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I would just like to warn people that this is going to have some bad language in it, but I've reached the end of my rope.


I'm seriously thinking of quitting college. I can't ******** do this anymore. I am stressed out, I've lost weight, I barely get any sleep, college has made me so ******** depressed and so ******** miserable, that I don't think I can do this anymore.

I'm overwhelmed with a ton of work, and not enough time to do it. I am supposed to graduate this May, but I have so much s**t on my plate, that it doesn't even seem possible. I have ton of research papers, exams, lit reviews, a senior project paper that has to be 30 pages long, and a mandatory internship where I have to write journal entries for that as well, as well as a powerpoint project. As a result, so many restrictions have been put on my social life because this work that I have keeps piling up. I'm not behind or anything, which is good, but my teachers keep piling it on, and I get that this is college, and I have to deal with it, but I'm so ******** miserable.

Today in class, I almost walked out crying.

Everyone I know is telling me, "Oh just deal with it," "stop being stressed," "be positive," "it'll all work out," and this pisses me off either because half of these people are not even in school, have never even bothered with a college degree, or they are in college but don't nearly have as much work. And then it makes me think why even bother trying to get some sympathy from people who can't even begin to understand.

Now, I get that some people have it worse off than I do, but I'm not looking to compare. I'm speaking from my own experiences.

And one of my teachers is not clear on her assignment for her paper. She says that it's a research paper, but in the syllabus it says it's an argument. I asked for clarification on this and she still won't give me a straight answer, and not only that, she doesn't even where in the syllabus it is says this, and she ******** wrote it!


I've asked several people what we are supposed to do, and nobody is entirely clear.

Pretty much every second of the day is dedicated to schoolwork. I feel like I get no time for myself, no time to breathe, because even in between classes I'm studying for a test, or I'm working on a paper. And then, when I get home, I have more work to do, plus the internship on top of all of this.

I'm literally crying right now, because I can't ******** do this anymore. I'm so stressed out, and so depressed. I want to quit so badly, but that doesn't even seem like an option because then my parents will have to pay back all that money, which means that my time here would have been a waste if I did drop out.

But I don't know what to ******** do!! There have been so many times where I wished that I had never even gone to college, because this feeling of being trapped, this feeling of being stuck has never gone away. Sometimes I think that if I could turn back time, I never would have gone. I'm getting severely worried that I won't be able to graduate on time.

Sometimes I feel like school has ruined my life. I am so unhappy, that sometimes I can't even ******** function.


I need so much help right now, because I don't know what to do!!!

I do try to take breaks, but even then, I feel like I can't escape from college for even five minutes.

Even after I walk out of my room, having just woken up, I'm being reminded about e-mails, and papers, and exams, and my internship. Haven't even been awake for five minutes, and already I'm hearing, "you have an exam on this day," "you need to e-mail your teacher," "you need to call this person," "you need to work on this paper." The only conversations my parents have with me nowadays is to ask me how school is going, if I'm all caught up, if I've finished an assignment. They barely ask me how I'm feeling, or how I'm doing in general. I keep telling myself that the only reason they are on my a**, is because they want me to do well, and because they are dropping down the thousands to pay for my tuition, then yes, they have every right to be on my a**.

What I am saying, however, is that I haven't been able to have a normal conversation with my parents that had nothing to do with school. I know that sounds like a stupid reason to be upset, but sometimes I just get so mad and think that that's the only thing that matters, even though I know that's not true.


By the way, my parents aren't the problem. The problem is that I feel so stuck. I feel so stuck, and I don't know how to express this to them, because I'm afraid they don't get it, or just tell me to deal with it.