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these thoughts are consuming all of my time
please god, if you're there, make this a lie
make this reality burst out in flames
and all of these happenings go on their way.

please god, don't let this be true
you can't add another expecting us to help it get through
one more soul to add to the pile
but innocence alone will put it on trial.

a life that's still a mystery
maybe real, maybe created by my imagery
maybe it's stress, all the nausia and monthly pains out of place
or maybe this ilnness was granted by god's thoughtful grace.

i dreamt last night that i could see you in me
this little figure that i called my babay
it calmed my nerves to see you safe in there
but then i woke up, again i was scared.

a child raising a child, what an ironic thought
i thought i was being safe but my mistakes show i'm not.
in a few more days i'll know if you're real
but until then this instant sicknessis all i can feel.