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                            ██ FIRST ＆. LAST NAME 》Lillian Kiddo
                            ██ PRONUNCIATION 》
                            ██ NICKNAMES 》Lilly, Lil
                            ██ GENDER 》Female
                            ██ AGE 》Twenty One
                            ██ D.O.B 》03/21/1994
                            ██ SEXUALITY 》Heterosexual
                            ██ NATIONALITY 》German/American
                            ██ CLASSIFICATION 》Nameless

                                ▬▬ ＆. SPECIAL EXTRAS
                                ██ LOYALTIES 》Aiden, he's all she needs
                                ██ ALIGNMENT 》Neutral
                                ██ MODEL 》 Sonico
                                ██ SPEECH COLOR 》 #26B7FF
                                ██ VOICE 》write here
                                ██ THEMES 》write here

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                            ██ HEIGHT ＆. WEIGHT 》 5'1" & 113lbs
                            ██ HAIR 》 Pink
                            ██ EYES 》 Pinkish
                            ██ BODY TYPE 》Small
                            ██ BODY TYPE 》Busty
                            ██ MISCELLANEOUS 》
                                ▬▬ ∷ PIERCINGS//TATTOOS ◢ N/A
                                ▬▬ ∷ PIERCINGS//TATTOOS ◢ N/A

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                                                            ▬▬ ＆. PERSONALITY
                                                                ██ POSITIVE TRAITS 》 Sweet | Giving | Loving | Intelligent
                                                                ██ NEGATIVE TRAITS 》 Distrustful | Naive | Jealous | Possessive


                                                                ▬▬ ＆. THEIR HABITS
                                                                ◤ MANNERISM ▬▬▬ ＆. Hair Pulling
                                                                    She starts to pull her hair when she's getting flustered or frustrated and is trying to avoid panicking. She also pulls her hair when her head starts to hurt, when her mind is foggy from her medications, or when she's trying her hardest to get the voices to just go away.

                                                                ◤ MANNERISM ▬▬▬ ＆. Hiding
                                                                    When she's upset she hides herself by trying to make herself as small as possible.

                                                                ◤ MANNERISM ▬▬▬ ＆. playing with her shirt
                                                                    She tugs at the bottom hem of her shirt and of other peoples shirts when she gets nervous or she wants something.

                                                                ◤ MANNERISM ▬▬▬ ＆. staring
                                                                    When she gets lost in her own head or just lost in general, she has a tendency to stare off into space.

                                                                ◤ MANNERISM ▬▬▬ ＆. touching
                                                                    It's a constant thing. She has to constantly be touching something to keep her calm. Whether it's the wall, her shirt, her arm, her head, her boyfriend, it's a necessity. She always has to have something in her hand so that she knows something is real.


                                                                ▬▬ ＆. THEIR INTERESTS
                                                                    ◤ LIKE ▬▬ ＆. Aiden
                                                                    Aiden has been her favorite person since he popped into her life. He has been there to help keep the voice and her episodes at bay, but she also feels like he is the only person who ever really loved her.

                                                                    ◤ LIKE ▬▬ ＆. Sweets
                                                                    She really enjoys the sweeter things, not just foods. Whenever she's upset, Aiden brings her something sweet to try and cheer her up and make her feel better.

                                                                    ◤ LIKE ▬▬ ＆. Cuddling
                                                                    Cuddling for her is a good way to affirm that Aiden is, in fact, real. She doesn't like thinking that he's fake, but there are days where her mind gets messed up and it goes there and she gets scared. Being wrapped in his arms helps to reaffirm that he isn't just something she made up to get through the day.

                                                                    ◤ LIKE ▬▬ ＆. Baby Animals
                                                                    Lillian likes cute things. Cute things include baby animals. Enough said. She also likes adult animals, but she likes the baby ones just a little bit more.

                                                                    ◤ LIKE ▬▬ ＆. Cooking For Aiden
                                                                    She likes being able to give him more than just her love and she likes showing it to him in the more conventional ways when she's feeling up to it, but some days she just wants to prove that she loves him by being able to cook for him, and have him tell her he likes it.


                                                                ▬▬ ＆. THEIR TABOOS
                                                                    ◤ DISLIKE ▬▬ ＆. Medications
                                                                    She does not like taking her medications. They make her feel like an idiot.

                                                                    ◤ DISLIKE ▬▬ ＆. The Fog
                                                                    While on her medications, her head feels like it's in a fog, like there is constantly something missing. She feels like she can't think properly and she finds it hard to come up with the right words or to think through certain topics. Lillian doesn't like feeling like an idiot.

                                                                    ◤ DISLIKE ▬▬ ＆. Episodes
                                                                    The reason she is still a nameless is because she still has schizophrenic episodes that involve her sending creepers flying across rooms when the voices become too much. Because she hasn't gotten over her fear of the voices and of her own mind, she can't graduate the program. The episodes scare her so much because they seem to overpower all the good that she's accomplished through the years.

                                                                    ◤ DISLIKE ▬▬ ＆. Loneliness
                                                                    Lillian doesn't like loneliness. She doesn't like the silence of being by herself. She's always scared it will insight something to spark in her head and for civil war to start up there.

                                                                    ◤ DISLIKE ▬▬ ＆. Jealousy
                                                                    She gets jealous very easily because Aiden is such a flirt and pretty much makes a move on anything that has a chest. It's not that she's insecure. She just doesn't like to share. She doesn't like feeling jealous, but if she didn't, she would worry that he would think she didn't care and he would move on.


                                                                ▬▬ ＆. THEIR SKILLS
                                                                    ◤ SKILL ▬▬ ＆. Cooking
                                                                    ◤ SKILL ▬▬ ＆. Baking
                                                                    ◤ SKILL ▬▬ ＆. Singing
                                                                    ◤ SKILL ▬▬ ＆. Balancing things
                                                                    ◤ SKILL ▬▬ ＆. Making Beds
                                                                    ◤ SKILL ▬▬ ＆. Braiding Hair


                                                                ▬▬ ＆. THEIR GOALS
                                                                    ◤ GOAL ▬▬ ＆. Getting Aiden to be willing to be open about their relationship
                                                                    ◤ GOAL ▬▬ ＆. Graduating the Fearless program
                                                                    ◤ GOAL ▬▬ ＆. Getting her voices to finally go away

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                                                                ▬▬ ＆. THEIR PHOBIAS
                                                                    ◤ FEAR ▬▬ ＆. PSYCHOPHOBIA
                                                                    Fear of the Mind


                                                                ▬▬ ＆. MEDICAL INFORMATION
                                                                    ██ BLOOD TYPE 》AB-
                                                                    ██ ALLERGIES 》                                                                     None to our knowledge
                                                                        ▬▬ ∷ ALLERGY ◢ Latex (Discovered in the roleplay)
                                                                        ▬▬ ∷ ALLERGY ◢ shellfish (discovered in the roleplay)

                                                                    ██ GENTIC CONDITION 》Schizophrenia
                                                                        Schizophrenia is a serious disorder which affects how a person thinks, feels and acts. Someone with schizophrenia may have difficulty distinguishing between what is real and what is imaginary; may be unresponsive or withdrawn; and may have difficulty expressing normal emotions in social situations.
                                                                        Contrary to public perception, schizophrenia is not split personality or multiple personality. The vast majority of people with schizophrenia are not violent and do not pose a danger to others. Schizophrenia is not caused by childhood experiences, poor parenting or lack of willpower, nor are the symptoms identical for each person

                                                                    ██ MEDICAL CONDITION 》Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
                                                                        A diagnosis of polycystic ovarian syndrome means that the patient's ovaries are covered with multiple cysts (small, non-cancerous, fluid-filled sacs). These cyst-covered ovaries do not produce enough of the hormones necessary for the maturation of ova, and the result is absent or irregular ovulation.

                                                                    ██ EMERGENCY TREATMENTS 》 Anitpsychotics
                                                                        The only proven ways to treat Schizophrenia are through antipsychotics and therapy. As Lillian is known to be non compliant as the medications she is on bother her more than the voices more than half the time. The creepers have her medications on hand if they need them.

                                                                        Aiden is the best option when dealing with a psychotic episode from Lillian.

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                                                            ▬▬ ＆. SPECIAL ABILITIES
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                                                              ▬▬ ∷ TELEMPATHY ◢
                                                                User can read minds and communicate with others with emotions, receiving them from others, perceiving what others think while they feel, etc.

                                                              ▬▬ ∷ TELEPATHIC SPEAKING ◢
                                                                The user can contact target and cause them to hear the mental communication as speech.

                                                              ▬▬ ∷ MIND LINK ◢
                                                                The power to link minds with other living being, sharing thoughts, memories, emotions or feelings.

                                                              ▬▬ ∷ MIND IMAGE ◢
                                                                User can project their image to the mind of another, allowing them to communicate with others by letting them to see a form instead of hearing a disembodied voice.


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                                                              ▬▬ ∷ PSYCHIC SHIELD ◢
                                                                The power to be immune against psychic attacks. A psychic equivalent to Invulnerability.

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                                                            ❶ ━━ MIND READING | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              The user can sense the thoughts of other people, usually hearing them like ordinary speech, but possibly by other senses such as sight. Usually they sense the surface thoughts (including other mental communications), but they can also learn to push farther into subconscious and memories.


                                                            ❷ ━━ PSYCHIC COMMUNICATION | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              The user is able to form a psionic communication line with another being, essentially rendering them capable of having comprehensible conversations with others using their minds. The user is able to open up channels of communications with others who may be incapable of physical speech or communicate if unable to physically speak.


                                                            ❸ ━━ MENTAL INDUCEMENT | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              User is able cause the target's mind/brain go into wanted state, causing short-term change in emotions, sensations, memories, etc., exact length of the effect depends on both the users skill and power and the targets mental state.


                                                            ❹ ━━ MIND MELD | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              The user can temporarily fuse their consciousness with that of another, resulting in a sharing and transference of knowledge, emotions, and memories. Especially skilled users may use this connection to heal mental damage/illness, or even implant new mental factors in the other's mind.


                                                            ❺ ━━ BRAINWAVE MANIPULATION | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              User can affect the brainwaves of living beings, which can be used to affect how active or aware the other person may be. They can affect targets ability to concentrate, the thinking speed, cause them go asleep or awake, etc.


                                                            ❻ ━━ PSIONIC INUNDATION | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              The user can project harmful psionic volleys, which may result in brain damage, memory loss, unconsciousness, vegetative state and/or death. The victim is not physically harmed, but damages the internal mentality of a target.


                                                            ❼ ━━ MIND WALKING | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              The user can enter the minds of others, where they can see all the thoughts, memories and subconscious thoughts of that person.


                                                            ❽ ━━ PSYCHIC SHADOW | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              User is able to mask psychic presence and obscure the perceptions of psychic trackers, making any subject within their target radius appear "dark". Experience will enhance the size of the area they can shadow and the intensity of their shielding effect.


                                                            ❾ ━━ PSYCHIC TORTURE | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              The user can torture target mentally/spiritually.


                                                            ❿ ━━ PSYCHIC ENERGY MANIPULATION | type:: aggressive / passive
                                                              User can create, shape and manipulate psychic energy in various ways, including manifesting in material form.

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                                                        Born (What a wonderful day xD)
                                                        Younger sister with an older brother
                                                        Diagnosed Schizophrenic at the age of 8
                                                        Dad was abusive
                                                        9 started hitting her and her mother
                                                        10 powers started to develop as she started to fear the voices in her head.
                                                        10 started having more episodes because she couldn't filter out other peoples emotions and thoughts
                                                        11 dad started abusing her mom more when she couldn't be controlled
                                                        11 Lily lashes out at her dad with her powers being unable to stand it any longer
                                                        12 Mom takes Lily to try and get her help
                                                        12 they hear about Timore, don't know how to get there
                                                        13 Lillian causes a scene while they are trying to get there
                                                        13 get taken into custody because of it
                                                        13 conductors come to take her to timore
                                                        16 Met Aiden after being on the island a few years, the clicked immediately. Feels a little more complete with him around.
                                                        16 They sleep together.
                                                        They have a mostly secret relationship
                                                        17 has her first episode in the manor. Aiden comes to her rescue
                                                        21 has had a few episodes over the next few years, hasn't graduated. Has a nasty one while Aiden isn't around to calm her down. He gets back after a few days, but the damage has been done. Refuses to leave her room for 3 weeks.

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                                                        ▬▬ ＆. PLOT DEVICES
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                                                        ▬▬ ＆. PATIENT'S INNER CIRCLE

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                                                        ▬▬ ＆. THEIR PLOTS
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                                  "He hates you, you know?"

                                  The twenty one year old fell out of bed with a satisfying crash. She groaned loudly as she picked herself up off the floor, moderately annoyed that it was happening again. The woman was used to falling, she wasn't the most graceful of creatures, but falling out of bed wasn't a common occurrence for her. She stared at the other mass in her bed and couldn't help but smile. Her love was fast asleep, clearly unfazed by the noise she was making, what with the flailing and all. She pulled herself up off the floor, watching him sleep. It was hardly ever her turn to watch him sleep. Usually, he lulled her to sleep before he went off to roam the halls. He got back at some stupid hour in the morning and curled up around her before nodding off to sleep, but he was almost always awake before she was. Lillian couldn't help but keep watching him. He was cute while he slept. She leaned across the bed and flipped his bangs out of his face. He never looked like this while he was awake. Lillian kissed his forehead before heading off to the bathroom. She never got to see the cute side of him. She loved the man, he was all she felt she had, but he never showed his innocent side. When they were awake, it was almost always lust that filled his gaze. Lust or concern. When he was asleep though, he didn’t have any control over his facial expressions. His sleeping face was cute. So innocent. He looked like a little kid instead of the adult he'd been forced to grow into. If he could control his expression, then he made that face for her, and she was still pretty happy about it.

                                  Lillian took a couple deep breaths as she wandered into her bathroom, careful not to make too much noise. He got so little sleep every night, she didn't want to wake him up.

                                  "He hates you, you know?"

                                  She tugged a little at her hair. Not today. Any day but today. Lillian crouched down, clutching her head in her hands. They weren't real. She had to tell herself that. Aiden loved her. Nothing a stupid voice in her head said would change that. Aiden loved her. She carefully picked herself up off the floor. It was early in the morning, if they had started, then they weren't going to stop. She couldn't let him find her curled up on the floor. He always worried if he saw her doing things like that.

                                  Lillian took a brief shower, hoping out before the running water had a chance to wake him. She could take a better shower before dinner. He wouldn't be asleep in her bed and therefore she wouldn't run the risk of waking him. Besides. They had control groups that afternoon. If she was just gonna get all messed up from that, what was the point of taking a real shower?

                                  When she dressed, she did it quietly, grabbing things out of the closet instead of out of dresser drawers because it made far less noise. She heard Aiden mumble something and roll over in the bed. Lillian smiled and moved a little bit faster.

                                  'He's dreaming of other women'

                                  She tugged her hair, trying to get that annoying a*****e to shut up. If Aiden was dreaming of anyone, it was her. She knew it. The woman took a couple of calming breaths before she grabbed her shoes from the door. She knew her outfit wasn't the most appropriate for control groups, but she also knew that Aiden would appreciate the short skirt. At least she was wearing flats for him, right? To her knowledge, they were watching a simulation today anyway. She wanted to look good for Aiden either way. If she knew anything, it was that Aiden liked to leer. Well… she wanted him to be leering at her, and not someone else. She slipped out the door without putting on her shoes, the clacking on the ground was sure to wake him up, and she closed it quietly behind her.

                                  The laughter started the moment she left the room. It was quiet at first, just a soft chuckle, but the further away she got from the room and from Aiden, the louder and more maniacal the sound got. She tugged harder on her hair. Today was too important for this.

                                  "You're not real… You're not real…" she whispered to herself as she walked down the hall. She had to pull herself together before she got to Doctor Overbeck's office. If he ever suspected that she was hearing voices or that she had stopped her medications again… He wouldn't let her off the hook. The doctor had always been very nice to her, but he didn't understand. Even Aiden didn't understand. He tried to, sure, but… it wasn't the same.

                                  She reached Overbeck's office quickly, not wanting to risk an episode in the hallway. She stared at the overbearing door, not really wanting to go in. She saw him every morning at the same time, so that he could make sure everything was going okay and that her condition hadn't worsened. It was daunting, the idea of standing in front of the gentleman and lying through her teeth while trying to silence something she was trying hard to remind herself wasn't real. She knocked gently on the door. Maybe he wouldn't be there and she could go.

                                  "Come in! Door's unlocked!" Well… there went all of her hopes and dreams. If he hadn't been there she could have gone back upstairs and curled up with Aiden and maybe he could have gotten rid of them for her. She pushed the door open just a little bit, peaking her head around it.

                                  "Good morning, sir…" She almost mumbled it as she slowly stepped inside. Lillian kept her hands firmly glued to the bottom of her shirt in an attempt to avoid tugging on her hair. Tugging on her hair gave her away almost every time when she was having problems. His face seemed to light up a little when he saw her. That smile calmed her down at least a little.

                                  "Oh, Lily! Morning. Was waiting a bit for you," he gestured for her to sit in the chair. She stepped a little further into the room. "sit down if you want. ...Feeling okay today?" Lillian slowly sat in the chair, nodding her head slightly. She hated lying to him, but what other choice did she have. If she didn't, he wouldn't let her leave without taking those gross medications.

                                  "I'm sorry if I kept you waiting…" She didn't look up at him, choosing to stare at her hands in her lap. If she didn't look up at him, he wouldn't be able to tell, right?

                                  "Don't be, it's fine. Just been reading over some results, that's all. Something wrong? Your meds've been working, right?" It was a question she had been dreading. She moved the hem of her shirt around in her hands. She nodded her head again.

                                  "Yes…" She mumbled, still not looking up. It was working so far. As long as she didn't look at him, he couldn't tell how guilty she looked… Thought it probably wasn't true, it made her feel at least a little bit better about it.

                                  "Okay... And you've been taking then regularly, right?" That was actually a worse question. That one was going to be a down right lie. Saying they worked was different then telling him that she was taking them when she wasn't. She looked up at him, finally and her eyes widened at what she saw. His eyes were dripping blood, his mouth hung open, the room was destroyed. Lillian bolted out of her chair, pushing away from the desk. The chair fell backwards to the floor and she looked down at her hands. The laughter started again. She closed her eyes. Mumbling her mantra, before looking back up at him. Everything was back to normal.

                                  "Lily!" He stood slowly, almost cautiously, as if not wanting to terrify her any more than she already was. He walked over to her and grabbed the chair, helping her back into it. Lillian tugged on her hair a little, trying to stop shaking. Delusions and hallucinations were not part of her deal. The voices yes… this was something new. "Are you okay? What's wrong?" She looked up at him, blinking a few times to be safe. Everything was face to normal.

                                  "Your face…" She took a few calming breaths, clutching her head, trying to get the shaking to stop. "It was bleeding…" She felt him ruffle her hair as he reassured her that he was fine and not, in fact, bleeding.

                                  "Are you hearing voices too?" She closed her eyes, tugging on the bottom of her shirt once more. It looked like she wasn't getting out of here as easily as she had hoped. She opened her eyes and looked away from him once more.

                                  "There was laughter…"

                                  "Okay. Sounds like the usual kind of symptoms. You haven't taken your meds today, yes?" She nodded her head. If she told him she had taken them, he would either not believe her, or would think they didn't work and would insist on switching them to something else, which would be just as bad, if not worse.

                                  "I haven't… I don't like them…" She noticed him kneeling down out of the corner of her eye.

                                  "I know you don't like them...but they're there t' help you, yeah? How long have you not taken them? Or is it just today?" She kept her head turned away from him, tugging a little harder on her shirt. Whether on purpose or not, he was good at making her feel guilty for not taking them.

                                  "I stopped taking them when Aiden got back... about four days now... " She agreed to start taking them when he was gone after the last time she didn't. They had just convinced her to start leaving her room again recently.

                                  "Why Aiden?" It was hard to explain.

                                  "He helps…"

                                  "D'you wanna take them now, since you're having some symptoms? It'll take a little, but it'll help." She shook her head. Taking her meds was the least appealing sounding thing in existence. She moved one of her hands away from her shirt and moved it to her head, tugging on her hair harder as the laughter started up once more. Taunting her.

                                  "No… they make me feel stupid…"

                                  "It'll help, Lily. Trust me. It'll be fine." She shook her head a little, biting her lip.

                                  "They don't feel like it…" She looked up at him and frowned, gripping her head a little as the laughter didn't stop. What the ******** did they want? Why today? When she had been doing so well…

                                  "They work better if you take them more often." She felt his hand rest on her shoulder, an attempt to comfort her. "You don't have t' if you think you're okay without them right now. But I really strongly recommend it. It'll make the laughing stop." She knew he was right. She didn't want him to be right. Aiden would be upset with her… She nodded her head.

                                  "Okay…"

                                  "Alright, sit tight and I'll get you them and a glass of water." She sat, by herself… that was not the best choice made by the doctor. Lillian pulled her legs up onto the chair. She pulled on her hair and tried to hide.

                                  'What are you gonna do, cry?'

                                  She hated them. She hated them all. She just wanted them to go away and to leave her alone. She wanted Aiden. She had just closed her eyes when she heard Overbeck open the door and return.

                                  "Here we are. You don't have t' rush, just take your time." She stared at the medications he put in her hand for a few minutes, doubting that throwing them in his face would be a good idea. In the end, she threw them all in her mouth and took a few quick gulps of water to swallow them all at once. She took a few deep breaths once she had. The hard part had just started.

                                  "There we go." He ruffled her hair again, something he did often when he was happy with her or to calm her down. It was soothing. I'm proud of you, Lily. Thank you. Feeling a bit better now?" She shook her head slightly as the fuzziness started and her mind started to fog.

                                  "I guess…" she frowned a little as she stood, attempting not to wobble.

                                  "Ah, careful-" He helped her up out of her chair. "If you feel too woozy, just lie down, okay? ...I'll ask the others, try t' find meds that won't do this t' you. Promise."

                                  "Yeah." She knew that he would try, but she wasn't sure he would succeed. Every medication she had every taken had the same effect on her. She had taken a bunch of different ones when she was a kid to try and find one that really worked for her. None of them had. She ran her hand through her hair and gave him a sad smile. "I'll see you later, Doc…" He helped her all the way to the door and gave her a gentle hug.

                                  "Have a good day, Lily."

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                                  Hours later and she awoke once more to a dark room and a foggy head. The medication had worked, a little too well if you asked her. All she heard in her head was silence… Nothing more. Over the years she had grown accustomed to having the presence of other people being in her head. She used them to block out the malicious voices and laughter. She pulled herself up out of bed, feeling more groggy then she would have liked.

                                  Lillian was concerned. She had left Overbeck's office and had gone straight back to bed in an attempt to avoid Aiden. He didn't like it when she had to take her medications. She didn't like it either, but him doubley so. He cared about her well being, but she wasn't sure he understood what the antipsychotic was actually for. To Aiden, all drugs were bad, prescribed and taken right or no. For her, the fog was more concerning then the lack of voices. She always felt like something was missing when she took her medications, some connection was just gone. She knew that she was missing Aiden. He couldn't find her when her mind was in a fog, but it was something more. She felt a drop in intelligence. An inability to find the correct words to fill gaps in a sentence. Lillian hated to feel stupid.

                                  She crawled cautiously off the bed, careful not to fall. One of the common side effects of her medication was dizziness upon standing. It got worse when you didn't take the drug like you were supposed to. She gripped the bed right as she walked to the end looking for her shoes. She had to face Aiden sometime, it might as well been with lots of people around where he was a little less likely to make a scene. With Aiden she couldn't always tell.

                                  She wouldn't get that chance.

                                  She turned as the door opened and she smiled upon seeing his face. He was so handsome. He crooned her name and told her she was beautiful. She didn't let go of the bed.

                                  "Come we need to greet the others my dear, no hiding." He didn't know yet, but it wouldn't be long. She wrapped her arms tight around him as he kisses her head. Just that one gesture made her feel a little better. She gripped his shirt in her hands and pulled him a little closer, resting her head against his chest.

                                  "We should…" she hesitated, trying to find the words. It hurt trying to talk. Ugh… Why today. "just stay in bed today…" he would never go for it, not when he was going to get a chance to fight. She pulled back slowly, finally looking up at him, giving him a soft smile. "Just kidding." She laughed softly, detaching herself from him before looking for her shoes. She ran her hand through her hair, flipping it over to the other side of her head.

                                  "Have you seen anyone yet today? Know who you get to spar?" she pulled her shoes on, giving him another smile as she slipped a littler, dropping one onto the floor. She had to avoid the subject as long as possible.




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