I Know That Many Of Us Have These But I Wanna Know That I'm Not The Only Who Has A Crush (More Like An Obsession) With An Anime Character blaugh3nodding3noddingheart
Duvet will always give me the feels and I'll always love the song even if its a constant reminder of my ex and how unhealthy things were when we were together. We pretty much only hooked up together back in high school because of our similar interests in Lain and in Nine Inch Nails. Other than that, we had little else in common. It took eight years for me to realize that I "don't even feel a thing" when it came to me and her. Despite the harsh sentimentality, serial experiments Lain is still one of my favorite series and Lain is still one of my favorite characters.
The message of the whole series is that "everyone is connected" and yet for the longest time, I only grew disconnected from the rest of the world. It took losing her and actually finding someone that I can actually connect with to make me a whole person though the possibility that I am somewhere in the spectrum makes my past disconnections make some sense. I thought that erasing myself like Lain did was the better choice but I soon came to regret it near the end as well, especially after I found .
In essence, the series, the song, and the character can be considered as interchangeable representations of me and my ex. Of course, this probably makes no sense whatsoever but even though this is one of my favorite series, I haven't had the urge to rewatch it in a year which is an oddity for me since I always have a tendency to rewatch my absolute favorites. For example, I have watched Fight Club nearly a thousand times by now, Hot Fuzz about a hundred, and most other things several times again. These numbers aren't at all exaggerated.
TL;DR:
>Lain is my one and only animu waifu
>we have a very complicated history
>mild autism