let me just tell you the progression:
since 10 grade: im over this whole school thing & eff ERR'YBODY.
graduation day: YES. GOODBYE EVERYONE. /GIVES THE FINGER GOING OUT
graduation summer: basically a manic cycle of bipolar: very off tthe wall arrogant, did things w/o consequences to extremes a normal person wouldnt. stayed positive.
then i experienced a RANDOM anxiety attack (which i know i dont have but the doctor had no other explanation for my tachycardia episode. not even relating it to my UNTREATED UTI that she did not perform a test on.
she thought i was overdramatic about the pain & crap so she overruled it, saying i just had muscle problems.
now: very shaky. less outgoing. SAD has kicked in, so i'm overboard sad, dont drink ever. experiencig vision problems like longlasting after image & floaters. basically for 2 months, i felt like ive been in a bad trip.
tonight:
eh. im going to eventually go insane anyway.
