Testing, 1,2. Testing, 1,2.

[rajio_obake]

Protogenos of the bright light which fill the upper zones of air.

Trust Me
I cram thousands of stories in my pockets
What do you want to talk about today,
B e n e a t h x t h e x n i g h t x s k y . ?
Glittering recollections are the most dazzlingly painful things
Because they get washed away

Trust Me

I cram thousands of stories in my pockets
What do you want to talk about today, beneath the night sky?
A jarring noise in the distance is approaching your street
Turning at that corner, the sound sharpens
Because you smile, I smile too
It's okay, so come now, without crying

Glittering recollections are the most dazzlingly painful things, because
They get washed away; catching that star is all I can do for you
Coming close, being in sight, going far away, I'm not touched by these things
Valuable things always get crumpled up like that

As an excuse for your tiny pride and faded lust
This gloomy feeling was curled up and thrown away to the sea
Changing from red to blue, those moments
Even those emotions, could not become lies

Reaching to where this world leads to, before long our meeting will take place
And, in your appearance a song will be sung, as you confide in a liar
Two silhouettes line up in the swaying moon's light
Understanding everything, with a mere nod, your laugh came to an end

Like that, this is all I can do for you, it seems
Glittering recollections are the most dazzlingly painful things, because
They get washed away; catching that star is all I can do for you
Reaching to where this world leads to, before long our meeting will take place

And, in your appearance a song will be sung, and before your eyes you will believe

Location;;
Company;;
Attire;;

Catching that . s t a r . is all I can do for . y o u

[rajio_obake]

So I'll toast every beat of my heart like a miracle

The Director
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тнє ғσʟʟσωɪɳɢ sтαтємєɳт ɪs αʟʟ ɪ cαɳ σғғєя ɪɳ мy sσυɳם мɪɳם. sσ ρʟєαsє, ɪғ yσυ םσɳ'т мɪɳם ʟɪsтєɳ тσ мy sтσяy. αғтєя αʟʟ, yσυ ӄɳσω ωнαт тнєy αʟωαys sαy? "The prince was enchanted by the beauty of the peacefully sleeping princess. He kissed her gently on the lips... and then... the spell was broken. And they lived happily till death did part them.". ɪ ωαs вσяɳ ɪɳ Auckland, New Zealand. тнαт ωαs Twenty-Nine yєαяs αɢσ. ɪ'м cυяяєɳтʟy ємρʟσyєם вy the agency αs α Director of a Documentary. σɳ α ρєяsσɳαʟ ʟєvєʟ, ɪ αм тєяяɪвʟy αғяαɪם σғ being buried alive, cancer coming out of remission, & childbirth. συт σғ αʟʟ σғ тнσsє, childbirth ωσυʟם вє мy ρнσвɪα. ɪ sωєαя ɪ'м ɳσт cяαzy! ɪ'м נυsт α ʟɪттʟє Ambitious. ғσятυɳαтєʟy ɪ cαɳ нαɳםʟє αɳyтнɪɳɢ αs ʟσɳɢ αs ɪ нαvє The Personal Assistant (on occassion) вy мy sɪםє. נυsт αs ʟσɳɢ αs yσυ םσɳ'т ʟσcӄ мє ɪɳ α яσσм ωɪтн The Personal Assistant (on other occassions). yєs, ɪ ӄɳσω тнє ωєαтнєя мαɳ sαys тнєяє's α 95% cнαɳcє σғ мυяםєя ɪɳ тнɪs тσωɳ, вυт ɪ'м cσɳғɪםєɳт ɪ'ʟʟ вє σӄαy. םσɳ'т тєʟʟ αɳyσɳє, вυт ɪ'vє нαם тнɪs вαם םяєαм тнαт ɪ'ʟʟ єɳם υρ being put naked into a barrel lined with nails, which would be dragged by horses from street to street till I'm dead. ɪ sωєαя ɪ'м ɳσт cяαzy!

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xxO+xxxxxxxxxxxCancer as a child, has been remission
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5'3.5"xxx113lbsxxxBrownxxxxHazelxxxxxxxxxx"Kiwi" : A person from New Zealand
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I suppose one thing I should get out of the way is that I grew up raised in a Wicca environment. My parents had met in college and had similar beliefs in the religion that just kind of rubbed off on me I suppose. When it comes to religious tolerance it’s kind of a big thing for me. I do not judge, if you want to practice your religion so be it. I have my own. I don't have any plans to convert people over to the “dark side” though please don't try to convert me out of my beliefs. I’ll read up on your religion and maybe consider if it’s the path for me. The religion is a very decentralized religion; one is encouraged to develop his/her own beliefs, rituals, and other practices. I was taught about my religion from my parents, they didn’t brainwash me, they said I had a choice. I don’t participate in a cult. This religion is not a joke. It’s not what the television says I should be and I don’t go around throwing out hexes and casting spells from a magic book. But I’m also not as deeply involved in the religion as my parents. They are deep, rooted to the core believers while I am more of a pacifist believer in a sense that I just believe... what I believe... Heh I usually don’t break the ice with my religious thoughts though so sorry about that.

Moving on I was a sickly kid. So I stayed home on bed rest often and my parents ended up buying me a collection of Grimm Brothers tales along with Hans Christian Andersen and Lewis Carroll. Most of my childhood was spent in a bed so instead of going out to play with others outside. I stayed inside and played with my own imagination. I would write my own stories based around the ones I read as a girl. I was unaware of why I was so sick as a child, my parents refusing to tell me what I had until we moved across the pacific to the United States. The doctors overseas had suggested hospitals in the US to my parents saying that I might have a higher success rate. My parents packed up and moved without a second thought. It didn’t affect me too much I was too young to really care and I didn’t have any friends to say goodbye to. I suppose that is one thing I wish I could relive about my childhood. Maybe it would make me feel more at ease when I’m around them. I don’t really fancy children and I know we all start out as kids but... I don’t think I inherited the motherly gene that was supposed to be passed on. Even the thought of birthing something between my legs... Uehhh... sends shivers down my spine.

In the States my parents finally told me why I was so sick. I had Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma. It was a bit shocking to hear such a prognoses, I was still just a kid hoping for an optimistic outlook on life. I was put through so many tests and chemotherapy... I think when my hair started to fall out in clomps on my pillow I lost it. Bawling into my mother’s arms. It was scary to think I might leave the world early and the only people would notice would be my parents and the nurses who would clean up the sheets once I had passed on. Though by some sheer... Stroke of luck after about a year of going through everything including the therapy treatments. The cancer went into remission and I had a chance to start anew. I could actually go to school for the first time... And to be honest it wasn’t all that it’s cracked up to be. Yet with the new sense of life worth living I nosedived into the various clubs of the school and I think my favourite club would have to be the drama club. No, no I wasn’t the one on stage but I was cast as a backstage hand helping the teacher who directed the play and it kind of hit me as I was her apprentice that was what I wanted to do I wanted to direct a film, play, whatever, something of my own that I could take pride in... I wanted to leave my mark before it was too late.

After college I was able to talk to an agency and I made my mark as a casting director. I could just look at someone and tell what role they’d be good for. Have you heard of the syfy horror show Of Masques and Martyrs? Yep I cast the roles for that show. Found the perfect roles for Dolores and Havarthr. I even got the O’Connor twins cast in the show. But despite casting the roles I couldn’t take credit for the show... I found that to be the case for many a movie or show I worked for. Even if I found the talent the show was still not my own. I couldn’t claim it as such. I knew the ins and outs of the business and I feared I had permacast myself into the role of the “casting” director. Though after a late night browsing the web with SyFy on I was watching one of their ghost tales, and I had always found myself fascinated in such things through some browsing I came across the fine of the Foster Children Massacre. It sounded like the perfect makings if any, I even went to the agency and promoted the idea myself. Proud of what I had found. Though they had pretty much told me if this movie is a flop I may loose my place in the Hollywood standing ground so I’m trying to go out of my way to make sure this search turns out favorably for my crew and I.. I really want to comeback with something, some good bit of footage in hand so I can get my chance to break out and make a name for myself.

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Currents Convulsive

[rajio_obake]

I've looked right past

The simple things

What have my eyes missed?

Stuck in a space

Where nothing seems to fit!

You live a myth,

Obsessed with it.

Quiet as the sound...

I'm always asking,

What it means.

And now I can't stop!

Twisting round and round...

I've grown into this~

I've looked right past the simple things
What have my eyes missed?
Stuck in a space where nothing seems to fit
You live a myth, obsessed with it
Quiet as the sound
I'm always asking what it means
And now I can't stop twisting round and round

I've grown into this
This myth with you

I can't stop twisting around this storyline
Distorting my insides
I won't forget I'm drenched in it
'Cause I can't stop twisting around this storyline
Tangled words were never mine
I won't forget I'm lost in it

Slowly bending backwards
Til my days become misshaped
You deftly sway my thoughts with your fictitious ways
Nothing in me works the same
You've got a lot to explain
Still I'm asking
And still I can't stop twisting

I've grown into this myth with you

I can't stop twisting around this storyline
Distorting my insides
I won't forget I'm drenched in it
'Cause I can't stop twisting around this storyline
Tangled words were never mine
I won't forget I'm lost in it

Knots and crosses
Skews
I fold in two
With this road we take
I've lost all control of everything, especially me
You've lost everything especially me
You bite my tongue
Now I believe

I can't stop twisting around this storyline
Distorting my insides
I won't forget I'm drenched in it
'Cause I can't stop twisting around this storyline
Tangled words were never mine
I won't forget I'm lost in it

Uhm.. Gidday sir. I'm sorry if I'm bothering your meal. I just need some directions, do you know where the town morgue is? I'm sorry if the question may've caused you to lose your appetite I'm not from around here is all.

Her pride didn't want to outrightly say she was lost so she would rather allude to it the best she could at the moment.




Location;; Diner ... semi-lost... semi
Company;; Medical Examiner..?
Attire;; I've lost all control of everything, especially me

Distorting my insides
I won't forget I'm drenched in it
'Cause I can't stop twisting around this storyline

[rajio_obake]

Thє wholє dɑmn wσrld ɪs jυst ɑs σbsєssєd

W ɪ t h x w h σ ' s x t h є x b є s t x d r є s s є dx

xxxAnd xx whσ's xx hɑvɪng xx sєx,xxx

W h σ ' s x g σ t x t h є x m σ n є y,x

xxxxxxWhσ xx gєts xx thє xx hσnєys,xxxxxx

W h σ ' s x k ɪ n d ɑ x c υ t єx

xxxAnd xx whσ's xx just xx ɑ xx mєss,xxx

W h σ ' s x ɪ n x t h є x c l υ b sx

xxxAnd xx whσ's xx on xx thє xx drugs,xxx

And yσu stɪll dσn't hɑvє the rɪght lσσkx

And yσu dσn't hɑvє thє rɪght frɪєndsxx

And yσu're prєtty much thє sɑmєxxx

As yσu wєrє bɑck thєnxxxxxxxx

God of trickery and guile.
Master at cunning deception, craftiness, and treachery.

Four years you think for sure
That’s all you’ve got to endure
All the total dicks
All the stuck up chicks
So superficial, so immature
Then when you graduate
You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT
This is the same as where I just came from
I thought it was over
Aw that’s just great

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex,
Who‘s got the money, who gets the honeys,
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends
High school never ends

Check out the popular kids
You’ll never guess what Jessica did
How did Mary Kate lose all that weight
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom’s straight
And the only thing that matters
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn’t matter if you’re sixteen or thirty-five

Reese Witherspoon,
She’s the prom queen
Bill Gates,
Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback
I’ve seen it all before
I want my money back

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who’s the best dressed and who’s having sex,
Who’s in the clubs and who’s on the drugs,
Who’s throwing up before they digest
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
And you’re still listen to the same s**t you did back then
High school never ends

High school never ends

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex,
Who‘s got the money, who gets the honeys,
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And I still don’t have the right look
And I still have the same three friends
And I’m pretty much the same as I was back then
High school never ends

High school never ends

High school never ends

Here we go again

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Company;;
Attire;; This is the same as where I just came from

Nσthɪng chɑngєs but thє fɑcєs, the nɑmes, ɑnd thє trєnds

[rajio_obake]

• Brent..Elliot..Giacomazzi
• n/a
• twenty-five
• Bio/personality – at least four paragraphs.
•Apparently I have survivor's guilt an I've acquired acute anger issues or some BS like that.. it doesn't matter I think the doc's and quaks are just making it up just so they can diagnose me with some crap I don't have. Make it easier for the government to hide all their dirty issues.
•rajio_obake

[rajio_obake]

I watched the sun again, ϊҭ'ȿ ʟεαѵϊɴɢ ɴɵwo..o
Ϊ'ѵε ȿҏεɴҭ αʟʟ ɴϊɢӊҭ ʟɵɴɢ, trying to figure outoo
What I've lost && what I've ғɵυɴȡoo.o.oo
When my ғεεҭ won't hit the groundooooo
Ҭɾүϊɴɢ to make it, ȿҭαrҭϊɴɢ ɵѵεɾoooooo
ooooooooAnd will we ever love again?oooooooo
oooooӉεү бαбү, αɾε үɵυ αʟɵɴε ҭɵɴϊɢӊҭ?ooooo

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[rajio_obake]

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[rajio_obake]

Hunted

Mexellion Glenn Locklear
Mex/Mexi/Mell/Lion
I think I forgot...
Dark Gray
The Thespian Inamorato
rajio_obake

Conrad Paisley Milke
nope
Twenty
Dark Sea Green
The Sketch-Artist Friend
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Hunters

Ren Woodrow
n/a
Older than you.
Fire Brick
The Vindictive Murderer
Npc

Trevin Macintire
Trev
I stopped counting long ago.
Forest Green
The Levelheaded Killer
Npc

Matthew DeBuhr
Matt
I 'died' in the civil war
Dark Khaki
The Corrupt Cavalryman
Npc

Jakobi Mercer
Jak
Probably a-hundred
Dark Goldenrod
The Addicted Lunatic
Npc

Hannes Hudec
...
I should be about 50
Coral
The Trapped Entrapper
Npc

Aiden Green
Aiden
Twenty-One
Steel Blue
The Negletful Newbie
Npc

[rajio_obake]

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Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

[rajio_obake]

xxxxxxx❝ Night falls and I'm running in circles,
xxxxxxxxxI'm being chased by my imagination ❞


"Mex"
did i make a clean escape? or will i feel you pull me back again? the choices made have left a bitter taste but i never told you should have told you got this city on it's knees and i think i like it can't you see that this is killing me? cause every line in every song reminds me of where i belong can't pretend that what you said back then was nothing more than desperate lies so i turn my back and say goodbye (alright!) you'll never bring me down so will i make it through the night? the things i used to hold on to they're all gone the choices made have left a bitter taste but i never told you should have told you walk away turn and watch as it falls to the ground the sky opens up to swallow you whole (this city never forgets a face and i've spent too long in this awkward place all i want is to be free cause you're all ******** dead to me) baby, tell me can't you see that this is killing me? cause every line in every song reminds me of where i belong can't pretend that what you said back then was nothing more than desperate lies so i turn my back and say goodbye




"Conrad"
did i make a clean escape? or will i feel you pull me back again? the choices made have left a bitter taste but i never told you should have told you got this city on it's knees and i think i like it can't you see that this is killing me? cause every line in every song reminds me of where i belong can't pretend that what you said back then was nothing more than desperate lies so i turn my back and say goodbye (alright!) you'll never bring me down so will i make it through the night? the things i used to hold on to they're all gone the choices made have left a bitter taste but i never told you should have told you walk away turn and watch as it falls to the ground the sky opens up to swallow you whole (this city never forgets a face and i've spent too long in this awkward place all i want is to be free cause you're all ******** dead to me) baby, tell me can't you see that this is killing me? cause every line in every song reminds me of where i belong can't pretend that what you said back then was nothing more than desperate lies so i turn my back and say goodbye




"Npc"
did i make a clean escape? or will i feel you pull me back again? the choices made have left a bitter taste but i never told you should have told you got this city on it's knees and i think i like it can't you see that this is killing me? cause every line in every song reminds me of where i belong can't pretend that what you said back then was nothing more than desperate lies so i turn my back and say goodbye (alright!) you'll never bring me down so will i make it through the night? the things i used to hold on to they're all gone the choices made have left a bitter taste but i never told you should have told you walk away turn and watch as it falls to the ground the sky opens up to swallow you whole (this city never forgets a face and i've spent too long in this awkward place all i want is to be free cause you're all ******** dead to me) baby, tell me can't you see that this is killing me? cause every line in every song reminds me of where i belong can't pretend that what you said back then was nothing more than desperate lies so i turn my back and say goodbye




xxxxxxx❝ How can I convince myself that I,
xxxxxxxxxI haven't been myself in a long time ❞

[rajio_obake]

H i n d s i g h t x i s x m y x o n l y x f l a w
Right after we fail it's easy to realize the things we've lost
Push comes to shove, their only excuse is we do it out of love.

The sound of music filled Brent’s ears as an unfamiliar tune mixed in with the air. It was aggravating, he tried to swat the nightstand to his left where the sound was being emitted. He didn’t turn off the sound but he grabbed the alarm clock that was making it. Something he jerked out of the socket. He didn’t even waste any time he threw the object at the wall hearing a smash and then a clatter as it fell to the floor. All he wanted to do was sleep and forget; forget everything that happened previously. He felt like he lost his family. Sure there was one aspect of his life he hadn’t lost since arriving but he wasn’t in much of a hurry to try to patch the damage that was done or that he would inflict. To him, this new life was just another form of hell. A sweeter hell that he detested and enjoyed. There was a soft sound of whimpering and he rolled over to see the mutt was in the bed with him. “What are you lookin at?” He questioned the dog. He didn’t really expect an answer though he did get a bark response. The male just rolled his eyes. Wondering where the female was who typically slept on that side of the bed. He wasn’t sure where she was or if he wanted to know.

Some would be afraid of their inner demons or the idea and sight of demons in general. Yet it was becoming an accustom sight to Brent. Though it was an adaption needed to survive. It was pathetic how some people were. Completely and utterly, pathetic how they were unable to adapt. Brent could complain and he would, and he felt it was his God given right to complain. After all he did. Brent was not a happy camper, or an amused one, to be in the position he was he would rather not state how he felt. Being he was stuck in the position he was, or at least it felt that way. But life is not a fairytale and he would know. If anyone told him faeries, wood nymphs, and dragons existed it was in his nature to laugh in their face. He thought people with such beliefs were idiots. Fools at that. Just as those who believed that serving in the war was for the betterment for the nation that was a lie. He was no longer one who could gather around with friends and joke about life. That may have been him once upon a time but now he was a bit more cold hearted on the topic.

The things he had witnessed had hardened him and it was hard to get past his hard-shelled exterior. However he would wonder who in there right mind would actually want to get to know him. The male figured in high school he may have been viewed as “cool” if that was the term but now he could careless about those kinds of politics... Just as he could careless about actual politics. Old geezers and money bags making the decisions for everyone else who had to suffer in their place. It may have been all in his head and he wouldn’t deny that, though he didn’t think his ‘talents’ were as appreciated as they should have been at the time he was on duty. Though he didn’t argue or fight back at the time. Not that he was home and discharged. He could complain all he wanted. He would argue about other topics in the presence of those still active duty. He had done his tour, served his time. He was done with it... Done. Sometimes going unnoticed was for the best. After all it gave him his space. Something he appreciated.

Patting the dog on his head Brent went about fixing himself up after all he was still wearing his outfit from yesterday... He didn’t care.. There was a scent of booze in the air but that seemed to be his aroma as of late. Scratching the back of his head the male shoved the blankets off of him and went about making use of the bathroom. Stripping from yesterday’s attire he took a five minute shower only putting shampoo in his hair and rinsing it out. He missed when his hair came to his shoulder’s he had to cut it off when he enlisted though now that he was out he’d been playing around with the idea of growing it out. Letting out a sigh he put a towel over his waist and grabbed his tooth brush. Sure he was removing the plague as well as the scent of booze, but he was half tempted to take some half-drunk blonde bimbos advice and brush his teeth with a bottle of Jack Daniels. Though instead he didn’t use the mouthwash like he planned. Instead average min mouth wash, he gurgled the mouthwash before spitting it into the sink. Satisfied with the fresh feeling of his mouth, though not for long, he headed back into the room and picked up his phone, checking to see if he had any new messages none that he cared to reply to at the time. A few chain mail texts but nothing super important.

Heading out into the room he played tug of war with the puppy with his towel. It did bring a rare smile on his face though the smile quickly disappeared when he caught sight of his brothers urn. It just... Didn’t sit right with him. Letting the puppy win the towel battle Brent went about getting dressed hurrying up so he could distract himself. He was getting himself down but doing so in almost a willing defeat. It was frustrating and annoying him beyond belief... Though he wanted to take his anger out by the bottle. He couldn’t harm the mutt... Even if he wouldn’t admit it to Missy he did like the dog. Yet he convinced himself he needed the alcohol to dull himself. Even if it sometimes didn’t dull him at all but made him more aware of the suffering and the s**t he went through! Just so hypocritical, political, bitches could spit on him! It was pointless why save those who don’t want to be saved? He sure as hell didn’t see the point in it. And it may have been a pot calling the kettle black but he didn’t want to be saved he wanted to go to the bar and maybe drown in his sorrows. He hasn’t drank to the point of alcohol poison but he’s gotten pretty damn close in the past to the point the bartender threatened to call someone to pump his stomach. Brent had only had his stomach pumped once before and that was after a high school party he drank one too many that night. But not recently. Though he was willing to tempt fate.

Sure it wasn’t the night but he was going to take his leave. He didn’t need breakfast there were bar side pretzels waiting him so he could cause his memories to blur together. Rubbing Fivel’s stomach he lead the dog into his crate. Still puppy training Brent didn’t fully trust the little dog yet. There were some doubts he had. Leaving the house with still no sign of Missy he was aware of her reputation from high school, she was the one who messed around and when they were kids that was fine and dandy he didn’t think much off it. She may have her guys on the side but he was her boyfriend and the priorty. Now though he wasn’t sure. After what he’d been through what was he thinking wanting to marry the redhead? The thought might still be there but he couldn’t think of marriage... He might just ******** it up like he’s ******** up everything else in his life. It wasn’t a positive thought and he was hesitant towards the whole idea of marriage now... When he was just a teen though it seemed like the next step in the relationship now... He wasn’t sure. And he was willing to let their love slip away for fear of letting anyone get close to him again. He knew she’s been around, she was far from innocent. (Same with him) Though now he wasn’t sure if he was tired of letting her in.. or now vice versa, it felt like the two were using each other and whatever was left of their “love” in his opinion.

After locking up he headed towards his car an aggravated sigh leaving his lips. Unlocking his truck, Brent was just done with it. He was ready to head towards a bar he knew would be open at this time he was ready... He was ready to forget. Sure the world could be so cruel, but so could he. As a teen he was such a fool willing to forgive those who bent the rules. Now, it didn’t matter ... He tended to blame the problems of the world on whoever. He blamed, the president, the social media, the queen of england, himself. He should have just said farewell. Given up the grudge... But no he let it fester and fester.... And it grew into something more. He received a text as he entered the bar and saw it was from Missy. He didn’t reply though. He started a reply but there was a sort of guilt entering the bar as she got home... Yet then the guilt was replaced with anger and he found himself bar-side requesting a brewski. One turned into two and he lost track. His thoughts jumped around yet it seemed to always come back to Ralph and Missy and he just needed one more bottle to try and forget... All he wanted to do was forget the past.

He wasn’t sure how much time had passed he had gotten into an argument and threw a bottle at the television screen behind the bartender it was on the news and they were talking about this great victory and it was a freakin lie! They were lying to the nation and it was pissing him off. Mitch had threatened to cut him off but it didn’t go over so well with the not-so-sober Brent. And then he went back to sulking one someone crept up from behind him and he looked over, “Speak of the devil...” He mumbled aloud. He turned his glance away from her as she continued to speak, “I’ve been her longer than you.” The answer was in a very flat sarcastic tone, but he could careless he took another sip from his drink before placing it down on the counter, this time he actually made eye contact with Missy. “I could think that but I rather not think that I’m pretty sure I can drive it’s really not that far away. And I’m really not that out of..” It was obvious the annoyance in his tone and it was had to tell if it was Brent talking or the booze, “Why don’t! We just hire a ******** tow truck driver and he can take my car how for me. Huh, how about that?” It was an idea that was costly and he was only suggesting it because he had no plans to do it. “You think I’ll ride my car of the bridge and die in a car underwater? Or that I’ll be too inebriated to see the stop sign and hit little Timmy?” Scenario’s he could careless about, “If you wanna take me home your going to have to be more damn convincing than that...” Brent felt that he either needed better persuasion or he needed to be forced or else he wasn’t going to leave his seat... And he wasn’t going to stop at just this drink.




I hold the key to your teeth that preach those crooked words
So hold your tongue before I, xx r i p x i t x o u t.

[rajio_obake]

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Morpheus Splatter ◆ The Card Guard ◆ 27
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Traitorous ❖ Secretive ❖ Callous
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■Followed the white rabbit to Underland long ago and has long forgot his past elsewhere.
■When he first arrived in Underland he enlisted in the White Queen's forces.
■After going ignored, he switched sides and now serves under the Red Queen.

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Ralphaello Lazzara ◆ The Mad Hatter ◆ 26
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Insightful ❖ 'Mad as a Hatter' ❖ Witty
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■The Hatter can tend to be found holding a tea party with his Undland companions.
■Insanity is no excuse for forgetting, he has tried to forget some events though couldn't.
■Isn't aware of how far his insanity runs and tends to believe himself to be sane.

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Finnian Woodwright ◆ The Carpenter ◆ 24
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Greedy ❖ Serious ❖ Hard-Working
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■The Carpenter lives near the beach where he tends to harvest oysters.
■A speedy builder, he is able to construct whatever he puts his mind to at times.
■He has a tendency to be greedy, believing that he deserves more than he has earned.

[rajio_obake]

██████████ Precision ◦ with ★ incision » is a tedious remark!
〈 ♞ With all the visions ×of submission !
〈 ♞ of the fibers in your ♥heart !xxxx
▌▌ ♞* xxxxx penetration validation .↑ for as sick »as it may seem! ★
███ : »★ Is all a morbid demonstration cc »★. of what helps me to sleep

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

[rajio_obake]

I don't know why, but I wish that maybe I could lose myselfxxxxxxx
I don't know why, I lost the drive ↺ I let it drift apartxxxxxxx
Gotta get back to the place ↻ not thinking what I'd say from the start ↻xxxxxxx

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

Sunlight warms my face only in dreams of you I know you'll wait for me...it's been too long Beautiful eyes. beautiful lies to dull the pain Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies...you're killing me I would wait for years just to feel you again I will die without you...would you my love? Beautiful eyes, beautiful lies pour from your mouth as You scream his name...you're killing me Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize your mistake Ice runs through my veins as I stand face to face with The one who stole it all Compassion is not an option Cries escape your sweet voice as I kiss you one last time ...One last time... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up Realize your mistake! In love we're one, inseparable, pathetic lust, thus we crumble I saw your eyes, I wiped your tears, I waited for you... Who do you see with eyes shut tight? Regret will be your bride Goodbye... Do you remember me and our beautiful affair? Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone! Why have you turned your back on me? One day you'll wake up and realize... Cries escape your sweet voice as I paint my own goodbye

[rajio_obake]

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