Bonjour Belle
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- Posted: Thu, 03 Jul 2014 18:35:40 +0000
So my girlfriend somehow got free front row seat tickets to the Macy's fireworks tomorrow night as a surprise and I have zero interest in going... I know what you guys are thinking. How could you not want to go?! You must be crazy! And I can't really explain it without sounding like I AM crazy. Basically, I have anxiety and I HATE crowds. Even thinking about going physically and emotionally exhausts me. But when my girlfriend told me she got the tickets, I tried my best to sound excited because I knew how badly she wanted to go. She could tell, though, that I wasn't exactly happy about it and took it personally. Originally, we had plans to just hang out on my roof and watch the local fireworks and that's what I really wanted to do. But now we both feel like crap and tomorrow's plans are up in the air. At this point, I feel so shitty about the whole thing, I really just want to call the whole thing off and not even see her but I know that will break her heart. When I get overwhelmed, I tend to push those I love most away. I don't know what to do. I love her and want to make her happy but I hate having to compromise my own comfort, too. What do I do?
