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[tear girl]

Anabel Lee Jameson
Ms. Not-So-Innocent
xxxxxxxxxxSome say that they only look innocent and that beyond their appearance is a wild side...
xxxxxxxxxxBut me, I don't even look innocent. And I h a v e a w i l d s i d e that I don't even care to hide anymore.

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[tear girl]

"When words fail, music speaks."

x x x xP u l l x M y x S t r i n g s ;; x x x x
→ tear girl

x x x xT h a t ' s x M y x N a m e x,x D o n ' t x W e a r x I t x O u t ;;x x x x
→ Christian James Allen

x x x xP i n k x O r x B l u e x x x x
→ Male

x x x xT h i s x I s x T h e x D a y x I x W a s x B o r n ;;x x x x
→ March 19th

x x x xH o w x M a n y x C a n d l e s ;;x x x x
→ twenty

x x x xI x H a v e x A x S e c r e t ;;x x x x
→ I uh...well, killed my brother. Maybe not killed, but just about. We were on our way to a concert one night, I can't remember who we were going to go see, but we'd been fighting earlier and it was crazy in the car. He was driving and wouldn't put his seat belt on, I gave him a bunch of crap about it and when he kept ignoring me, I took the wheel and swerved. We hit oncoming traffic and he's been in a coma ever since. It's been...a little over six months. Everyone says that it's not my fault and that he didn't have his seat belt on. But no one else knows that I was the one to pull on the steering wheel and I was the one to make us swerve.

x x x xT h e x R o l e x O n x M y x L e t t e r x S a i d ;;x x x x
→ Mafia

x x x xI x H o p e x Y o u x L i k e x M e ;;x x x x
→ I'm pretty normal I guess. But I have my quirks. For example, I can't stand going to the hospital, even if I need to. I'd rather have a doctor come see me, and even that's a little...off. Why? Because I can't stand all the white. I need color in my life, and hospitals are just..too blank. I need excitement, thrill. But more than anything, I like to be calm, and relaxed. I've been told I'm pretty bi-polar, but I've never been diagnosed. I don't want to find out, and I don't really care if you want to know or not. I don't think I'm bi-polar. But I do get quite the mood swings. I don't know what it is, I express all my feelings pretty well physically and verbally, and if I can't do that, I'll do it through my music. I carry my guitar everywhere. And I mean everything. I don't leave the house without it. Cynthia's my baby, and yes I named my guitar. I know I know, I'm crazy right? Well, beyond the little quirks and mood swings, I'm really just a relaxed kind of guy. I get hyped up when other people are hyped up, just to add to the mood, but generally I stick to being cool about things. No one wants and over-reactive buddy amongst them. Especially not me, not with my temper anyways..,

x x x xT h i s x I s x W h a t x I x L o o k x L i k e ;;x x x x
→ 5'10" 150lbs

x x x xT h i s x I s x W h o m x I x L i k e ;;x x x x
→ Women

x x x xI x P r e f e r x S o m e x T h i n g s x T o x O t h e r s ;;x x x x
[+]music/guitar
[+]knives
[+]sunsets
[-]blood
[-]losing my temper
[-]hurting other people [emotionally/physically]

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[x]Bees/Wasps
[x]Someone finding out about...you know.
[x]Being lonely, not being alone, but being lonely.

x x x xI t ' s x W h a t x I x D o ;;x x x x
→ Musician. [You know, the little gigs for birthdays and school dances and the like]

x x x xM y x P a s t ;;x x x x
→ I was the second twin in a family of six. I had an older brother, by two years, a twin sister [older by three minutes], and a younger sister by five years. I can't really say that I had a bad life because truthfully, no matter what I needed or what I wanted, I was pretty much set. Sometimes I didn't get what I wanted, but if I ever really needed something, I'd get it sooner or later. That's not to say though that I was a perfect kid. I threw temper tantrums all the time. And I was a pain in the rear. Anger management wasn't an option though, I didn't want to do it [I threw a fit over that too], and no one could make me. Tyler, my brother stood by me in everything. He was the one to introduce me to music. It became my life. One of the only things that would get me calm. And...well that's where we are now I guess. I play gigs every once in awhile. It's not a great living, but it's decent.

[tear girl]

Christian • James • Allen
• When words fail, music speaks. •
I'm terrified of what they'll think of me now.
But I can't keep living a lie.

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[tear girl]

Jeremy Ryan Connors
We're as f a r apart as
Daffy Duck and Minnie Mouse.
It's completely && utterly wrong.

xxxx

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[tear girl]

Jacob • Peter • Harrison
Jake • Senior

When [I made up] my mind
And my h e a r t along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for god, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

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[tear girl]

||Diane Amanda Kopler||























About Me!
My Full name is Diane Amanda Kopler , But I don't mind being called Diane . I am seventeen years old, and live in a old run down dance studio in New York. As you can tell I am a lady and I really like wearing my black boot-cut jeans and my red jersey top . My favorite hobbies aredancing, writing, and playing with knives, but I hate arguing, waitress-ing, and . Sometimes I really like {3 things you love like colors or animals or something} but sometimes I truly despise {3 things you really hate}.

About My Past!
Oh geez, you want to know about my past? Well damn...you better sit down then. I'm the second and last kid born to Mr. and Mrs. Kopler, who at the time were simply Mr. Kopler and Ms. Reed. The only girl, and pretty much the only one to do anything about the house. My parents worked restaurants. So they were pretty much always working, and my brother, Daniel, and I had to sit in the office for hours at a time, doing homework, goofing around, and whatnot. It was a pretty lonely childhood, but I guess I should have seen it coming, since he and I were technically b*****d children, no matter if my parents got engaged after my birth and married within six months. Anywho, I didn't really get along with my brother, go figure right? And with my parents always out of the house and all that...I grew up to be pretty independent. Not only that, but my parents pushed me to do well in school, not accepting anything less than perfection. Let's just say that an A wasn't good enough and leave it at that. I busted my a** to make it so that my parents would be proud of me, but they never really ever said it, or showed that they were.
I guess that was where everything changed. Slowly but surely, I began to feel the whole in my heart just...grow bigger. I didn't feel like my parents took any interest in my life except to tell me I wasn't good enough. They'd set me up for so many things, music, dance, school, everything. And I was just never 'good enough'. Any who I decided that I had enough and left. I wrote them a five page letter, front and back, telling them all the things that I'd felt over the years and how I couldn't stand it anymore. I told them that I loved them, because they're my parents you know, and that it hurt that they'd treat me that way and all. I pretty much spilled my whole heart to them and told them that if they ever wanted to talk to me, on the same level, like civil people, they'd figure out how to contact me. I haven't heard from them yet, but I've heard from Daniel, we may not have gotten along so well, but he at least understood parts of what it was like. He didn't quite have our parents telling him he wasn't good enough, but he sure did get the feeling that sometimes, they didn't quite care enough. So I called him on the road when I could.
Eventually I got to New York. And I stopped moving. There were two reasons. One, I'd always wanted to come to New York. And two, I was out of money and needed to get more if I wanted to do anything at all. I got a waitress-ing job, in a diner down the street from my 'home'. The studio's pretty nice, quiet most of all. I've heard around that it's but up for lease for a long time, years, but no one ever is interested. I've got it pretty well set up to be honest. I'm glad to be here, even if I miss a few people. Maybe I'll go back sometime. It'll be weird sure, but it's been almost a year now, of course it'll be weird.

My Lovely Parent!
tear girl

[tear girl]

Diane Amanda Kopler
The Miserable b*****d

I only [w a n t e d] to be somebody
So [********] bad, I came unglued
I only [w a n t e d] to be somebody
So here we are now, face to face

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