Bippy crying
After reading a series of posts and threads about many people choosing to be agnostic around the age of 20+, i wonder why that is a common trend and why it takes place?
is it because of how much has been exposed to you having existed for 20 years of your life, or do you think it's a pretentious trend run along by people who deem themselves to be more knowledgeable in life? discuss.
Born and raised Mormon here. I went to Utah (I'll be going back soon) for a few years of education, where everyone is basically Mormon. I got pretty big into Mormon Apology a few years back, and it's answered basically all my questions about anti-mormonism (because there is a lot of material out there to basically ridicule their beliefs). After talking to men and women my age, who are very religious and believe 100% that their religion is true, and that God exists, I guess that I really started to question the truth behind it.
Exposing myself to apologetics really got me to think about fallacies. I couldn't trust really any evidence provided by other people. I couldn't trust people to give me faith. I had to think about all of this, and really consider if God was there.
And so I did. I thought about it. I tried praying, and nothing really clicked for me. After all of that, I'm still left in this weird position in life. I don't like going to church, because it's overly preachy, and full of people who could basically be talking nonsense. I don't like praying, because I've always felt let down by the responses. I've never seen any reason to actually want to think a God exists. I mean, I can see that it could make sense, but at the same time I just really don't know.
And for that reason, I call myself atheist-agnostic. I don't know a God exists, and I don't claim to know. I think that hard-atheists are not really any better than the atheists (while they may have some good points). Honestly, I can't tell if God just doesn't want me to know something, or if God truly doesn't exist. I've stopped thinking about it, and I've just accepted that either way, I'm not going to know anytime soon. There is no reason to be so anxious and put yourself through so much religious self-hatred for your inability to do what this "God" wants you to do. All in all, I really do hope that there is some afterlife where we can all live as perfect beings, happily and forever. Part of me doesn't want my hopes to get up too high however, because it does sound fairytale-ish.
I don't know exactly where I fit in with all of this. I know I'm supposed to discuss, but I feel like my life story is relevant to the discussion; I am atheist-agnostic simply because I have started to acknowledge my true feelings about my faith in God. The religious people in my life were influential, but not in the way that they might have expected or hoped.