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.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 9:04 pm
Shea Butryn
Tell me. Was your father abusive? You may cling to men like that because they remind you of your father. Maybe somewhere in your life you took abuse as a sign of people noticing you were there and your mind interpreted it as positive attention.


well.. my dad was abusive a lonnng time ago.. when i was 13 ar 14?

so.. i dunno. i search for sweet sensitive guys.. but always end up finding a very horrible guy whos good at acting like hes sweet and such..
.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 8:58 pm
Spinach Tuesday
You obviously deserve every single thing that's ever happened to you ever because the world only gives people what they deserve and we're all perfect and happy and nothing bad ever happens to good people.


xD not really
.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 8:06 pm
[Confucius]
Learn from it, it will make you stronger. No one deserves to be treated the way you do.


it has made me stronger but it still makes me sad that the ex wont change his no-moraled man hoe ways of lying and cheating. hopeuflly "god" can change him oneday when he's 40.. he might grow up then instead of being a ped.

thankyou though <3 heart
.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 7:48 pm
P A Y A S O T R I S T E
If you do have a baby, as a mother you have to ask yourself, do you want your daughter or son to have to go through his or her life the way you have lived yours? do you want the abuse you recieved to be passed to them as well? Im sure if your mother isnt afraid to hit or choke you, then she wont have any problem with hitting or shaking a crying baby.

With a baby, your mother will think its her right to see her grandchilderen. But you have to take a stand, if you want her to see the baby, then make sure you are close by. make sure she doesnt hurt your child. Dont be afraid to defend your baby, if your mom does try and hurt him or her, fight back. Teach that b!itch how a real mother should treat her offspring. With real love, and always, protection.

All that matters now, is that you keep your baby safe.



the baby is still in me
about 4 months now

its hard having a product of use/rape in your belly
it really makes you not want to have it

but it isnt the babys fault.. its the dads fault for being just like his dad: a lying, cheating, and pitiful man whore. i was truly blindsided by him telling me he was sweet and shy and such... only to find out that he used me and flirted with girls the very next day. hes actually up here still flirting with many girls, just proving that he did nothing but lie to me and waste my time.his name is half wasian and he wont even help me with the baby.

its sad that hes fooling so many girls up here too .. making them think that hes the sweetest guy in the world. the way he made me believe . but oh well. i dont really care if he ruins those hoe's lives

im still not sure on having the baby because i dont want a product of rape coming out of me.. but.. i know it doesnt deserve death. but i cant deal with it because my mom will probably hurt the baby.. and taunt me/harass me everyday on how i ******** up by being with a lying sack of grade A s**t

i might consider adoption..
.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 6:26 pm
iFrankee
and kill the other ex too


youre too violent rofl
.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 6:21 pm
Seristean
Dont overdose on Nyquil!


ill try not to xd

but what about dayquil?
.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 6:20 pm
Chiyo Suzaku
Melasaurus
Jisu sama
Melasaurus
Jisu sama
I kind of feel most kids over-use the term abuse.
They complain about how their parents are over-protective, love another child more than the other, or how they can never be free from their house..
But I never hear of actual sexual or physical abuse...
Not saying what you have isn't abuse but if your really in a abusive home you should stop ranting online and get actual help.

As for your ex...I hope you got back to him about that one.


youre pretty :3
but nah
im almost 19 and know wut abuse is but i love my mom too much to just leave for good
everytime i do she begs me to come back and i feel back

abuse isnt a whipping or takin the phone away
abuse is actual choking, hitting, kicking and stuff like that


Thank you <3
and ah see 'age' I would of totally re-worded this post.
But if she really is in an abusing home wouldn't you want to be out and have her leave as well?




her out? o.o
its her home..

i should leave in 2-3 months.. 4 tops..
i do want to be out but no one helps her at home but me and no one gets her attitude/issues but me

she cried last time i left and it really broke my heart
i love her even though i know what she does is wrong
dont think you can stop loving your mom or dad no matter how bad they are confused

Personally, about loving your parents, I despise my mom. I imagine her dying every day and feel no regret for it. There is a point where you stop forgiving people for the things they do. In your situation, you need to ignore your feelings and do what's right for you. Do what is in YOUR best interest. She may feel like she wants you there, and act like she loves you, but if she can't realize that she's causing you so much pain, you don't need to be around her.
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oh trust me.. i think homicidal s**t about my mom too and she does about me as well

i cant stop forgiving because i think its silly to hold a grudge.. ive forgivin many people who i know dont even deserve to walk on the same ground as i do (not to sound high and mighty)
.. but they are trash. i know it. but i still care about them and im still there for them

i dont like to live off of hatred because i did for my one ex that raped me. i hated him for 2 years.. mostly because he harrassed me endlessly for leaving him but still.. it drained me for 2 years. i wasnt really happy at all in those 2 years because of the pure hate i felt

confused im trying to do whats right for me.. finally ive stopped living for my mom and now im living for me. im woving out in 2-3 or 4 months to finallf live life the way ive wanted for 6 years.. she knows she causes me pain but i really feel like she thinks i deserve it
.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 6:14 pm
SpringTimeFox
Melasaurus
SpringTimeFox
The Great Heat Miser
SpringTimeFox
A small bird or rodent left on the bed tells them, I care.


              You're choosing to be with these slimy people.
              It is obviously something you don't want to remedy.


Why would she be able to have confidence in herself after years of abuse from various people? Why would she be able to say that she's capable of living by herself when people who've played large roles in her life have spent their time telling her the exact opposite? How does that make sense to you?
A small bird or rodent left on the bed tells them, I care.


              Because my whole life I've been living her situation.
              Just recently, I've cut all ties with the slime balls who ruined my last twenty years.
              Being that I was able to do it, I expect she can as well.


wasnt it hard losing your mom and dad though? ..
A small bird or rodent left on the bed tells them, I care.


              After being passed between the two for the majority of my life, after being beaten and choked, after being told I'm not good enough for the one mistake I made, after all the depression meds I had to take because of them?
              I dropped my father when I was 11.
              I cut complete contact with my father's side of the family earlier this year.

              I still talk to my mother.

              As for taking twenty years?
              The first eighteen was mandatory, the nineteenth was spent almost homeless, and the early part of the twentieth was spent realizing I had to get away.
              stare


i used to be on prozak and some days it would help if i was in an okay mood
but if i took it while sad it made me 10 times more depressed
i will never take those pills again confused

for me my mom is more of the problem instead of my dad
i am so sorry for what you had to go through...
causing any 1 mistake shouldnt put you in the hands of abuse.. no one should be abused confused

i think youre really strong for putting up with it for so long and then ending it completely
that takes pure bravery
thats something hard for me because i know my whole family will hate me because they dont see abuse as anything big
its hard to sit there and choose between :

1. get out forever and be happy+abuse free, but yet not have a family to celebrate holidays with or call if i need help..

or

2. stay and get abused some more physically and emotionally while digging deeper in depression.. but yet still having a family that cares enough to give me shelter and food

i always pick the 2nd because i dont want to go through life with no family..
.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 5:17 pm
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.. Go to post 40 Lifestyle Discussion Wed Nov 11, 2009 6:33 am
SpringTimeFox
The Great Heat Miser
SpringTimeFox
A small bird or rodent left on the bed tells them, I care.


              You're choosing to be with these slimy people.
              It is obviously something you don't want to remedy.


Why would she be able to have confidence in herself after years of abuse from various people? Why would she be able to say that she's capable of living by herself when people who've played large roles in her life have spent their time telling her the exact opposite? How does that make sense to you?
A small bird or rodent left on the bed tells them, I care.


              Because my whole life I've been living her situation.
              Just recently, I've cut all ties with the slime balls who ruined my last twenty years.
              Being that I was able to do it, I expect she can as well.


wasnt it hard losing your mom and dad though? ..
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