SphereWalker
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- Posted: Mon, 09 Dec 2013 04:31:53 +0000
Im nineteen and I really want to be comfortable in my head but my thoughts ******** me I dont even know who I am. I feel like my thoughts put me in a cage. I cant concentrate, live in the now, be confident because of my past and bad choices which sucks because I love people I have empathy for everyone and I know I can be a good friend if I was confident and knew my own voice! I care a lot, my only friends have always fed on my vulnerability and troll my insecurity especially if I open up. I get that they are their own people with their experiences but I wish I knew someone who got me didnt want to make fun of it. I know I acted like a ******** goon my whole life, all the ******** s**t i saw and did. I know I got to this point because of my own choices. More so I wish I was my ******** self instead of voices telling me s**t. Ive meditated and it makes me feel hopeless when my thoughts come back they are taunting and I feel like my minds jacked by some a*****e entity I created or something. Anyone feel me?