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And then he leaves
& idunno what comes over me but I can't resist looking at his texts


Usually I am VERY respectful of this. I don't even glance when he's texting or snap chatting or on Facebook or any of that junk

But I did it & I'm very unhappy with what I find

So he returns like 5 minutes later
And pulls on me to cuddle but I just say no & I resist physically
And I tell him not to touch me & he asks what's wrong & stuff

But what do I say ya know. I was snooping I was in the wrong sorta

But he keeps insisting I cuddle him and I keep saying no and I get angrier and angrier . In one of the texts that bothered me he was hitting on this girl and asks her to bang, although I'm pretty sure the second part was joking by emoji , but she says " isn't that what Brooke is for" and he says "..yeah?"
and at first when I read that it didn't hurt but after a few seconds it did. That's not what I'm for. I'm a person.

But anyway he keeps insisting & he ends up pulling me to him finally and I just start crying because it feels so nice to be in his arms but he ******** hurt me so bad

and he noticed after a second and asks why I'm crying & I just say idk, and I don't want to talk about it

and then we went for ice cream and he payed

But on the way back I just kept picturing me grabbing my bag out of his room & running away from there and I felt so sick but I just kept smiling when he looked at me

and now it's basically tomorrow already and he's sleeping & I'm just laying here with this horrible sickness . What's wrong with me


if nobody reads this I guess it's okay maybe
I felt better after typing it out a little

Based on some of the texts he's not

But I still didn't do anything
Just cry & then pretend it was nothing & I'm alright & everything was always fine

What girl

It would end up being an orgy

Thanks I really could use one to be honest