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- Posted: Thu, 09 Feb 2012 06:59:07 +0000
Hey guys,
So this is a story that I'm working on. Right now, I've only written the prologue, but I was interested in knowing how you feel about it. I'm not sold on the title so that'll probably change. Anyway, let me know what you think!
Prologue
His eyes were fixed upon the wax candle that slowly waned within its glass prison. The dance of the flame peppered his imagination with the vision of the vaudevillian showgirls that he’d become familiar with through old silent films and weathered picture books that he’d first found as a boy in his grandfather’s attic. In those days, he fancied himself as something of a treasure hunter, getting lost for what seemed like days in the old world archives of the three story house in Virginia that had belonged to his family for generations. The faint light illuminated his face ever so slightly, conjuring shadows upon his worn features. It was a tired face. The years had not been kind to the man, preferring to grant him hardships over luck and he swallowed his troubles late at night along with the bitter taste of wine.
As he let out a sigh, the aroma of the previous sip on his tongue prompted him to reach again for the bottle. Four minutes was far too long a period to wait in between drinks. He poured more of the heavy red into his empty cup and then into his eager belly. His head reeled, as it so often did. It was filled with dreams, hopes, and promises; but also failures, broken hearts, and stories of days long gone. Jacob Kinsley was a faux nostalgic. He was a man who longed for a period of time that he had never even lived in. As he raised the glass to his lips and sipped, he grimaced as the alcohol flirted with his tongue. While Jacob never loved the taste of wine, he liked the air of sophistication that it bestowed upon him.
He’d spent the last few months living in a tiny Harlem apartment, hardly staying afloat in a rising ocean of debt that he’d amassed in pursuit of a useless degree in history. While he didn’t wish to live the bohemian life, it was forced upon him by his worsening financial situation. However, by the morning he’d be gone. He’d leave behind the noise, the people, and the troubles of the city; at least for a little while. Jacob’s grandmother was ill. She’d always been a fighter, having survived a string of awful occurrences that included two instances of her house catching on fire (both of which she swore were not her fault), a failed robbery attempt by some men that she’d hustled at Chinese checkers, and an incident in which she was once hit by a horse and buggy while buying an apple pie from the local Amish market. However, it seemed that the grim reaper had finally coaxed her out of her hiding place and would soon come after her with his icy hand.
It began with her weight. While she had never been a large woman, Ella Kinsley had been losing weight consistently yet unexplainably over a short period of time. At seventy-six years old, she certainly wasn’t putting in her daily hour of cardio at the gym, and she was comfortable enough in her own skin that “revolutionary” new weight loss diets were of little use to her. However, even if she increased her food intake, the pounds seemed to disappear into the air as if they were evaporating like the year’s first snowfall that was failing to lay on too warm a ground outside of Jacob’s window. Little by little, she began to lose the drive that had made her such a headstrong woman, as if little pieces of her soul were already leaving her body in anticipation of the final journey. Most people upon receiving the news that they have liver cancer choose to dwell on the unfortunate nature of their situation, but not Ella. While the disease sought to destroy her body, she knew that it could never destroy her heart. She resolved to do all that she had not yet in life. Ella chose to spend her remaining time visiting foreign lands, seeing the Northern Lights, taking an airplane ride in first class, and learning to bake the perfect cake (a goal that made her relatives very happy). Above all of this, Ella knitted a quilt. Stitched into this quilt were panels and on the panels were the things that she’d accomplished in life that she was most proud of, the names of those that she loved, and simple things that made her happy like strawberry jam or ribbon candy. She displayed it proudly on her wall, so that when she passed, it would serve as a constant reminder of her love for those she touched.
However, recently Ella began to slow down. She was finding it hard to do simple tasks like lifting a gallon of milk or fastening the buttons on her old floral dress. On one occasion she called her daughter weeping over the fact that she’d forgotten that her birthday was the day earlier. Her memory was starting to fade, and she was well aware. When her daughter suggested that perhaps someone should be there to take care of her, she reluctantly agreed. For a woman who at one point in her life had only her pride when her father died and left her penniless, she was hesitant to put make herself vulnerable to anyone else, even if that anyone was blood.
Jacob had weighed his options carefully. He had just graduated with his bachelors degree and was as of yet undecided about what to do with his newfound freedom. He had dreams and aspirations, but they all seemed impossible under the weight of his mundane existence. He found himself working long hours to make ends meet, and yet had nothing to show for all of the sweat that he’d put into his labor other than a few paid rent receipts and an empty bank account. When he received the call from his mother informing him of his grandmother’s condition, he was floored. Jacob had escaped childhood without having any of his family members pass away. It seemed that they Kinsleys were blessed not only with good genes, but also the keys to the fountain of youth. His voice seemed lost in the back of his throat as he struggled through the usual questions: Will she be alright? How long does she have? When can I see her? A million questions raced through Jacob’s mind as his mother dutifully did he best to answer. The silent moments in between her fragmented responses and the fight to hold back her tears felt like ages. Jacob couldn’t imagine losing his mother, and his heart ached for her knowing that within the year her own mother would be gone. At she’d be able to spend her last days with a friendly face about.
Mortality was something that Jacob had always struggled with. He’d often find himself spacing out, daydreaming about his own death. Now, Jacob had no desire to die. In fact, it was quite possibly the most unpleasant and undesirable thing that he could think of. However, as morbid as it was, he could never stop himself from worrying. Would he die from a heart attack? Would he accidentally trip down a flight of stairs and land somewhere in purgatory? Or, would he die heroically by saving a group of school children from a rabid bear? These questions plagued Jacob’s thoughts. He would get lost in his imagination, eventually blowing his own mind and depressing himself over his inevitable demise. It was the unknown. He couldn’t stand the thought of not knowing what was going to happen to him. Death was supposed to be the greatest journey of all, and Jacob desperately hoped that he’d lose his ticket. He was afraid for himself, and he was frightened for his grandmother.
He stood up from the rickety wooden chair and tried to catch his balance. The wine hit him all at once, and he felt the room begin to spin like a carousel. Jacob stumbled back as he struggled to find his footing and make it to his bed. Never before had the simple task of tucking himself in felt like a brutal war between his legs and his coordination. Slowly and yet miraculously he made his way over to the feathered haven where he would drift off into uncharted lands. He closed his eyes and let his body freefall backwards into the cushions, and yet he instead of being met by the warmth and gentle touch of his bed, he was instead greeted with a large THUD as he smacked into the floor. The ground was cold, and he could feel wood beneath his hands.
Jacob sat up. His vision was blurred, and yet slowly a new world began to construct itself before his weary eyes. At first, all that he could see was a blinding white light. His heart sank deep down into his chest and felt for a moment that it would stop beating. A million thoughts raced through his head, but they all merged into a harmonious final chorus that screamed,” I am dead.” And yet, as Jacob’s anxiety had made the decisive call that he must be dead, new visions began to replace the light and colored in the washed out world.
Before him, he began to see faces. One face became two, two became three, three became six, six became twelve, and so on until there were hundreds of faces staring at him. They were each dressed to the nines in their finest clothes, looking extraordinarily dapper and silently staring at him with their vast sea of eyes. He looked around, greedily gasping at the air to stop himself from hyperventilating. He no longer was in his room. The walls were adorned with gilded sculptures of angels, and ornate trimmings. He felt the hard wood beneath his feet, and looked down at the stage that he was standing on. The audience remained faithfully silent as Jacob drank in his surroundings. The theatre looked as if it had been built by hands that had poured their passion into creating a world where dreams could come true. It was incredible, unlike anything that he’d ever seen, save for in books and films. The spectacle was enough to make him lose complete sight of the hundreds staring at him. The house was lit by fire, giving the faces a warm glow. Slowly, the lights on them began to fade and the ghost light illuminated. Jacob knew that a ghost light was an old theatre tradition and was used to help unsettled spirits find their way around so that they could at very least inhabit the place where they felt most alive; the stage. The light was faint at first, and yet it continued to grow. Jacob could feel the heat of the flame brushing against his face as the fire began to roar. The captivating light seemed to call his name as he moved closer, the embers dancing around his eyes. Gently, he reached out his hand. He moved it closer, and closer until at last the flame was just outside of his grasp. He closed his eyes, took a breath and thrust his hand into it.
Jacob bolted awake as a quick sharp stinging pain consumed him. He was back at his desk, with his candle knocked over onto the wooden surface, and a thin layer of wax on his hand. Somewhere between the last sip of wine and his newfound wax battle scar, Jacob figured he had dozed off. He took a moment to recollect his thoughts, picking up the candle and scraping the wax off of his hand. The theatre had seemed so real. The feeling of the stage electrified him and gave him a euphoric feeling that he’d never achieved in his waking life. Once more he stood from his chair. He dragged himself across the floor to his bed, closing his eyes and allowing himself to fall backwards again onto the cushions. This time, he was met with a soft grounding, instead of the wooden floor of the stage. A wave of disappointment splashed over him as he pulled the comforter over his head. The night outside was cold as the snow danced through the air like thousands of ballerinas. As Jacob drifted into slumber, he waited for the ship that would take him into the stars and back to the theatre just once more.
So this is a story that I'm working on. Right now, I've only written the prologue, but I was interested in knowing how you feel about it. I'm not sold on the title so that'll probably change. Anyway, let me know what you think!
Prologue
His eyes were fixed upon the wax candle that slowly waned within its glass prison. The dance of the flame peppered his imagination with the vision of the vaudevillian showgirls that he’d become familiar with through old silent films and weathered picture books that he’d first found as a boy in his grandfather’s attic. In those days, he fancied himself as something of a treasure hunter, getting lost for what seemed like days in the old world archives of the three story house in Virginia that had belonged to his family for generations. The faint light illuminated his face ever so slightly, conjuring shadows upon his worn features. It was a tired face. The years had not been kind to the man, preferring to grant him hardships over luck and he swallowed his troubles late at night along with the bitter taste of wine.
As he let out a sigh, the aroma of the previous sip on his tongue prompted him to reach again for the bottle. Four minutes was far too long a period to wait in between drinks. He poured more of the heavy red into his empty cup and then into his eager belly. His head reeled, as it so often did. It was filled with dreams, hopes, and promises; but also failures, broken hearts, and stories of days long gone. Jacob Kinsley was a faux nostalgic. He was a man who longed for a period of time that he had never even lived in. As he raised the glass to his lips and sipped, he grimaced as the alcohol flirted with his tongue. While Jacob never loved the taste of wine, he liked the air of sophistication that it bestowed upon him.
He’d spent the last few months living in a tiny Harlem apartment, hardly staying afloat in a rising ocean of debt that he’d amassed in pursuit of a useless degree in history. While he didn’t wish to live the bohemian life, it was forced upon him by his worsening financial situation. However, by the morning he’d be gone. He’d leave behind the noise, the people, and the troubles of the city; at least for a little while. Jacob’s grandmother was ill. She’d always been a fighter, having survived a string of awful occurrences that included two instances of her house catching on fire (both of which she swore were not her fault), a failed robbery attempt by some men that she’d hustled at Chinese checkers, and an incident in which she was once hit by a horse and buggy while buying an apple pie from the local Amish market. However, it seemed that the grim reaper had finally coaxed her out of her hiding place and would soon come after her with his icy hand.
It began with her weight. While she had never been a large woman, Ella Kinsley had been losing weight consistently yet unexplainably over a short period of time. At seventy-six years old, she certainly wasn’t putting in her daily hour of cardio at the gym, and she was comfortable enough in her own skin that “revolutionary” new weight loss diets were of little use to her. However, even if she increased her food intake, the pounds seemed to disappear into the air as if they were evaporating like the year’s first snowfall that was failing to lay on too warm a ground outside of Jacob’s window. Little by little, she began to lose the drive that had made her such a headstrong woman, as if little pieces of her soul were already leaving her body in anticipation of the final journey. Most people upon receiving the news that they have liver cancer choose to dwell on the unfortunate nature of their situation, but not Ella. While the disease sought to destroy her body, she knew that it could never destroy her heart. She resolved to do all that she had not yet in life. Ella chose to spend her remaining time visiting foreign lands, seeing the Northern Lights, taking an airplane ride in first class, and learning to bake the perfect cake (a goal that made her relatives very happy). Above all of this, Ella knitted a quilt. Stitched into this quilt were panels and on the panels were the things that she’d accomplished in life that she was most proud of, the names of those that she loved, and simple things that made her happy like strawberry jam or ribbon candy. She displayed it proudly on her wall, so that when she passed, it would serve as a constant reminder of her love for those she touched.
However, recently Ella began to slow down. She was finding it hard to do simple tasks like lifting a gallon of milk or fastening the buttons on her old floral dress. On one occasion she called her daughter weeping over the fact that she’d forgotten that her birthday was the day earlier. Her memory was starting to fade, and she was well aware. When her daughter suggested that perhaps someone should be there to take care of her, she reluctantly agreed. For a woman who at one point in her life had only her pride when her father died and left her penniless, she was hesitant to put make herself vulnerable to anyone else, even if that anyone was blood.
Jacob had weighed his options carefully. He had just graduated with his bachelors degree and was as of yet undecided about what to do with his newfound freedom. He had dreams and aspirations, but they all seemed impossible under the weight of his mundane existence. He found himself working long hours to make ends meet, and yet had nothing to show for all of the sweat that he’d put into his labor other than a few paid rent receipts and an empty bank account. When he received the call from his mother informing him of his grandmother’s condition, he was floored. Jacob had escaped childhood without having any of his family members pass away. It seemed that they Kinsleys were blessed not only with good genes, but also the keys to the fountain of youth. His voice seemed lost in the back of his throat as he struggled through the usual questions: Will she be alright? How long does she have? When can I see her? A million questions raced through Jacob’s mind as his mother dutifully did he best to answer. The silent moments in between her fragmented responses and the fight to hold back her tears felt like ages. Jacob couldn’t imagine losing his mother, and his heart ached for her knowing that within the year her own mother would be gone. At she’d be able to spend her last days with a friendly face about.
Mortality was something that Jacob had always struggled with. He’d often find himself spacing out, daydreaming about his own death. Now, Jacob had no desire to die. In fact, it was quite possibly the most unpleasant and undesirable thing that he could think of. However, as morbid as it was, he could never stop himself from worrying. Would he die from a heart attack? Would he accidentally trip down a flight of stairs and land somewhere in purgatory? Or, would he die heroically by saving a group of school children from a rabid bear? These questions plagued Jacob’s thoughts. He would get lost in his imagination, eventually blowing his own mind and depressing himself over his inevitable demise. It was the unknown. He couldn’t stand the thought of not knowing what was going to happen to him. Death was supposed to be the greatest journey of all, and Jacob desperately hoped that he’d lose his ticket. He was afraid for himself, and he was frightened for his grandmother.
He stood up from the rickety wooden chair and tried to catch his balance. The wine hit him all at once, and he felt the room begin to spin like a carousel. Jacob stumbled back as he struggled to find his footing and make it to his bed. Never before had the simple task of tucking himself in felt like a brutal war between his legs and his coordination. Slowly and yet miraculously he made his way over to the feathered haven where he would drift off into uncharted lands. He closed his eyes and let his body freefall backwards into the cushions, and yet he instead of being met by the warmth and gentle touch of his bed, he was instead greeted with a large THUD as he smacked into the floor. The ground was cold, and he could feel wood beneath his hands.
Jacob sat up. His vision was blurred, and yet slowly a new world began to construct itself before his weary eyes. At first, all that he could see was a blinding white light. His heart sank deep down into his chest and felt for a moment that it would stop beating. A million thoughts raced through his head, but they all merged into a harmonious final chorus that screamed,” I am dead.” And yet, as Jacob’s anxiety had made the decisive call that he must be dead, new visions began to replace the light and colored in the washed out world.
Before him, he began to see faces. One face became two, two became three, three became six, six became twelve, and so on until there were hundreds of faces staring at him. They were each dressed to the nines in their finest clothes, looking extraordinarily dapper and silently staring at him with their vast sea of eyes. He looked around, greedily gasping at the air to stop himself from hyperventilating. He no longer was in his room. The walls were adorned with gilded sculptures of angels, and ornate trimmings. He felt the hard wood beneath his feet, and looked down at the stage that he was standing on. The audience remained faithfully silent as Jacob drank in his surroundings. The theatre looked as if it had been built by hands that had poured their passion into creating a world where dreams could come true. It was incredible, unlike anything that he’d ever seen, save for in books and films. The spectacle was enough to make him lose complete sight of the hundreds staring at him. The house was lit by fire, giving the faces a warm glow. Slowly, the lights on them began to fade and the ghost light illuminated. Jacob knew that a ghost light was an old theatre tradition and was used to help unsettled spirits find their way around so that they could at very least inhabit the place where they felt most alive; the stage. The light was faint at first, and yet it continued to grow. Jacob could feel the heat of the flame brushing against his face as the fire began to roar. The captivating light seemed to call his name as he moved closer, the embers dancing around his eyes. Gently, he reached out his hand. He moved it closer, and closer until at last the flame was just outside of his grasp. He closed his eyes, took a breath and thrust his hand into it.
Jacob bolted awake as a quick sharp stinging pain consumed him. He was back at his desk, with his candle knocked over onto the wooden surface, and a thin layer of wax on his hand. Somewhere between the last sip of wine and his newfound wax battle scar, Jacob figured he had dozed off. He took a moment to recollect his thoughts, picking up the candle and scraping the wax off of his hand. The theatre had seemed so real. The feeling of the stage electrified him and gave him a euphoric feeling that he’d never achieved in his waking life. Once more he stood from his chair. He dragged himself across the floor to his bed, closing his eyes and allowing himself to fall backwards again onto the cushions. This time, he was met with a soft grounding, instead of the wooden floor of the stage. A wave of disappointment splashed over him as he pulled the comforter over his head. The night outside was cold as the snow danced through the air like thousands of ballerinas. As Jacob drifted into slumber, he waited for the ship that would take him into the stars and back to the theatre just once more.