- Posted: Sun, 08 Jul 2012 19:21:36 +0000
Hello everyone! I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I lived a long life of name calling, mocking, remarks from family, to friends, to significant others to even strangers. Slowly it got to me and I suffered a long period of depression and low self esteem. With time my confidence also dropped and I found it harder to make friends or maintain relationships. It really made an impact on my life and even discouraged me from family activities, shopping, getting a job, finishing high school, etc.
Now that I am 23 and looking back at my past, I realize perhaps it's time to try again. Maybe this time I have enough courage to go through the journey- to get to where my heart has always wanted to be at! To finally feel good in my body and to stop wondering what other people are thinking! I want to do this for me is what I am convinced of this time. I am not doing it for anyone, but me!
That being said, I would love to meet other people in my shoes. I want to hear your stories, the struggles and the triumphs. Your tips and tricks and well i'll do my best to let you all know what exactly I am doing to get to where I am at.
Facts about my body
The most I ever weighed was 199 pounds which I have never seen again for 3 years! I have remained in the 180's zone for the past 6 months and am now pushing myself to go lower. The lowest amount of weight I have ever had, was when I joined a diet program and hit 160 pounds at the age of 18. I refuse to do strict diets because it easily discourages me.
So what am I doing to reach this goal then
I am doing a study of my own body! Yup, I have a log that I write into everyday. Simply put, I do not count calories, nor do I restrict myself to what exactly I eat. I don't count how many grains, or how many fruits I can eat. It is whatever my body feels it wants, or what I have in the fridge. I am not rich so I have to go with what my household can afford and work around with that. That being said, the only thing I am being very careful about- is my proportions. Everything I eat is either rounded off or measured by hand, bowls, tupperware, etc.
I lack in this area by a lot! I am pretty lazy when it comes to exercise. I find it hard to stick to something long enough, especially when my days are a lot busier than usual. I work a full time job, and come home tired- so any suggestions on light work outs would be great!