Marie-Cris
Losing a loved one is always hard. We lost our partner's life-cat, Cricket, a couple of years ago and it still hurts. Thankfully, we have Unlucky and Copper Belle that look similar to our departed boy ((though not completely accurate; Cricket only had the right side of his muzzle in the regular white triangle, the other side - including the left side of his nose - was black)).
I sincerely hope you are able to achieve this dream. The very best of luck to you
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The only other cat death I've gone through was when I was in elementary school, and that one still hurts. But it's nothing compared to how it feels to lose my fur-child. I was super close to Baby. He saw me as his mama.
I'm glad you have those items. The closest on gaia is the fluffy one on my avi, but it's still wrong on many parts.
Thank you for your support!
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