I've been through this many many times before.
There is honestly nothing anybody could do for me at this point in time.
Sure people could say, "Sorry for your loos." but I've discovered that almost eveytime somebody says that, they aren't truly sorry. It's pretty much their way of saying, "I don't care." without sounding rude.
But this recent death, it cut deeper than any of the other ones before it.
That's usually because people say that when they can't think of much else to say.
It's like saying, "Oh dude, that sucks." only with more tact.
But having been around the mortuary industry for so long and feeling that loss myself...
Well, I truly mean it. It breaks my heart to see that kind of pain, and makes me feel my own that much stronger.
I miss Arielle every day.
And my biggest regret is that we'd lost touch and I kept putting off getting in touch with her again.
I'd been thinking about her in the weeks before my birthday and just... put it off.
And then I woke up to a text on May 16th that said, "Arielle died in a car crash fyi."
That guilt just eats at me.