Fullmetal Joestar
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- Posted: Thu, 17 Jul 2014 07:05:23 +0000
Since preschool, I attended an after-school Christian program. I was confirmed and out of there by 8th grade, when I was 14. My whole life, I believed in God and Jesus. I just never cared. To me, Christmas is about being with my family, snow, holiday magic, mistletoes, love, giving presents, and getting them. To me, Christmas has never been about Jesus's birth. I never cared. I probably didn't even believe in Jesus growing up. He's never crossed my mind. In the Christian program, CCD, I never cared. One teacher said that the baby Jesus is sleeping in the church, so we had to be quiet during confession. I hated confession. I'm not perfect, but I couldn't think of any legit sins as a child. Yes, in ELEMENTARY SCHOOL, WE HAD TO TELL CONFESSIONS TO THE PASTOR OR PRIEST OR WHOEVER HE WAS. I didn't kill anyone, steal anything, etc as a kid. I usually just said I was fighting with my brother and sister (both older). I kinda just bullshitted every confession. The only time I confessed something true was when I used to make my friend throw out my lunch every day in 3rd grade if I didn't like it. XP Don't worry, I've grown to appreciate meals. I only did that s**t for a year.
Anyway. In my final year (8th grade), a teacher told us that when we listen to metal or rock music, we're invoking evil spirits. Another teacher said that when we say, "god damn it," we're not just saying his name in vain. We're also condemning something that god created. So if I say, "Damn this grass" or "goddamned grass" I'm condemning grass lol.
I believed in god, but I never cared. I didn't believe some of the things the teachers said. CCD was a waste of time. Most of the kids hated it by 7th or 8th grade lol. I went to school with some of the CCD kids. They hated CCD, too.
Anyway. Here's the issue, finally. My sister is 22, and I'm 20. She used to hate and fear god until she joined a Christian club at her university. She was telling me, "Jesus died for our sins so we don't have to go to hell."
I never believed in worshipping. I sorta believe in a god, but I don't HAVE to worship him/her/it. That's how I feel. I asked her why we have to worship Jesus. She glared at me and said, "Because he died for us!!!!!"
-_- My other issue is Christian bands. I got into Skillet last year. I loved "Hero." I thought it was about real heroes, being a hero, etc. When I looked them up, they were Christian. "Hero" is actually about Jesus! As well as their other songs, with SOME exceptions. They do have non-religious songs. I loved "I'm So Sick" by Flyleaf. I love We as Human. I love Fireflight. I had no idea these bands were Christians.
Christianity and rock just irks me. Every time these singers say, "you," they're talking about god or Jesus, not an actual person. It gets me so mad. I hate it when they mention god/Jesus/Christ/lord in general. It's like, a kickass rock song, then they mention Jesus or God or Lord. -_- What a turn off.
I never liked Christian music that they show on commercials. It just sounds so childish. I once saw a commercial for Jesus-loving music, but a kid version. Like Christian Kidz Bop. emotion_facepalm Ever since I was young, I had a thing against Christian music.
And with these bands, I feel like I can't enjoy them cuz I'm not religious. But at the same time, whenever I hear Fireflight's singer say, "God is calling out to you, just let the healing start," I think.
These bands are making me feel like God is calling out to me. I never gave a s**t about God til a few months ago. Well, I still don't. But when I hear this music, I feel guilt.
Are Skillet, Flyleaf, Fireflight, and We as Human brainwashing me? I hate it when an awesome song turns out to be about God.
Part if me wants to throw God away. I see stuff online about benefits of going atheist. But when I think of no God, I feel sad. But why? Why am I sad? I never cared or worshipped him anyway.
I think these Christian bands are making me feel guilty for not accepting keys into my heart. I don't know if I'm atheist or agnostic.
What do I do? I read the Old Testament and HATED IT. God is a major p***k! Plus, there's no historical event where a flood destroyed humankind and an old guy had 2 of every animal on a boat. The whole son of god thing...born from a Virgin...
In my history classes growing up (PUBLIC SCHOOL), we learned NOTHING ABOUT JESUS OR A FLOOD OR A VIRGIN MARY OR WHATEVER.
Some experts say Jesus didn't even exist! Some say he was real, but the son/miracles/virgin birth is bullshit.
50% of me wants to throw away my religion, which I never fully believed in anyway, so it should be easy
50% of me feels guilty and empty without a higher power, BUT that's funny cuz I NEVER TURN TO GOD FOR ANYTHING
Are these bands making me worry over nothing?
Anyway. In my final year (8th grade), a teacher told us that when we listen to metal or rock music, we're invoking evil spirits. Another teacher said that when we say, "god damn it," we're not just saying his name in vain. We're also condemning something that god created. So if I say, "Damn this grass" or "goddamned grass" I'm condemning grass lol.
I believed in god, but I never cared. I didn't believe some of the things the teachers said. CCD was a waste of time. Most of the kids hated it by 7th or 8th grade lol. I went to school with some of the CCD kids. They hated CCD, too.
Anyway. Here's the issue, finally. My sister is 22, and I'm 20. She used to hate and fear god until she joined a Christian club at her university. She was telling me, "Jesus died for our sins so we don't have to go to hell."
I never believed in worshipping. I sorta believe in a god, but I don't HAVE to worship him/her/it. That's how I feel. I asked her why we have to worship Jesus. She glared at me and said, "Because he died for us!!!!!"
-_- My other issue is Christian bands. I got into Skillet last year. I loved "Hero." I thought it was about real heroes, being a hero, etc. When I looked them up, they were Christian. "Hero" is actually about Jesus! As well as their other songs, with SOME exceptions. They do have non-religious songs. I loved "I'm So Sick" by Flyleaf. I love We as Human. I love Fireflight. I had no idea these bands were Christians.
Christianity and rock just irks me. Every time these singers say, "you," they're talking about god or Jesus, not an actual person. It gets me so mad. I hate it when they mention god/Jesus/Christ/lord in general. It's like, a kickass rock song, then they mention Jesus or God or Lord. -_- What a turn off.
I never liked Christian music that they show on commercials. It just sounds so childish. I once saw a commercial for Jesus-loving music, but a kid version. Like Christian Kidz Bop. emotion_facepalm Ever since I was young, I had a thing against Christian music.
And with these bands, I feel like I can't enjoy them cuz I'm not religious. But at the same time, whenever I hear Fireflight's singer say, "God is calling out to you, just let the healing start," I think.
These bands are making me feel like God is calling out to me. I never gave a s**t about God til a few months ago. Well, I still don't. But when I hear this music, I feel guilt.
Are Skillet, Flyleaf, Fireflight, and We as Human brainwashing me? I hate it when an awesome song turns out to be about God.
Part if me wants to throw God away. I see stuff online about benefits of going atheist. But when I think of no God, I feel sad. But why? Why am I sad? I never cared or worshipped him anyway.
I think these Christian bands are making me feel guilty for not accepting keys into my heart. I don't know if I'm atheist or agnostic.
What do I do? I read the Old Testament and HATED IT. God is a major p***k! Plus, there's no historical event where a flood destroyed humankind and an old guy had 2 of every animal on a boat. The whole son of god thing...born from a Virgin...
In my history classes growing up (PUBLIC SCHOOL), we learned NOTHING ABOUT JESUS OR A FLOOD OR A VIRGIN MARY OR WHATEVER.
Some experts say Jesus didn't even exist! Some say he was real, but the son/miracles/virgin birth is bullshit.
50% of me wants to throw away my religion, which I never fully believed in anyway, so it should be easy
50% of me feels guilty and empty without a higher power, BUT that's funny cuz I NEVER TURN TO GOD FOR ANYTHING
Are these bands making me worry over nothing?
