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This is my first time posting in this forum so here it goes. I'm 26, female, and have been using a wheelchair and crutches since I was 14. I was doing laundry and fell down some stairs. I used to have spasms in my legs for eight hours non-stop until my neurologist that I've had since I was a kid for my childhood epilepsy told me to try Benedryl. So my spasms occur all the time all over my body, but are less severe most of the time. My long list of invisible disabilities are Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, torn ligaments in both ankles, chronic back pain, and muscle spasms. Recently I've had Mono and now an elevated liver. I'm facing a lot of pain lately especially since I got Mono back in October.
My three questions to any other Gaian that has to face an invisible disability are:
How do you cope with the emotional stuff that comes with the physical pain?
Have you had to make adjustments in your lifestyle?
What kind of invisible disability are you facing? (I love reading stories.)
1. There will always be days when I feel good, and there will be days when I want to hide under a rock. I believe that all things happen for a reason, and that good will come out of this. For example, having this disability has made me more compassionate and understanding in a lot of areas. I've learned to not take so many things for granted, that a lot of "normal" people sometimes do. And I've become more thankful for the things that are good in my life.
2. I have had to make many adjustments to my lifestyle... My issue is a digestive disease, so I've had to completley change the way I eat. I have very little energy, so i've learned to work around that, and to prepare myself for pain attacks.
3. I have a digestive disease called Gastroparesis. Meaning my stomach is paralyzed. It is a potentially life-threatening disease where the muscles that empty food from the stomach, into the intestines are fully or partially paralyzed, and food does not move through. Usually it just sits there until it's vomited back up, or causes severe pain, until the stomach FINALLY empties. I can't eat very much, and sometimes a few bites of food will cause me horrible pain. In really bad cases, people will have trouble keeping anything down, so they face malnutrition and flat out starvation. It has only recently been given attention by doctors since it's symptoms are so all over the place, that most of the time it was misdiagnosed as bulimia... (Even though the person with it wasn't forcing themselves to throw up.) Because of this, there are only a few known treatments. There are two medications that are known to help the stomach empty. (one of them is not available in America, and needs to be imported.) Then there are botox injections, where botox is injected into the stomach muscles, and it helps to relax them. Next is a gastric pacemaker that is implanted on the stomach. And then there are feeding tubes for those who can't get adequate nutrition. This disease has killed many people, and continues to kill a lot of people... In a support group of teenagers and young adults that I am a part of, we lose on average about 13 people a year (in that support group alone) A few friends of mine are dying from this disease... I'm thankful that mine is under control at this time, and I have hope in the fact that modern medicine and treatment can only get better as time goes on.