Idha Lu
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- Posted: Wed, 27 Aug 2014 07:38:17 +0000
- I've been shot up and ъeaten to no end.
- I was a man to be ғeared even when I was a slacker.
Now I am only a ϯraitor that had a cause.
- Only fragments remain of what I ѡished to protect.
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- It was as he feared. Her advice couldn't be anything but contradictory without knowing the sitation. There was no room for multiple attempts. There was no room for failure. If he was going to change things it would have to be a decisive and brutal blow. There was no need to let the Priestess in on that. She was already quite brave. Confiding in him her own story and that his taking her life would be no less frightening than what her body threatened her with on a regular basis. Even as useless as her affirmations were, they set him at ease. How horribly despicable. The words rang in his ears. He'd always sought the comforts of a woman in tough times. Emery had chastised him for it, calling him weak to feminine wiles.
It was true though. The gentleness of their expressions and the ones that were willing to listen and weave waterfalls of reassuring words were relaxing. The brought peace directly into his clouded heart. Even though he new deep down he was just as bad as he imagined, hearing someone else deny it so firmly was a wonderful escape. How he wished what she said about him was true. In the end he only knew one way to solve problems though. Taking parts. Taking lives. He was no better than Emery. He understood people's feelings towards her. Their fear. He could empathize with them. Looking at her was like looking into the darkest and filthiest parts of his own soul. Those same things that others tried os desperately to hide, she wore at face value.
He leaned his head into her hand as she cupped his cheek and moved his fingers over her. "I really want to be the person you see me as. I want to face those skeletons one day. Could you really stand by my side, no matter how dark it gets?" How he longed to pull her into his arms and derive the physical comforts that came with a woman's touch as well as her strong words. As cruel as it was, he could use her unwavering faith to justify murder. Killing Emery, ending her before she had the chance to end anyone else, was not defense. He wouldn't stoop to her level of seeing human lives as an expendable resource. No matter what the reason, taking a life was murder.
He wished he'd understood that sooner. If he'd gotten it as a young boy he could have whisked her away. Maybe he could have kept Ylaine. Prevented Emery. The monster she'd become was his demon to bear. He'd brought her out of her sheltered life. His fingertips traced from the back of the priestess' hand and down her arm until his hand rested firmly but gently against her shoulder. His other arm snaked it's way behind her back and he pulled her close to him. "Please, I need you to believe in me." His voice was weak. As sketchy his motives were, he needed an ally. He'd always reveled in having comrades. Viewing Emery as an enemy though meant he had no one else. All he could do was try to share the weight of his tainted soul with the overly accepting priestess and think of a solid plan to defeat his last family member.
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