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Well; yeah um long story time.


When I was younger I was a gifted programs student; and I had been asked to join the NHS constantly.

Both in and out of school I had...a problem. I'd either get up and walk around the classroom for no reason, or I'd skip around the classroom; usually in a circle. I did this at home constantly as well.

I don't remember what I was doing, and I really bet I didn't know what I was doing either.


But as I got older, I forced myself to stop doing that (though I still have problems with it. Especially when I listen to music) and I had developed semi-depression; so stress levels went through the roof.

As I progressed through latter grade school and into middle school, my memory became worse and worse. I never could keep things organized, but it got worse and worse to the point where I carried around about 200 things in my backpack.

I would complete assignments, and I'd forget to turn them in.

I would forget about what I was doing while I was doing it. I have a VERY bad problem with this now.

It's not as simple as losing my train of thought; because it does not happen when I am switching between points of a topic. It happens in the middle of sentences or speeches; and I usually cannot regain the same enthusiasm / vigor when this happens, so I will usually cut it short and bullcrap through the end of it.

I have, and always have had OCD. I have neurotic worries about anything from a to z; and because of these worries my mind wanders much quicker from subject to subject. I can focus on only one thing at a time, but this thing will change constantly to the point where it is impossible for me to "not think".

When going through old topics looking for certain information I am prone to forgetting about how old it is and posting on it; which is my fault for not paying attention to the dates, however I will still forget even if I try to remember.

I try to place little things to remind me around myself and on myself. Most recently I marked my hand with pink highlighter so that I could remember to do homework, and well I never looked at it/remembered what it meant until the next day right before the class I had marked my hand for. I also remember things right before I go to bed, like while I'm in bed dozing off, and I fall asleep and then forget it in the morning. o3o

As I got older things just...they got more and more cluttered. I would forget to put things away as a child; but it's on a whole new level now that I'm older. There is, for example, about 7 different glasses scattered about the house because I forget to pick them up, even when there's a drink still inside. Same goes with games; I just take it out and put the disc down on the table the console is on, and I WANT to pick them up but I forget.

I have this thing against cleaning other peoples' things as well. Though that's more of an OCD thing.

This is probably unrelated, but I cannot be in any room without some sort of noise. I have to have my electric fan on in my room to do anything in it. I even keep it on during the winter, it's so bad.

I constantly make mistakes on math that have to do with writing down the wrong number; such as these simple examples...

Original problem: 5x + 15= 10

My mistake: 5x + 1 = 10

Original problem 39x = 3

My mistake: 3x = 3


I do this WAAAAYYY too often. ;A;

There is always something lost at my house. And I usually find it when I forget about it, then misplace it because of that.

I'm easily distracted when it comes to people talking to me or if there's something going on around me...

And I honestly cannot remember a lot of my obligations, such as doing the dishes or eating. When I want to get up early I forget to set my alarm for earlier; or I do but I forget I wanted to wake up early so I shut it off...

I also have been diagnosed with normal Anxiety disorder and Insomnia (Because I keep THINKING ABOUT THINGS ;A ; )

tl;dr

I'd probably think that ADHD is bullshit if I didn't have it. However this is getting to the point where I procrastinate TOO much; and I forget so much and so many things I want to remember.
It got WORSE as I got older; and it wasn't because of laziness. I have no motivation because I can't remember what makes me motivated.

There is so much more I could have talked about but I forgot ( ; A ; ) ,
If I were to guess based on what I know of science/biology/psychology,

I think it would be something that has to have an imbalance of some sort of chemical or transmission of a chemical due to a certain mix of genes.

Or more likely it's like the person was so overwhelmed mentally; through everyday activity or otherwise; that how the individual reacted to surroundings or focused lost much of its' productivity.

Spoons gaia_spoons

>Do you believe in ADHD being a mental illness?
>If so, do you have/know someone with ADHD?
>If not, why not?
>If so, how does it affect said person (above) ?
>If not, how do you feel about the marketing of the illness?
>If you have it, did Strattera leave you feeling dizzy, weak, and ill?
>Could the symptoms of this (so called) mental disease lead to further complications?
>How would this affect the normal person's everyday life?

It probably is sound; because it's kind of odd how well I can hear someone come into large rooms even if I'm on the opposite side...

It's odd but the atmosphere/air changes ;A;

Common misconception ADD/ADHD=bad grades

Not so, it's not a measure of inteligence. It has symptoms that can make learning difficult b/c they effect the ability to focus, and the way the brain processes data. There are various way s to deal with these, and if one find some of them, instictively, at an early age, than they are going to counteract some of the fallout that will land on another that hasn't been ale to do so.

My grades sucked, and I always thought I was stupid. Until I got to college and discovered that I was inclass w/ some real.....um not the brightest crayons in the box. And I found out, I was damned smart. I just had a different way of learning.

If you're dealing OK than you don't need meds. Many meds are just volume control, and more for the benefit of those around you rather than you. Find what helps you focus, and do it. Like me, if I don't have background noise, forget it. I'll be too busy listening to evey little thing going on within a mile to care what's happening right in front of me. I need something to drown it out. And if there's a bright light in the room, write me off, I'll be staring at it.