seemed to have trouble making friends of any gender, really, now that he thought about it. The only one that had stuck around him for a long time was Aaron, with whom he had grown up. Was he annoying? Sometimes, even he thought so, but it was always easy to think you were worse than what other people thought. He spent too much time ruminating...yeah, that was one of his problems. He thought too much about every little thing. Not what other people did necessarily; he didn't over-analyze that. It's what he did. It sounds self-centered, and...well, maybe it is, but not in any way that helped. He couldn't help but obsess over everything he did in social settings and what the other person must be thinking, though he didn't often voice his insecurities it always kept him from making a real connection with people. Again, excepting Aaron in this. Perhaps it was growing up with him, or knowing that no matter what he did they would still be friends, even if he was a bit of a clumsy fool once in awhile.
He thought about it vaguely as he took the public bus to the mall. Sure, his family had enough money to buy him a car, which he did have (and had owned since they got it for him in high school). But he had to pay for his own gas and bills now, and honestly; the bus was cheaper. It was fun, in a quirky sense; he liked to people watch. The ride from his neighborhood to downtown was longer than if he had drove, and he didn't even have to worry about parking. It allowed time to think and observe your surroundings, and he liked that. It also required exercise; you had to walk to the bus stop, and it was a nice little walk through downtown to get to the mall, and then repeated on the way back. Years ago he'd had to pay, but now that he was in the university he rode for free with a swipe of his student card, which made it even better. It was annoying to try and get a parking spot on campus, and it was always so far away from classes that you had to ride a bus to get to the main campus anyway. What was the point? None that he could see. So, he rode the bus. That's where he was currently sitting, staring out the window as the houses passed through his field of vision. This section was the expensive part of downtown. It managed to be scenic while abutting a metropolitan city (it only took about ten minutes to walk to downtown from the edge) with all the rolling hills and original Victorian-style houses sprinkled down the roads.
As the bus pulled into the depot, he stepped off the bus and adjusted his large, black square-rimmed glasses. They were real, he actually needed them to aid his sight, but they were almost over-sized frames, the type that were currently...in vogue. Secretly, he felt like Clark Kent. Except he wasn't actually a superhero, much less a super-anything. He was a pretty average guy. He had an average body size, average looks, your standard nerdiness, average grades, and a slightly less than average social life. He was currently wearing a black batman tee that was printed to look like the caped crusader's costume, all in gray with the bat-logo splayed across the chest, and two-dimensional utility belt that wrapped around the waist. He was also wearing a pair of plain black jeans and black high-top converse sneakers with the standard shoelaces replaced by black ones. Ok, so maybe more than just standard nerdiness. His hair stood up not exactly in a stylized fashion. Sure, he had showered and didn't even put any gunk in, but his hair just did it naturally did it. Wiry, he supposed. Wiry and thick. He hadn't shaved, either. He wasn't going for a beard or anything, but he didn't mind looking a bit scruffy.
He finally pushed through the doors to the mall, and drew a deep breath. It was later in the evening, around dinner time. Most of his friends were either at work or had other plans or were just lazing about their house. He couldn't blame them, sometimes he just felt like lounging about the house doing nothing as well. Most notably, however, was the fact that Aaron was unavailable. He knew that he was supposed to be going out on a dinner date with his girlfriend and their childhood...acquaintance, Vivian. Oh, Vivian; she was beautiful. Aaron was, of course, the king of their highschool, so naturally he had won her heart. Terrence had known he never stood a chance, and not just because she had refused to acknowledge his existence on the rare chances he attempted to talk to her. Even now that she was around him much of the time with Aaron, she still mostly tried to ignore him. It didn't matter. He had it bad...and despite how often he had tried to shake off his feelings for her, he couldn't seem to do so. He wasn't sure what it was; she wasn't nice to him, she was beautiful, and she was possessive. Though not completely sure about it, he was rather certain he didn't like jealous and possessive girls. Of course, he never really had much of a chance to find out, but it didn't really sound all that great; sure, a little bit maybe would be endearing, but no one wanted to have someone breathing down their neck about every little thing. He sighed. What am I doing here? he asked himself, trying to recall his reason for coming down here in the first place. Aside from wasting time? Ohh...riiiight. Hello, hotstuff. His eyes caught sight of the videogame store. That's right; that's why he had taken out $50 from his bank account. Eh. I'll go later...maybe wander around a bit so I don't have to carry a bag with me through the whole mall. The light rumble in his stomach reminded him it was just about that time. That lovely time for...consuming food. He directed himself toward the food court, and he had the odd feeling he was looking at someone he knew. His gaze fell on Vivian, and it took him a few minutes to mentally confirm that it was her. What the hell was she doing sitting down on a bench at the mall, much less alone in the food court? It was like something straight out of the Twilight Zone. If she was here with friends, she'd be up and about and chatting...if this was where she was going to wait and meet for Aaron....was that even possible? Her waiting? In a mall? For Aaron? To eat...there?! Taking a deep breath and steeling himself for the probable immediate shootdown he was about to receive, he ambled over to her and grinned.
"Vivian? Hey, I hope I'm not bothering you. Meeting Aaron here?" He voiced his theory aloud, and glanced up at the sign of the place she was sitting in front of. It was your run-of-the mill mall restaurant. You know the type; all the expense of a fancy restaurant with none of the atmosphere, variation of cuisine, nor even quality of cuisine. It was set into a mall, for Picard's sake. Sure, it was nice if you wanted a nicer meal than the fast food offered at the other stands in the mall, and you were hanging out with your friends, but a date? Really? "Huh. I've never eaten here before. You'll have to let me know how it is!" He smiled to her, lying through his teeth. He didn't care about how the food was, it was like any other place. Nothing special. Standard meat dishes, standard pasta, pizza, salads. She seemed to be acknowledging him, which was a step up from her usual reaction, and feeling more confident, his smile broadened. "Do you mind if I sit with you while you wait?" He gestured to the empty space beside her, half expecting to be refused. When she didn't say he couldn't, he was vaguely surprised. A moment later, recovering from it, he sat down beside her. They lapsed into silence, and he tugged on the hem of his shirt, wondering what he ought to say next. They'd never had a real conversation before, and he only knew her on a superficial level; from what he observed, and from what Aaron told him about her. It really wasn't much; Aaron didn't go around talking about his girlfriend all day, after all. It would get a bit awkward for most people...although Terrence liked to hear about her, so it was a little disappointing. He didn't think they had much in common except a relative fondness (romantic or platonic) for Aaron, and that seemed bout it. He was relieved when she spoke up first.
"Shopping? Nah, not really. I was thinking about buying a movie or a video game or something, maybe grabbing something to eat while I was here. I haven't any plans for tonight, obviously, so I thought I'd wander around a bit to kill some time before heading over to Best Buy. I swear, I didn't know you two were eating here and I am not stalking you." He paused, glancing nervously at her, and then offered a hesitant laugh. He hadn't meant to make it sound awkward, he really was trying to just make a joke, but even to his ears it sounded a bit weird. Changing tact, he blurted out what he was thinking, without pause to consider the implications or consequences."I'm surprised Aaron is taking you here, though." He wrinkled his nose. Sure, he believed it, but he felt as though he was doing his friend a wrong by pointing it out, even if it was true. It was almost as if...he was trying to sabotage their relationship. A little part of him wanted to. Okay, a big part of him wanted them to break up and have Vivian fall into his arms. But he didn't want to hurt Aaron like that, abuse their friendship. He was like the brother Terrence never had, and he didn't want to jeopardize that; but he also knew he wasn't going to be able to stop himself. When Terrence went out to eat, it was a special occassion. If he was going to go through the effort of leaving his house to eat, he wasn't going to get something he could just whip up himself in his own kitchen; no, he liked quirky little cafes and small business restaurants, locally run shops and cultural cuisine menus. He wanted the atmosphere, the pretentiousness, the variance and novelty of it all. Most of the time it ended up being even cheaper than run of the mill places like this.
"He ought to take you to eat somewhere downtown, like an actual restaurant. A mall one is kind of cheating a bit, don't you think? I mean, I'm sure it'll be good food and all, but I like the atmosphere of restaurants that aren't actually attached to shopping malls much better. Or maybe I'm just being a snob, eh?" He grinned at her, and his smile faltered as she contradicted him. "I don’t think you’re a snob." He could hear his heart beating, the blood pulsing through his arteries and the veins at his temple. He sucked in a breath of air when he realized he wasn't breathing. "Well." He paused, just looking at her. "Thanks, then. You tried calling Aaron obviously, eh? What time was he supposed to meet you? He always makes me wait, but I always figured you got preferential treatment, being his girlfriend and all." He arched a brow at the incredulous look he gave him. What was so surprising about what he said? He didn't see why she should be so shocked that he thought Aaron shouldn't be making her wait like that, it was true. Didn't people usually get treated better if they had relationship status like that, when compared to someone that was just a friend. Aaron didn't seem like the type to treat someone special just because of it though, now that he thought about it. As much as he loved Aaron, the man was a bit self-centered at times.
"Twenty minutes? Yikes. That's a long time to sit here by yourself. You must've been really bored, eh? You should've wandered around and made him wait instead!" He laughed, feeling another pang of conscience. "Yeah, a game or a movie or something, just to give me summat to do later when I go home. I do have other friends, but they are all busy. I don't mind hanging out by myself either, so it's not so big a deal." He shrugged. "Video game....hm. I dunno. I've got all the systems...." She smiled at him and he responded in kind, taken with the fact that she was smiling...at him. At him! "Probably something with a lengthy plot, you know? I play anything really as long as its fun. RPGs, MMOs, racing, FPS, or...well my favorite type would have to be arcade style fighting games, but they really don't take a long time to play, its fun for just a random game of something. I need to keep myself busy though, ya know?" He laughed somewhat nervously, and it just turned into a sound of complaint as it ran into his next words. "Er, sorry. I sorta rambled on a bit there, huh?" Before he really had a chance to think about it, she responded to his conversation as if his awkward interlude had never occurred.
"I like RPGs, but I completely fail at FPS. I have problems when it comes to aiming." Ok, now, he thought he had more than reasonable excuse to be shocked. He was more than shocked, he was in complete disbelief. His jaw dropped open and he stared at her as if seeing her in a whole new way. In his mind, she had a celestial background lighting as a non-existant breeze ruffled her hair in a divine manner. She was...a goddess. He nearly slipped and said so. "You are--" He was cut off as her gaze flickered behind him, her expression darkening. "Took you long enough." His hear skipped a beat and he shut his mouth, gulping slightly. He turned around, and....yes, there he was. Of course. Coming in at just the right moment to ruin everything. "I know. I’m sorry. I brought you flowers. It’s a big bouquet, but it’s in the car. I thought it might have been embarrassing to bring them here. Hey, Terrence. How’s going?" Terrence offered him a small wave. He felt a recurring pang of guilt at his previous thought. That wasn't very nice, Aaron was his best friend, and here he was consorting with Vivian; if anything Terrence was in the wrong, and boy did he know it.
"So what are you doing here?" Terrence shrugged, attempting nonchalance. "Oh, well....I was bored because I have essentially no social life except the time we hang out together, and so with you busy I figured I'd go to the mall and buy a videogame or something...I didn't realize you were coming here. I j-I saw Vivian sitting here alone and figured I'd offer my company while she waited. Anyway, I guess I'll go and buy those videogames now, ahaha....yeah. You guys, uh, have a great date, ok? Have fun. Um....later. Sorry." he ended awkwardly (no surprise there). As he turned to walk away, he heaved a sigh of relief. At least he didn't sound any less eloquent than usual....
His last thought as he trailed off in the direction he had originally come in is that he really was in trouble now....and he really wanted to offer to help her with the first person shooter games.
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