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Red Phoenix48
Yes, i have a gun. Yes, it's pointed at my head.

The world is a pretty terrible place all by itself. There's murder, rape, genocide, theft, poverty and so much more.

Why bother living, i ask. Well, i can't see a reason. Nobody ever speaks to me, unless it's to insult me or warn me about another rock flying in my direction.

I'll live, bleed, then die. It doesn't matter what i do. I'll contribute nothing to society, and only put a drain on humanities resources. I can see no point n anything anymore.

As convoluted as this sounds so far, it's because i'm having a hard time finding things to say about this, in the right order. Thanks for at least trying to understand.

I'm unwanted, a mistake. Nobody needs me around. Nobody wants me to be alive. Mistakes should be erased and replaced with the correct answer.

I've tried everything. I've tried praying, I've tried answering things with rational response. I've tried working with other people. I've tried exercising. Nothing works.

Give me a reason to not pull this trigger.


Kimi o damashitetan da
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You've already given up - why should anyone stop you? My only request is that you don't do it with a gun since there's already enough negative PR for firearms. We don't need your little tantrum to give the liberals another reason to think we should repeal the second amendment.

"You're life is only meaningful if you are able to make someone else's better" - Dr. Laura.

If you refuse to see the good in life - you don't deserve to.
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Soon there will be war. Millions will burn. Millions will perish in sickness and misery. Why does one death matter against so many? Because there is good and there is evil, and evil must be punished. Even in the face of Armageddon I shall not compromise in this. But there are so many deserving of retribution ... and there is so little time. No. Not even in the face of Armageddon. Never compromise.

~Rorschach

My friend the world is a terrible place, but there are people in it to make things worth while. My personal cause it to stand up for those who cannot stand for themselves.

Find your cause. Why off yourself before you know why you're actually here?
because you won't do it, but then again we aren't suppose to say things like that...so i have a feeling this will be deleted.
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Cpt Lonestar
Because in a world of murder, rape, genocide, theft, poverty, you haven't experienced any of them?

Talk to people when they talk to you, and you'll have less of a problem with people not talking to you because they think of you as an enclosed emo?


^ THIS.
There has to be something positive in your life- christ, I know people who've been raped, lived on the streets, can barely walk out of physical illness, constantly beaten, half their friends/family died... basically every tragedy under the sun, & if they can still manage to find a silver lining then you surely can. Hell, I've lived through half that stuff & I can still be optimistic sometimes!

Also, the fact that you even posted this topic strongly suggests you don't ACTUALLY want to die. Get some therapy &/or medication, build up your confidence, & learn to live.
You don't have the GUTS.
CommandoDude
You don't have the GUTS.


That would be true. Read my post from a page back.
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Red Phoenix48
Yes, i have a gun. Yes, it's pointed at my head.

Whoa man are you typing one-handed? Man I hate typing one-handed. Sometimes I wonder what I'd do if I lost a hand. sweatdrop

Anyway, catch you on the flipside bro. cool

I though most men could type one handed.




Man, thats a great picture of Kat.....who did it?

Gramps
Give unto me your troubles.. I'll endure your suffering...



You are focusing only on the negative. If those people you speak about say they don't need you, then why do you need them? Cut them out of your life. There is much beauty in the world. You just have to seek it.



Give unto me your burden.. I'll drink your deadly poison...
life sucks.. but you only got one.. so please be crazy enough to keep living
Red Phoenix48
CommandoDude
You don't have the GUTS.


That would be true. Read my post from a page back.


See? I knew it. 9/10 times they don't have the guts to pull the trigger.

Maybe if you said you'd swallowed a whole pillbottle of Ibuprofin I'd believe you.

Good god I hate threads like these.
Your ether just playing around or really did it.

To be honest killing your self is selfish.
No one can make your self happy but you.
Most people don't get that they are in control of their own life.
I mean s**t!
I know all lot of people that tried to 'kill them selves'.

Because their so depressed.
But in reality they like the pain and being depressed.
Because they have problems.

And s**t I always thought that if you truly want to die just because the world is a horrible place, then you desvere to die.
It's ******** selfish and not really fair to some other people.

I may seem like a hard a**.
But I don't sugar code things.
Anybody can become angry, that is easy; but to be angry with the right person, and to the right degree, and at the right time, and for the right purpose, and in the right way, that is not within everybody's power, that is not easy.

You can't do anything about the length of your life, but you can do something about its width and depth.The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing.

With courage you will dare to take risks, have the strength to be compassionate, and the wisdom to be humble. Courage is the foundation of integrity.Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

If you want a guarantee for the good in people, life and things around you, buy a toaster. My parents told me that I could do and be anything I really wanted. I believed them. You should just belive in yourself, not worry about what other think.

You're on the road to success when you realize that failure is only a detour. Failure is not a single, cataclysmic event. You don't fail overnight. Instead, failure is a few errors in judgment, repeated every day. Make failure your teacher, not your undertaker and You haven't failed until you quit trying.

The purpose of life is not to be happy – but to matter, to be productive, to be useful, to have it make some difference that you have lived at all.Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed, simply because The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart.
My Dad pulled the trigger on his head too.
That really sucked, obviously.
So I can tell you from personal experience, it ******** up the people that care about you.
It ******** them up real bad.
You see. You are not going to pull the trigger.
You would have done that by now, instead of posting a topic on Gaia to get people to give you attention.

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