Obscurus
Hey guys, I don't feel like slamming my head into the desk tonight!
I am kind of wondering though how many vampires consider vampirism to be something that they cannot get rid of. I already know there are a lot of people that wouldn't get rid of it if they could, but how many actually think it's possible? Be honest. How many people cling to their vampirism for the identity it gives rather then because they can't get rid of it?
I'm not sure if it's something you can "get rid of" but I suppose it's possible. I think it depends on the cause of the vampirism. If you can treat the cause, then yes, that could stop the vampirism. If you can't, then no. It also depends on how you view the cause, and if we're in the position to "treat" it, or if we actually want to.
Would I get rid of it if I could? Only if it was really debilitating. I mainly draw energy from nature, and ambient energy (from people) as well. This is usually enough for me, although I need a donor to feel completely satisfied. If I don't feed at all then it does start to cause problems. Most of this can be remedied easily, without the need to feed from a specific individual. Although I do have deeper cravings that I'm not going to deny. I don't view it as a disease. For some vamps the feeding process is enjoyable and sometimes intimate, and I don't think they'd want to let go of that either. Especially when feeding with a lover or close friend.
It's like...say there's a girl who's "plus size" but she takes care of herself and is healthy. While she may be happy with her weight, others say she needs to loose weight, or that she's ugly and fat. She
could loose the weight if she really wanted to, but since she's accepts that part of herself, there's no need to. (okay...weird example...but yeah).
I'm not really going to cling to vampirism for the identity aspect. Like I said, it's only one way to view it. I may tell people online, but in person I haven't told anybody. It provides a connection to others like myself, but in the end it's a name, I don't think I'm hot stuff because of it.
Also, like I said in my post on the other page, it's becoming a spiritual thing for me. When I take in energy, I also transform it. I like being a part of that process. It's also helping me understand different sides of myself.