I am bisexual. I found out actually just last summer, though I've been bi in an obvious manner since first grade. I've always liked guys, and I alwaysget crushes on girls. Seriously. ALWAYS. It's a pain in the butt, because I live in Central Oklahoma, the land of Southern Republican Christian Homophobes. [The first three are fine, but they tend to enhance the last one.] I think everyone trying to shove heterosexuality down my throat is getting to my head, because all the time I'll see a girl and sort of check her out [yeah, I do that... Though for some reason I never do that to guys... XD] And in mid-out-checking, I'll start mentally screaming at myself, "STOP! THIS IS WRONG!" I really get annoyed at this, since I can clearly remember desperately wanting to kiss girls in my classes, while at the same time crushing on boys, and the only difference was I didn't know that there was gay & strait & bi, and I just thought it was normal. And for me and other bi people, it is. I've come out to most of my closer friends, and I'm so proud of myself for coming out to only 2 of my relatives. My brother, who is one of the three guys I'm closest to, totally didn't care. [really, he's a bit awkward about the idea of me going out with a girl, but it's basically the same rule with them as with guys-He'd better never, ever, EVER catch me in bed with either sex. Though he's never said that, we both know he's thinkin' it.] My dad, I didn't even mean to tell, but I accidentally did, and he doesn't care much at all either.
I am in a relationship, my first time dating anyone ever, [I'm such a dork =P ] and it's widely known around the school, although the person I'm dating doesn't go to mine. Since he's a dude, no one at my school knows I like girls too, and I don't plan on telling them, since the kids at my school are the main people stuffing homophobic thoughts down my throat. My boyfriend knows I'm bi and he really doesn't care, but what he doesn't know and what drives me insane is that I can't stop checking out girls! I'm pretty sure if I didn't pretty much love my boyfriend I'd probably have given in and tried to get with a girl by now.