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Don't force yourself to come out if you don't want to. Chances are, the right girl will just come to you, and she'll know by the way you act.

I know I'm bisexual, but I'm afraid to admit it to myself. I've always liked both genders, but it's always been guys more than girls. I'm a different person when I'm with a girl I like, I can't help it. I feel like a guy should over a girl. When I'm with a guy I like though, I go back to being that scared little girl, wanting him to be with me. It feels like I have two personalities.

The thing is, I won't let myself come out and say I'm Bisexual. I always thing there's no way, that's just not me. Plus, I know no one would except me, no one that I care about anyway. I don't know what to do, because now there's this girl that I would really like to be with, and I now there's going to be more girls after her.

How am I going to admit this to myself? Much less other people?

Please tell me what it means when someone says "bump" in the forums. It's a stupid question, I know. I need an answer though.

He has zillions of friends, he really doesn't need me to support him. I can't avoid him at school, so I will stil see him. I just wont talk to him unless he says something first.

So what am I going to do about my mistake? I can't just take it back? I think not.

I have a problem with depression, but I'm planning to ask my mother to send me back to counseling. Suicide has been tempting at times, but what you've pointed out is the same thing I've realized. Even if he doesn't like me nearly as much as I like him, I don't think he would like for me to die. The idea of his death has ripped me up inside everyday sense I've meet him, because he was suicidal the year before I met him. I know he's unhappy with himself, and probably needs help, therefore I'm always scared. Now that I think about it, that's probably one of the reasons I'm trying to let go of him, if anything happened to him I would die emotionally. I can't deal with that.

My suicidal issues are not centered around him though, I just have some problems with my self esteem. He has really been what's kept me alive, the thought of not having him terrifies me. Plus, he's so incredibly sweet to me, when ever I'm around him I feel like every thing's okay. heart


I'm terribly sorry about your relationship problems. From what you've implied, I would think you really do like him. You should realize that you're lucky though, to have him like you back, if only for a period of time. It's better to have loved and lost to have never loved at all. I know it sounds strange, but it's completely true.

Inevitably, I've developed a weakness for him. I can't help but kill myself to make him happy. How such tribute can't be considered love I'm unsure. Such is life I suppose.

I've tried, but all the people I talk to tend to tune me out. I always come across as an obsessive stalker for some obtuse reason. I really don't know what love is, or at least I'm told that, so I have no idea what I'm feeling. It's hard to describe. I do think what I've done is for the best though, he'll be much better off with less (if any) of me.His happiness if deffinaty the most important thing.

Thanks, I love to write.

I'm trying not to regret it, but it tends to be extremely hard. It's nice to know that someone else thinks it's reasonable though.