xXPhoenix DownXx
Hey guys, I won't try to bother you with a lengthy story about my religious history. I had been a Christian for all my life, and became serious about a couple years ago. I still went to a couple gatherings to be around other Christians. I started to dislike it when I was told I wasn't allowed to find my own love and be able to explore my body. I then became increasingly upset over how hipocorsy (sp?) plays a role in the religion.
I understand how there is supposed to be love and that the way people choose to live is nothing but sin to the eyes of a Christian. I have recently and in the past discriminated this religion saying they're wrong and became increasingly ignorant of their God and Jesus. I am always annoyed when I am around Christians and everything they talk about annoys me. I feel like I want to stab them all. I honestly don't know what to do with myself.
I have been an Agnostic Theist for a while and I am just really confused on what to believe in now. I grew with this believe system all my life. I absolutely dislike the idea that we all are pushed around by having to do believe in something we don't see. I desire to believe there is an afterlife where we meet our dead loved ones. I don't really believe in reincarnation, but I am open to it. I also believe in the ideals of supernatural that spirits and demons are real.
I have a deep desire to explore other religions and see what I might like. I feel a looming darkness inside of me when I say "I don't believe in Jesus." For so long I have told myself that it is wrong to even think that out of fear I have a nice little place in hell for what I chose. I don't want to become one of those Atheists or just stupid people that get overly angry when Christians do stupid s**t. I really want to, but I have no knowledge to really back myself up at all.
Anyone have any advice for me in my religious explorations?
Really i think it is just about what is most comfortable to you and finding something that you an really believe in. and if you have a problem not believing in jesus There are other religions that believe in jesus. For example in Islam Jesus is a prophet and he is a great man.
When i was picking a religion i just kind of picked one that seemed good and tried to learn the basics, not that, that worked out very well for me because Islam just kind of found me, but i think it is a good start. Or talking to people of other religions
smile