CH1YO
Feril
Not a choice.
You're attracted to who you're attracted to, the only choice is if you choose to admit and act on it. The only proof I have to offer is if it were a choice, there is no way people would choose to be gay in countries where they are brutally tortured, then killed for it. Or even in countries where you're simply abused, unprotected and ridiculed.
On the flip side, with all the grief, drama and heartbreak we cause one another, who chooses to be straight anyways? I know plenty of people who would happily be asexual if it were a choice, to avoid dealing with sexuality and its baggage at all.
People make bad choices all the time. Sexuality is not really something special that people never make bad choices about. In fact there is lots of evidence that people routinely make bad decisions in regard to sexuality.
By no means am I saying people don't make bad choices, especially involving sexuality.
I am saying, as someone who has experienced violence first hand for my nature, I tried very, very, very hard to not be queer. Many others like me have. We go through deprecation, self-harm and loathing, shaming, regular physical, emotional and sexual assault, oppression.
I choose over and over again to be straight, to be normal, to be like other people. I studied and practiced, trying my best to be what I thought was good and right, what everyone was telling me was the only way to be.
My friends have died trying to force their sexuality to be a choice, because people told them it was. My sexuality is a part of my nature, my core make up as a human being that I cannot healthily deny. The continued deaths of
children because of this same issue, this same fight, share my message and for them, I will not be silent or try to change who I am any more. I will be proud of my self and who I love and will continue to work to make this world a place where anyone else can do the same. That is my only choice in the matter.