I'm really glad this topic was made, as I was going to make a similar one. Except, I'm a recovered crazy-clingy person who was left for apparent reasons.
I really want this "closure", but I'm afraid to reflect on what it is I really want. The first person I dated two years ago. And...it was only for two months or so. During that time, I just met at his place, he would make dinner, we would watch a movie with his friends occasionally and sleep with each other. We never called it 'dating' or anything.
He eventually was 'too busy' to ever meet. And he did have two or three part time jobs with full-time classes, so that was understandable. And likely what made me grow more attracted to him.
And then I went a little bonkers. I sent enough messages over the course of a couple months to drive him to call the police. Deservingly received a no-contact slap on the wrist from the dean. I remember how mentally cracked I was...saying childish things to the *dean* like "he was my first" as if weeping to a counselor.
He was literally the most beautiful person I ever met.
I ended up being voluntarily hospitalized for anxiety and obsession and dropping a semester.
A year later, I completed a social psychology experiment on stalking behavior, which was dreadfully fascinating as I was able to prove to myself when I wasn't thinking clearly.
I've been dating my current partner for ten months now. I really like him. I think we're a great couple. Both gamers and off to an anime con this weekend. And in regard to the above issue: If I had a choice between achieving some sort of 'closure' or having that guy removed from my head entirely, I would pick him out of my head. I don't like that he is still in my mind.
What will make the obsession go away? Time? After a year of silence,I sent a concise apology, but why? At the time, I thought it seemed a noble action but there is no point since there will certainly never be a reply. I just want to heal a past mistake. It's ridiculous, but I have to keep telling myself that I'll be able to talk to him someday. Which is terrible because I don't kknow what that says of my current relationship. I wonder why I'm not satisfied to leave things in the past.
Perhaps I'm just an outlier with a mild obsessive disorder.