Leland18
X-Yami-no-Ko-X
PyroBaby12
Well said, Alisha! I couldn't agree more with everything you've just said. Part of being a Pagan is understanding that we each come form a different walks of life and not everyone's beliefs coincide. Our job in instructing a new-comer is to answer their questions to the best of our ability while encouraging their individual growth and exploration of the various paths. I follow Wicca, and I still have much to learn on my journey. I just self initiated in December, and I hope to grant other Pagans the same room to question that I had. One day, I wish to lead my own coven, but I have a long way to go before such a dream can materialize. For now, I'm reading as much as I can while keeping an open mind to learn about different religions. I'm starting by learning what I can about Shamanism, and from there I will continue to search until I no longer walk this Earth.
What tradition of Wicca?
Right now, I'm just walking my own path. I just know what I've read in books and from talking to other Wiccans throughout my life. I'm still searching for what tradition suits me, but I know I'm getting closer to finding my way.
Walking your own path is great and there is nothing wrong or wanting in that. But your own path will not be the same as, or recognizable as, Wicca. Wicca requires a lot of specific things because it is an orthopraxic religion. That means, what you do defines it, not what is believed.
Until you know what path you want to walk, and know enough to understand that
a) Your not yet Wiccan b) Wicca may not even be for you and c)Self initiation is impossible and very different from self-dedication, should you really be distracting yourself with others, even if it's just a thought to? In my tradition, it is considered that a person must learn their own path, their own mind and their own self before allowing their time to be taken with assisting others. This process commonly takes many years. For some, this learning takes over a decade, for others it is their life-path. There is nothing lacking in being selfish about your own spiritual growth and understanding. No one says you have to share.
Stop thinking about many years down the line and start thinking about right now. Get your own feet and head on the ground before trying to guide a provide for others!