[M.S.T]
The Mangled Masterpiece
The sad thing is, if we express to doctor's that we feel this strongly by mentioning self-mutilation, they're not going to do s**t for you. It's either keep my cool while some condescending a*****e explains to me that I am an incubator, or tell them I'll take matters into my own hands, and be written off as insane.
That's no lie..
Suddenly it's like the Practicing Medical Surgeon turns into a Practicing Psychotherapist.
Next thing you know it you're feeling like you made a confession to a Priest instead of seeking medical intervention.
I don't even know how some people fathom that their job is to give advice when it's not a pre-cursor of extreme importance. Such as advising risks that may otherwise change your mind..
One day I'm going to ask these knuckleheads, "How's this for a risk? Eventually all of these abortions are either going to kill me or damage me anyway. If I am forced to carry a pregnancy to term, either because some a*****e made abortion illegal or because one more would ******** kill me and nobody would perform it, I'll be absolutely horrified with what I see in the mirror and I will refuse to live in a distorted body for one more minute. Then when I have the child (if I don't commit suicide first), I might beat it to death for making me suffer and become hideous."
"Or you can tie my tubes."