ginaookami
AdiMonster
So last winter i took some crazy and loooooooooooooooooooooong test that told me i had some things (id have to find the paper) and it also told me i had FEATURES of BPD.
Ive tried understanding it but i just dont get it!!
UGH!
If youre going to try to tell me what it is please dont tell me "i think its when....blah blah blah"
Just tell me what it means in a way i can understand.
THANK YOU!

I have an undiagnosed BPD. Essentially, what this means for me, is that my personality shifts slightly with my moods, making me appears sometimes as a different person. Emotions affect how you deal with and react to things.
undiagnosed BPD? personality shifting slightly has nothing to do with this disorder.
I know, because I have it diagnosed, and suffer a great deal.
It's being talked about being rename as "Emotional Dysregulation Disorder" Because that's what it is, essentially. An inability to regulate ones emotions. There are high rates of suicide attempts made among the BPD community. The best way that I can describe it is that a person with BPD (full blown, for the most part) is that we feel our emotions (whatever your go-to emotion is, generally, whether it be anger, depression, anxiety, etc) so deeply and overwhelmingly that you would almost rather die than feel that emotion. Those are some of the key components of it. I also have a severe fear of abandonment. To the point that I will cut people out of my life before they can abandon me. It's some sick, twisted way of I won't get abandoned if I abandon you first.
My personality doesn't switch, I'm the same all the time. Destroying lives left and right. But I'm warm and cuddly until I get triggered by something. We're a complex disordered person.
But maybe I was just misunderstanding you.
Sorry, I get a little touchy. But BPD is something that you can't diagnose yourself with, because there are so many components that go in to it and so many other disorders to consider before being able to diagnose it with. I am also diagnosed with a few other things, as well as a secondary diagnosis that overlaps with the BPD.
Sorry if I came off as rude. I'm a blunt person and I'm trying to learn how to come off as not being rude but I'm not good at it yet.