Jay's eyes widened subtly, his pupils shrinking when gavin pulled away from him. He had seen the pain in Gavin's eyes just as clearly as anyone else. Hell, he had seen it even better, since Gavin had been looking ta him with such hope, love, joy...
Only to have it all sink once Jay had opened his mouth. Unspeakable pain wracked down his spine, like poisened claws dragging across bone. His hand's caught the cage bars weakly, mouth opening to say something, anything. To explain why it wouln't work, to explain that he wouldn't be able to live with him so close, and yet even farther than before. To be allowed to touch him, but never to actually be with him. What kind of horror was that? Couldn't Gavin see? Couldn't Gavin understand?
'Let's go home.'
Home. The word echoed like a bad tune in his head. For what sort of home existed without Gavin? How could he leave his lover like this?
"Azizi..." he whispered, his hand reaching out slightly. Jabari's father had been Egyptian. When Jay had been young, he had often heard his mother call his father 'Azizi'. It meant 'precious' in his Fathers toungue. Jay would call Gavin by the name only at speciel times, secret times when they had a moment together, or maybe when he was tending Gavin's wounds. When he wanted to make him feel better, to let him know how special he was to Jay...
'Take him. take Jay away...'
Jay closed his lips, pulling his hands back inside the bars. He closed his eyes a quick moment, jaw clenching slightly as he picked up his breaking heart, and turned away. Slipping outside of the cage, he stood, not even noticing how good it felt to actually stand again, at his full height. His brown eyes were slightly flat, his fingers cracking as he looked at the man in the metal suit. His eyes narrowed subtly, and he had to force his jaws to stay closed, not to tell the man that if any harm came to Gavin under his care, he would come and rip his metal head off.
He turned away, eyes falling to Ahote. He didn't say goodbye. He wasn't going to leave gavin forever. he would earn his freedom from this man, and when he did, he would find and get Gavin for himself, no matter what it took.
:. The rest is coming tommorow. .: